Chapter 12
About a week after their fight, the decision was made that Syd would stay with Vaughn indefinitely. The CIA had known about her return for quite some time but they weren't pushing her for anything. Her friends all knew that she was back and that she was alright, most of them were a little confused, though, by the about face that her life had taken. She had also had taken a sabbatical from school being assured by her counselors that she could return in the fall.
Life was great for her.
Right. As she lay in bed one night, all she could think of was how she felt like she was sitting limbo, just waiting for something to happen. Sure SD-6 was gone and she could begin her life with Vaughn but it felt like everything was wrong.
She was absolutely miserable.
Suddenly she jumped out of bed tossing on clothing as she went and disappeared out into the night.
It didn't take Vaughn long to find her, two guesses to be exact. When he finally reached the pier, he spotted her immediately. He went up behind her and placed his arms around her surprised that she didn't react.
'I knew it was you.' she said in answer to his unspoken question.
'Why are you all the way out here in the middle of the night? he asked gently. 'It's damn cold you know!' he said tightening his arms around her.
She giggled at this but her mood quickly turned somber.
'Need to talk?' he asked quietly.
'I'm lost.' she stated simply.
Vaughn kissed her temple and just let her take her time.
Turning in his arms, she lay her head against his chest and closed her eyes.
'I finally have everything that I have worked so hard to get but I am so stir crazy! I have said time and time again that I hate being a spy but I don't know how to be anything else. What good am I to anyone, honestly? I am no closer to getting a job as a teacher than I was before and even if I get a job I can only do it part time thanks to my latest escapades. I cannot sit around that apartment one more day Vaughn, I swear. I want everything to be okay and I have no idea how to get there. I just want to be happy and I'm not.'
Vaughn let her finish even though he wanted to interrupt the words that were tearing him apart.
'First of all, NEVER question your worth. You know damn well that you are precious to so many of us and you have always refused to believe this. Secondly, I am always here to help. I am hearing what you are saying and wondering to myself how long you have been sitting on this. Do you not know that I would die for you? This is nothing that we can't fix Syd!'
