Disclaimer: Do you really need one? You know Andromeda doesn't belong to me. Ok for all lawyer types out there Andromeda belongs to Tribune please don't sue me; I don't make any money from this.

Thoughts

I thought I'd like it but I don't I've moved on I guess started a different chapter in my life that I didn't even realise I'd started. I used to look disdainfully at those in my old crew who didn't follow high guard protocol; I enjoyed the structure and the order. It's all different now, now it just irritates me; I was actually cross with one of the new crew for saluting me! Why do they have to do that? I caught myself thinking annoyed it irritates me; It irritates me! I used to live for it! How much have I changed?

I have got used to our casualness, our homeliness, now the military stuff just seems out of place like it doesn't belong on my ship, they don't belong on my ship, these strangers have invaded my family home and I don't like it.

I don't want them there but I don't know what to say to the Commonwealth 'thanks for the new officers, but you can take them back now I don't want them'. So they stay, I try to avoid them, they think I'm cold and distant I'm sure but I don't care let them think what they want. I don't want to get to know them; I have my family my group of close knit friends, and there isn't room for any more; the inn has shut.

I never thought I be happy this way if you told me ten years ago or even five that my life wound end up this way I would have thought I be one unhappy man, but I'm perhaps happier now than I was in the old days with a full crew and the commonwealth a long established reality.

You know in the old days I used to pride my self in knowing every crewmember, but now I realise how little I ever knew; I knew there names and that was about it, and I can barley recall half of them now. But Beka, Tyr, Harper, Rev, Rommie, even Trance I know them as well as I know my real blood family. They all have their secrets, things they wont talk about, Trance more than most, but I know what makes them happy, and what makes them sad, I know what to get them for their birthdays; I cant say I ever knew that about any of my old crew. In fact I may be getting to know these people better than I know my self. I live and work with my friends and family they surround me all day every day and are always their for me when I need them, I may be one of the luckiest guys alive, why has it taken me so long to realise it?

Why did I need for a new crew to come on board to realise that's not what I wanted? We don't need them Andromeda could man every station herself if she had to. But I suppose they have served a purpose they helped me to realise that I all ready had everything I ever needed. I'm proud to call these people my friends and my family I don't need anything else as long as I have them.
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