As we are , i sit and watch the talent show i can never be
special my freind trys to help but to no avail.
I feel small and alone here with them , sometimes i chose a life of
solitude to think in my mind with an out words blank expression
and to the times when i chose this time i do not say a word special
is what i want what i will to be.
But to know in the folds of my dark angst and morbid mind i can see my self
say that i will be today and tomorrow anyday when i will become
special and literally sprout my wings and fly into the waiting
arms of death it's self and the only way i can sprout my wings
comes in the way of the sharp razor of reality to feel the pain
and see the blood drip from deep cuts in my wrists.
I smile now knowing that someone will someday morn for me
and wish they where to make me feel special but to late i see him
my knight in shining armour mounted apon the great black beast called
death it's dark glossy coat shines under the pale moon making me seem more
and more at home being that now i am dead i cheer for him to come and pick me up and place
apon his mount and take me away....
And now he has i see where i will live in this eternal limbo
of life and death but i see now that the joker i once put on
to hide all the pain from my eyes that joker will be missed
by one that i now i see loved my teasing taunts and messing
around i smile sadly it's to late for me but not for him
i will guard him with my darkness and angelic abilities and keep
him safe till he him self gets taken along for the ride to join me
but for now i will watch over him and still smile sadly knowing his fate will
be lost to the world just as i ....
(notes)
if u haven't realised it yet this is a mixed angst for different people
this is for duo and heero , also for shinji and kaworu and my freind
which died and had the same tempted attitude i sorely miss her
this is the ongoing saga to a tribute to u my freind
special my freind trys to help but to no avail.
I feel small and alone here with them , sometimes i chose a life of
solitude to think in my mind with an out words blank expression
and to the times when i chose this time i do not say a word special
is what i want what i will to be.
But to know in the folds of my dark angst and morbid mind i can see my self
say that i will be today and tomorrow anyday when i will become
special and literally sprout my wings and fly into the waiting
arms of death it's self and the only way i can sprout my wings
comes in the way of the sharp razor of reality to feel the pain
and see the blood drip from deep cuts in my wrists.
I smile now knowing that someone will someday morn for me
and wish they where to make me feel special but to late i see him
my knight in shining armour mounted apon the great black beast called
death it's dark glossy coat shines under the pale moon making me seem more
and more at home being that now i am dead i cheer for him to come and pick me up and place
apon his mount and take me away....
And now he has i see where i will live in this eternal limbo
of life and death but i see now that the joker i once put on
to hide all the pain from my eyes that joker will be missed
by one that i now i see loved my teasing taunts and messing
around i smile sadly it's to late for me but not for him
i will guard him with my darkness and angelic abilities and keep
him safe till he him self gets taken along for the ride to join me
but for now i will watch over him and still smile sadly knowing his fate will
be lost to the world just as i ....
(notes)
if u haven't realised it yet this is a mixed angst for different people
this is for duo and heero , also for shinji and kaworu and my freind
which died and had the same tempted attitude i sorely miss her
this is the ongoing saga to a tribute to u my freind
