Disclaimer: Toei wouldn't let me have it. Damn.

A/N A very angsty chapter, it just gets worse and worse ne? Here some useless information, I was depressed again...

Betrayal of the Heart By Angel of Evil

Chapter 5 Arrogance

Dragged. Forced against my own will. Why couldn't they have given up when no one came to answer the door they pounded on? The door Daisuke had knocked upon…

I know I'm not right mentally now. I'm in no state of mind to play a pitiful game of soccer. What were these moronic friends of mine thinking?

Couldn't they see that I wanted nothing more then to be alone? To be alone with the mordant thoughts hovering within my messed up mind. Anyone else would have left after receiving no reply, anyone else except my determined friends. Oh no! They had to be awkward in that way, they had to invite themselves in. Was it so important to play this game that they had to invade into my property? Couldn't they have left me to be?

"Ken is something bothering you?" It's Izzy's querying voice. I ignore him.

"Nanigoto desu ka Daisuke?"

I'd like to ask him how someone so intelligent could ask such a dense, obvious question, but instead my head shakes and my mouth remains silent as it has since I'd arrived with Hikari and Takeru.

Why couldn't they have ignored my shocked stifle as they knocked? I blame myself for this mess, I should have kept myself silent, silent like I am now. Bakana, fool.

"Ok Ken," Izzy replies. Hikari had told him how I had been so odd when she and TK found me. They'd told him of their struggle to get me to come with them. They'd told him that it was best if I had some space. He knows that I didn't tell them why I was so distant when they found me. He understands that it's best to just let me be, so why couldn't they have left me?

Like the other boy had.

I'm so tired, I stayed awake most of the night, mum and dad left a message on the infernal answering machine, they told me they had decided to stay round my Aunty Watanabe's for the night and wouldn't be back till the next afternoon. They hoped everything was okay at home and that I wouldn't mind.

Everything ok?

Well at least I could have told them I didn't mind, I didn't really 'mind' or care for anything any more.

I had been awake for over two hours by the couch where the cinnamon haired boy had left me, when they both marched their way into my home, I hadn't moved an inch since that time he left me.

"Ok guys, so are we all here?" that was Tai's optimistic voice booming over my thoughts. No Tai, I'm not here.

"Yeah, everyone but Sora!" Yolei chirped. Yamato frowned at the name, I couldn't but help wonder why. Sure I had heard that Yamato and Sora had split up their relationship a week or so ago, but surely they were still friends?

"Ok then that's everyone then," Tai grinned and was purposely ignoring the last part of Yolei's sentence. It was deliberate. Only I could catch a lie passing a person's lips. Whether it was because I had heard so many or because I had been one to tell them was beyond me.

"So does that mean Sora was not invited?"

I studies Yamato's features curiously, he was watching Tai and now the small frown had become more of a grimace. There was obviously more to the break-up then the rest of us knew. I was slightly intrigued. Someone other than me was feeling angst.

"Hai Jyou we decided not to invite-"

"The duplicitous bitch," muttered Yamato under his breath. No one noticed. Except me.

"-Sora."

"Oh I see."

"Ok so we're all here and I guess you'll all wanna know why you're all here!" Tai grinned again the smile so blatantly visible on his face. He never stopped smiling. He was just like the other boy. Huge, wide, cheesy grin that never ceased.

"Of course we want to know!" Demanded Yolei, " I mean what's so special about some soccer game?"

"Well, we actually didn't call you for the soccer game," Yamato admitted. I took my glare away from the tall boy, I was sickened. Only a few weeks ago I can remember him, just as miserable as I. Now I look at him and he's almost beaming with happiness by that bench, Tai by his side. I guess no one else is feeling angst, except me.

"So Matt you gonna tell us?" My heart leaped. That was his voice…

"Iie Davis, Tai is!" he smiled, what was there to smile about?

"Yamatooo!!! That's not what we agreed!" Tai stammered annoyed. His friend looks at him, chuckles and mutters 'ok'.

"We're waiting!" the voice insisted. How could it sound so…so…so normal? I wish my heart wouldn't thud so rapidly just at the mere sound of his voice, it threatened to pound right out if I didn't try to control it.

"I know," Matt cried. Tai looked at him critically with his right hand placed on his hip, "let's play soccer!" Tai heaved a sigh and I awaited the next comment.

"I thought that that wasn't what we were here for?" Hikari thinks aloud uncertainly, Taichi frowns and nudges Yamato who's already too busy getting us all into teams.

"Ok Yamato-kun, it's your choice if you're going to procrastinate, it'll only make it more difficult later," he told the preoccupied blonde.

"Hey, you like soccer, they like soccer-"

"I don't like soccer!" Cody interrupted.

"Well you like soccer, I like soccer, so let's play-"

"Soccer?"

"Yup!"

"Fine Yama-Chan," Tai agrees hastily.

Everyone starts to move about, becoming livelier by the new task of selecting team captains. I glower in the background, no one really noticing my presence. They're all just too excited and cheery. All of them.

So why couldn't I be?

Why am acting like this? I thought I was over these… feelings. I was so sure that I had found light in my dark hole. I guess I've lost my way once again.

I mean what was it that made me act like that yesterday? Nothing life threatening happened, surely it wasn't as bad as I'm imagining. Or was it? But then again Daisuke doesn't seem half as morbid as I, so am I really making something out of nothing?

I scowl not even minutely as livid as the rest. They're all now fussing because they're not on the team they want to be on. It's just a stupid game, which I didn't want to play.

"Ok but if your having Davis then we get Ken!" Hikari's voice settled. I looked up from the green turf to watch as they argue over my stationary carcass and the other boy whose face I refused to look at.

"But we… you've got Jyou and he's tall!" Yolei disputed, "we should get both of them, Cody only counts as a quarter!"

I looked behind the difficult, purple haired girl, at Iori, who clearly was offended by the statement. Then realization hit me and I became much more attentive. I didn't want to be on the same team as him.

"It's not Iori's fault that he's short, just accept who you have," Kari tried to compromise. But there was no compromising with Yolei. She didn't know the meaning of the word. I looked back and forth at each of the girls with increasing worry.

"Ichijouji Ken get over here!" I blinked twice. She was going to order me to be on the same side as him. There was no way I was going to move. I don't think I could even if I wanted to, which distinctly I did not.

"Why are you two deciding who's on whose side? Neither of you are the Captains so stop already!" the true captain, Takeru, interrupted. And much to my relief.

Both girls nodded slowly and then reddened in their own embarrassment.

"So Tai who are you going to choose?"

Now my attention was entirely focused on Tai, the boy whose team I did not want to be placed in. He would want the game to be perfectly fair wouldn't he? Surely he wouldn't opt for both of us… would he?

"Well, erm…"

"That's it I'm choosing!" Yamato groaned. Tai looked at him confusedly.

"But I only just opened my mouth!"

"Well we both know nothing intelligent will come out of it."

"Omae o korosu Yamato!" The blonde boy merely stuck out his tongue and gave him a teasing smile, "there is no way I'm going to yours after."

Yamato gave Taichi an apologetic response whilst everyone watched them not understanding. Must be a private joke. "So who shall I pick, hm…"

I could always run, but then again I don't like to run from my problems.

"Nani?! You're not the Captain!" Davis's voice outburst. I couldn't believe he was acting so normal, I mean he wasn't at all like this yesterday…

I couldn't understand it. He was just being his ordinary, argumentative self as always.

"Well I'm sure Tk doesn't mind! Do you Teeks?" Takeru shook his head.

"Eurgh! Fiiiine."

"We get Ken, you Taichi can have that over there," he completed, "I want TK with no bruises when I have my little chat with him later." Takeru's eyes grew wide like earlier that day when he was on the phone to Yamato. Again the group of confused Digidestined were left to watch. Another private joke perhaps?

I didn't care. I wasn't on his team and my heart was starting to slow back down to its usual pace. I'm not on his team and right now that's all that matters. But if I had been…

I think I would have run…

Sometimes you need to escape from your problems. Like it or not.

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A/N I've relized how messed up the chapter orders are, but I've sorted it out now, here's translation's: 'Omae o korosu' means 'I am going to kill you' and 'Nanigoto desu ka' means 'Is everything alright?'. Reviews? I really appreciate them, after all they are what helped me to go on and do a 5th chapter ^_^

Next chapter is going to be very interesting. You'll find out what I mean ^_~

One word, jealousy =^_^=