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In all of my stories excuse my spelling and my grammar!

A/N: IF you are a fan of voyager "books" then you have most likely read the book "Mosaic" by Jeri Taylor. If you haven't you really should. In the book Kathryn attempts suicide twice. Once obviously and another time subtly. I thought that it would be fun to see everyone's hero feel sorry for herself then try something stupid with an added factor then watch the story unravel its self. I got the inspiration from that song "warning" (disclaimer for that subject is in the fist chapter) I think everyone feels helpless sometimes and have wondered about something that our society looks down. If you can relate to this story call a hotline.





Her life was all that terrible wasn't it? She didn't have anything she wanted. And all she wanted was him. Nothing was keeping her from him, seven was out of the picture Kathryn was alone. The only thing keeping her away from him was her. And the truth was that she couldn't help it. She didn't know how to say it. All of this made her head spin. Every time she tried to find the root of the problem it all came back to her. She was so unhappy and everyone was unhappy with her. She knew what to do. She had attempted suicide many times long before but she had always found a reason not to. This time she had immersed herself in solitude. Nothing could stop her, no one could talk her out of it. It was written all over her. She looked desperate, weak and sad. She looked like she lost her best friend and from her perspective she had. Speaking of Chakotay she had just finished her note for him. When someone eventually found her they would find PADD's with recorded messages for all of them. She told Harry not to worry, she told the doctor there was no way for him to have known, she told seven that she was proud of her and that she never wanted this to be her example, she told B'Elanna and Tom that she wished them a happy marriage. She left Chakotay with a small message. "She's yours, name her Helen." Kathryn laughed. She'd love to see the sick look on his face. She'd love to hear him scream about how crazy she was or had become. Kathryn cleared her mind. She looked up into the rainy sky. She smiled she was finally going to be released. In the process everyone would be better off except for two people. And they were the reason she decided to do this anyway, Chakotay and her unborn child.