(:Disclaimer:) I do not own Inu Yasha, he owns me.

(:A.N:) Hiya everyone! I think this is going to be the last chapter of this story (but maybe I'll add one after this...) If you like sad Inu stories like this, be sure to check out my 'Haunting Me in Dreams' fic (which is on chapter 25 and growing almost every day). Well, here's the fourth chapter to this story.

And They Say It Was My Fault
Chapter Four : Sayonara, Watashi no Chikyuu
By : Feng Shui Goddess

I awoke to familiar surroundings, knowing that I had been there before. The smells were familliar, and I felt like I was at home. I slowly sat up, stretching out my stiff arms and neck. I couldin't smell or hear anybody around me, so I knew that I was alone. I couldin't seem to remember how I had gotten to where I was, or what had happened before I was here. My mind was blank, and it hurt me to think. I slowly stood up, noticing that my vision was slightly disoriented and I was dizzy. I walked around a little bit, keeping my hand on the wall to prevent myself from falling over. I noticed the Tessaiga resting in a corner of the small building I was in, so I walked over to it and lifted it up. I noticed it was covered in blood, old dried blood. I dropped the sword as I realized who's blood was on the sword... My blood. I shivered and stared at my hands, which I noticed were covered in blood as well. How did my blood get on my sword, on my hands? I thought about it with a lot of effort, grabbing my head in frustration. I leaned against the wall, allowing myself to slide down to the ground. Where was I? What had happened to me before I was here? Suddenly I remembered something: two cold, hatered filled eyes staring into my own, asking me why I killed her. Why I killed Kagome. And I remembered that I did not kill Kagome, that Naraku killed her when she was trying to save me. She had loved me, Kagome did, and we had made many plans for our future. I had even made myself human so I could kill myself and go after her. I was still human, though, as my sences were much weaker than they used to be. I wondered where I had gone wrong, to make Kagome feel hatered for me. Surely she knew in her heart that it was not I who killed her... Surely she knew that she sacrificed herself for me, for our love. Oh, how I wished she hadn't, how I wished that she could have gone on living, and that it could of been me who had taken the blow... But she was noble, and faithful. She would not stand to see her love die... to see me killed in front of her eyes, that would be much too painful for her to see, for anyone to see.

But then of course, when I killed myself to see her... She had awakened us both, or so she said she would... But she wasn't anywhere to be seen. I buried my head in my hands, feeling horrible and responsible for Kagome's death. She was so young, and had so much to live for; she had so much love to give. She was always so excited about our future together, and would talk about it all the time. She wanted to live in her time with me, so she could go to something called 'college'. She wanted to live in a quiet suburban part of Japan, and have children, because it was her dream to be a mother. I would have loved to be the father of Kagome's children, because I knew that they would be just as wonderful as Kagome herself. We had gone through hard times, of course. Kikyo would often try to steal me away to hell, and kill me. Once she even kissed me in front of Kagome, making Kagome feel unwanted and hurt. After a while, though, she discovered how I felt for her, even though I did not always show it. She knew I loved her, and that I lived for her. She, without a doubt, knew that I would do anything in my power to make her happy, that I would do anything for her. And her smile... Oh, her smile. The joy that overwhelmed me when I saw her smile. She had the most beautiful smile in the world, that would make anyone happy inside. Her eyes were always to warm and comforting, making you feel like you had known her forever... Her aura was an indescribeable one, omitting so much pure light, like an angel. She was truly a beautiful person, with the most beautiful soul in the world. I was the luckiest man in the world to have her as my own, and still am lucky for having her. The times she and I spent together were the best in my life, like a dream... The most wonderful dream in the world; a dream of love, happiness... true contentness.

The sun shone through thin drapes that hung over large windows in the room, and it was very humid out. I could hear birds singing a cheerful melody, flying through the sky. I slowly stood up from the floor, and walked over to a nearby window, pulling back the drapes. The sky was a bright, pure blue, so pure that it almost hurt your eyes to look at it. A few scattered clouds were hovering in the sky, slightly blocking the suns light. It was a beautiful day, the kind of day that Kagome always loved. I saw the wind rushing through some sakura trees, spreading their petals on the ground, making it look like it was covered in a blanket of snow. I walked over to the door to the outside, which was covered with nothing but a long blanket made of different variations of animal pelt to keep you from the outside world. The gently breeze tossled my hair to and fro as I walked around, examining the deep forest ahead of me. I wandered around, examining my surroundings. It was so lonely, I didn't see anyone in sight. I spotted a small well not far where I was, so I walked over to it and washed my face and hands, enjoying the feeling of the refreshing cold water on my skin. I looked at my reflection; my hair was all over the place and my neck was covered in blood. I washed the blood away to reveal a healing wound. A wound that I had made to go see Kagome. I heard footsteps and whisteling a few feet behind me, so I quickly turned around to face a man adorned in traditional Buddhist robes, carrying a staff. Miroku. He looked at me with awe and fear in his eyes.

"My God, Inu Yasha, is that you?" he asked, his voice slightly quivering.

"Yeah, it is. I don't know how I got here... I'm not even sure where I am, somewhere in Musashi's Domain, I suppose..."

"You're dead, Inu Yasha. You killed yourself, remember? You shouldin't be here. How are you here? Why...? I watched you kill yourself with my own two eyes, watched as you turned yourself into a human! Humans cannot come back from the dead, hell, demons can't even come back from the dead!"

"Calm yoursef, Miroku," I said to the terrified monk, "I doubt if I am going to stay here for much longer, anyways. Kagome said that she would meet me here, so I am just here to see if she is really here... I want to know."

He shivered, "Kagome Sama is dead, as well. Naraku killed her, you know that, you saw it yourself. Don't get me wrong, Inu Yasha, for I am glad to see you again, my friend. But I am left to ponder why all this is happening. You both died vengeful deaths, that you did. But I am sure that the you I am seeing before my eyes isn't the real you, Inu Yasha, for your body is dead, I am sure of it. It hurts me so to say it, but... This world has no room for the dead, Inu Yasha. I just don't believe any of this is real."

I nodded my head, understanding how the monk was feeling, "I am sorry to be here, but I must find out the truth. I must be going now, I am afraid. Hopefully we will meet again, my friend."

I turned and walked away towards the deep forest, not wanting to confuse Miroku any more. I am sure that he was feeling very strange, seeing someone who was dead be alive again. I'm sure that that could cause shock to anyone. After all, I was shocked after Kikyo had come back to life... Even though she was only made of dirt and bones, she still seemed so real, like she was still alive. The forest seemed so familiar, like I had been there so many times before. All the trees were so green and alive, it was truly a great place. I wandered around for a bit, searching for Kagome. Part of me doubted ever finding her, thinking that only I had come back to live. If that was the case, then fate was truly a cruel thing. Life is lonely after your love dies, because people life for love. Without having someone to love... Someone who loves you back in return... Life would truly be a horrible thing. Part of me had faith, thinking that God would not be so cruel to split us up, to allow me to come back to life, and have Kagome stay in that eternal darkness... For if either of us to deserved to be there, it was me. I had commited many crimes, and had killed many people. I had sinned, and Kagome was very pure at heart. She would never hurt anyone, she would never allow herself to. She was always so peaceful, so content. I guess that's why I loved her... she was so innocent and pure, so unlike me. I envied being innocent, envied a being like Kagome. I approached a large tree, a very large tree. It looked as if it were easily hundreds of years old, roots grew up it's trunk and thick branches extended everywhere. Somehow I was mezmorized by the tree, felt as if I had been there before. It was the God Tree, a tree that I had been pinned up against by a magical curse for over fifty years. The tree brought back many memories, all painful... except for one. I had first seen Kagome at this tree, when she pulled the arrow out of my chest. I remember smelling her scent for the first time, how wonderful it was. I went up and leaned on the trunk of the tree, feeling somehow like I was where I lived, where I belonged. I closed my eyes and rested for a few minutes, remembering things from my past. Suddenly, I heard a rattling in some nearby trees, and I opened my eyes to see Kagome. She looked different, though, but I cannot explain how exactly. She looked older, like she had been through so much pain that she appeared older and haggard. I tried to walk tover to her side, but it was if I couldin't move from the tree, like I was pinned to it.

"Kagome... You're all right, I am so glad..."

"Inu Yasha, you know how I would always say that I loved you over and over again, how I would allow you to embrace me in your arms? Do you remember all those times we were together, and we thought that we were truly content? All those nights we spent together, kissing under the moonlight, swearing that we could never force ourselves to love another? Did those emotions seem pure to you? Did they make you happy?"

I nodded, not knowing what she was talking about, "of course, Kagome. I love you..."

"Well," she said, in a cold tone, "all those times I said I loved you, well... I was lying. Your life is made up of lies, Inu Yasha. And now it is time for you to know the only truth I now know. That I hate you."

Kagome pulled a bow and arrow out from behind her back, and quickly shot an arrow into my heart, giving me a lot of pain. I let out a small scream before I allowed my eyes to shut, the last thing I saw was Kagome's cold eyes. As I felt my mind slipping away, I remembered a chilling song that I had known since childhood...

Walking on a red path
Of a dark town that I am from
I see your face in the stars
And I know that you are far away

I've lived in darkness for most of my life
Only living to see you smile
Then I met you on a glorious day
And you lit up my life

If there was only one truth in the world
I pray that it would be you
Holding you in my arms over and over
I realize that it was all lies...

I wish I knew you
How you wanted me to
I wish I could see your light
On this endless night

After happiness comes sorrow
Praying for only tomorrow
I want to see you but I know that
It'll never become true

If there was one thing real in the world
And that was sorrow
I don't think I could make it
And that's why I have you...

I had been alone most of my life, betrayed more than once from the people who had claimed to love me. I didn't mind the lonliness, though, because I had a light in my heart that kept me going. Some people say that living all alone is a sad thing to do, but I do not think so. I have always been alone, and I have learned to love it, to appreciate every moment of it. I have let my heart be devowered by darkness, and I am glad... I deserve it. I let my love die.

...And they say it was my fault.

(:A.N:) Okay, that's the end of the story. I'm sure you did not like the ending, and for that I am sorry, but I am happy with it. Please review, and thank you for reading my story. Check out my other fics if you liked this one. Please review. -Mae-