Well, here's the next chapter of Thoughts. Hope you like. And I'll get the
next chapter of Aishiteru up as soon as I can.
Y.G.G.- I'm not saying the disclaimers. If you want to read them, go to the last chapter.
Niku- Kai/Tyson fans, this chapter isn't really for you. It's more for Ray/Max readers. There is a slight mentioning though. Ray's POV.
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I wonder what it's like to be free? Exciting? Lonely? Blank? Either way, I wish I was. Then I wouldn't have to worry about anything.
Some people say that their free. I wonder why they lie? Nobody is ever free. Then we wouldn't be judged. Or discriminated. Or anything like that.
That's why we're not free.
Of course, I'm not free. All because I live in a isolated mountain village doesn't mean that I'm free. It just means that I have a lot of space to roam around. Not being free.
Freedom must be a wonderful thing. I wonder if anybody has really had freedom? It's probably really nice. To do what you want to do. Go where you want to go. Say what you want to say.
And feel how you want to feel without someone treating you with scorn.
I wonder what's wrong with people? All because you love someone of the same gender, your a freak? Is that what it makes you? I don't get it. In my mind at least, it doesn't matter. Your still a person. You still go to school or work. You still eat. You still sleep. All like a normal person.
Does one little thing like loving a person of the same sex change that? I never thought so.
I still do all those things. Even though I love a boy, I still eat, sleep, Beyblade, and everything else I like to do. I don't find anything different, do you?
Then what's the problem?
Oh well, thats society for you.
I wonder how Maxie feels about these things though? Even though he's really outgoing and friendly, I still don't really know him.
Maybe I should try harder? Maybe.
I wonder if he has any feelings for me? I mean, more that a friend or a unrelated brother? If he did, I wish he would tell me. Or shoud I tell him? Either way would be nice I guess.
But rejection or losing his trust and friendship only to gain disgust in return would kill me.
At least I stole a kiss from him. I wonder if it was his first? I hope it was.
Of course, he doesn't know about it. No, he was sleeping peacefully in a hotel room bed. If he was awake, I wouldn't have done it at all.
It was simple. A mere press of my lips against his. Nothing fancy, but not sloppy either.
It was good enough for me.
No, scratch that. It was heaven for me.
It was the most wonderful feeling in the world. At that moment, I knew that I loved him. It felt so right to kiss him, like we were meant to be together.
Then he moved.
Just a slight turn of the head, could be caused by a dream or discomfort or something small like that, but It was enought for me to break the kiss and scramble out of the room.
When I got in my room, all I could think of was how his lips felt against mine. With small afterthoughts of 'I'm gonna die' of course.
Imagine my relief the next day when he claimed that he dreamt it all. I think I must've turned into a puddle of relief.
But I still couldn't help but think of that small kiss.
It's moments like these that I envy Kai and Tyson. They know how the other feels about them. They can make out every day if they wanted to. Without anybody knowing of course. They seem to have a little thing about keeping their relationship a secret.
I wonder how long they have been going out anyway? Couple days? Weeks? Months? Oh well, it doesn't matter.
But I do wonder if I can get some acting classes from them. Maybe? It would help me a great deal.
Heh. Acting skills. Never thought I ever needed those. Me. The guy that can get any girl in the world. That practically has girls dropping at his feet.
But, I never counted on loving another boy either. I wonder how Mariah would act? Lee and Kevin already know. They have nothing against it. Of course, their going out though. And Gary doesn't even care. He's too into eating to notice.
Max.
Hmmm... Wonder if I can ever tell him how I feel without being afraid of rejection?
See, I told you I wasn't free.
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::sweatdrops:: Ray wonders a lot doesn't he? Anyway, hope you guys liked the chapter. And is Draciel a turtle? Could you please tell me?
Y.G.G./Niku- Please R&R.
OMG!!! They worked together on something!!!
Y.G.G.- I'm not saying the disclaimers. If you want to read them, go to the last chapter.
Niku- Kai/Tyson fans, this chapter isn't really for you. It's more for Ray/Max readers. There is a slight mentioning though. Ray's POV.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
I wonder what it's like to be free? Exciting? Lonely? Blank? Either way, I wish I was. Then I wouldn't have to worry about anything.
Some people say that their free. I wonder why they lie? Nobody is ever free. Then we wouldn't be judged. Or discriminated. Or anything like that.
That's why we're not free.
Of course, I'm not free. All because I live in a isolated mountain village doesn't mean that I'm free. It just means that I have a lot of space to roam around. Not being free.
Freedom must be a wonderful thing. I wonder if anybody has really had freedom? It's probably really nice. To do what you want to do. Go where you want to go. Say what you want to say.
And feel how you want to feel without someone treating you with scorn.
I wonder what's wrong with people? All because you love someone of the same gender, your a freak? Is that what it makes you? I don't get it. In my mind at least, it doesn't matter. Your still a person. You still go to school or work. You still eat. You still sleep. All like a normal person.
Does one little thing like loving a person of the same sex change that? I never thought so.
I still do all those things. Even though I love a boy, I still eat, sleep, Beyblade, and everything else I like to do. I don't find anything different, do you?
Then what's the problem?
Oh well, thats society for you.
I wonder how Maxie feels about these things though? Even though he's really outgoing and friendly, I still don't really know him.
Maybe I should try harder? Maybe.
I wonder if he has any feelings for me? I mean, more that a friend or a unrelated brother? If he did, I wish he would tell me. Or shoud I tell him? Either way would be nice I guess.
But rejection or losing his trust and friendship only to gain disgust in return would kill me.
At least I stole a kiss from him. I wonder if it was his first? I hope it was.
Of course, he doesn't know about it. No, he was sleeping peacefully in a hotel room bed. If he was awake, I wouldn't have done it at all.
It was simple. A mere press of my lips against his. Nothing fancy, but not sloppy either.
It was good enough for me.
No, scratch that. It was heaven for me.
It was the most wonderful feeling in the world. At that moment, I knew that I loved him. It felt so right to kiss him, like we were meant to be together.
Then he moved.
Just a slight turn of the head, could be caused by a dream or discomfort or something small like that, but It was enought for me to break the kiss and scramble out of the room.
When I got in my room, all I could think of was how his lips felt against mine. With small afterthoughts of 'I'm gonna die' of course.
Imagine my relief the next day when he claimed that he dreamt it all. I think I must've turned into a puddle of relief.
But I still couldn't help but think of that small kiss.
It's moments like these that I envy Kai and Tyson. They know how the other feels about them. They can make out every day if they wanted to. Without anybody knowing of course. They seem to have a little thing about keeping their relationship a secret.
I wonder how long they have been going out anyway? Couple days? Weeks? Months? Oh well, it doesn't matter.
But I do wonder if I can get some acting classes from them. Maybe? It would help me a great deal.
Heh. Acting skills. Never thought I ever needed those. Me. The guy that can get any girl in the world. That practically has girls dropping at his feet.
But, I never counted on loving another boy either. I wonder how Mariah would act? Lee and Kevin already know. They have nothing against it. Of course, their going out though. And Gary doesn't even care. He's too into eating to notice.
Max.
Hmmm... Wonder if I can ever tell him how I feel without being afraid of rejection?
See, I told you I wasn't free.
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::sweatdrops:: Ray wonders a lot doesn't he? Anyway, hope you guys liked the chapter. And is Draciel a turtle? Could you please tell me?
Y.G.G./Niku- Please R&R.
OMG!!! They worked together on something!!!
