This is what has been happening to Ross, there was protested on the first reviews I got that Ross wouldn't leave… Well I hope your ready for this

It's been 3 months since I've seen my friends; my little girl has been born. I've been in and out of the hospital for those months. This was something I had to go through alone. I hope they don't hate me; I couldn't put them through this. "Hi Ross" Emily walked over to me "How are you feeling?" I look at her "Better, I want to go home though. I want to hold my baby" Emily looked at me " I still can't believe you didn't tell them. If" I cut her off "I didn't want to put any pressure on Rachel when she was pregnant and the others would have treated me differently. I'm just glad that I had them seen to as soon as possible." Emily looked again "But was the whole letter thing necessary?" I nod "If I hadn't have done that they would have found out" Emily shook her head "I'll be back later after the doctor has been" I nod "Emily, Is it too late to say Thanks?" She turned "Not now"

I pick up my pen and begin to write, I love writing poetry its so relaxing.

1 Haven't been here for a while

Sitting with nothing to do,

I can't leave this place

I have grown with it

Nothing will ever be the same

I have left myself behind

In my shell I exist

Fighting blindly for the true me

Will I ever win?

I'd lost my way again

Before anyone could save me

I tried to keep it in

Somehow it escaped

What a year to lose you.

I start to think about Rachel and seeing my baby, I wonder if they can forgive me for this. Am I hiding for no reason? I begin to drift off to sleep

I know that I was dreaming but I can't remember much of it, Rachel and Emma was in it but that's all I remember. A knock at the door loosens my grip of the dream "Hey you" Emily walked through the door and I smiled "Hey, was the doctor here?" she nods "She said that you can leave in the morning. You can go home" she hugged me "Can you come with me?" I feel a bit childish but I'm going to need support when I tell everyone. "Ross, of course I will, Justin called a while ago and I'll be leaving in 3 days. I'm yours 'til then" Justin is Emily's new husband, he doesn't seem to mind that his wife is helping her ex – husband to get over this.

It's amazing who you turn to in a crisis; the least likely people are always the greatest to help out. I am so grateful to Emily for all that she has done. I sit on the edge of the bed and stare at the mirror, I look so different, I'm a lot thinner, and the bones around my neck stick out. The whole experience has taught me a lot about myself, I want to leave now, get out of this hellhole that I've been stuck in for 3 months. I start to pack as my doctor walks through the door "Um, Mr. Geller what are you doing?" I look at her "I want to leave now. I can't take it anymore, I have my family to think of" she studied me for a minute "Mr. Geller, I know that but I just want to make sure that you are up to travelling unaccompanied" I smile "Emily is going to go with me so I won't be alone, look please I want to see my daughter" she nods "OK, Mr. Geller give me an hour and I'll get your release form" I thanked her and she left, I started to ram everything into my suitcase, thankfully Phoebe had rented my apartment from my parents so it shouldn't be too much hassle for me.