Disclaimer: I have done this alreadydo I really have to do it
again?
*Sighs * Fine. I dont own any of the characters. Someone else
does. My name is NOT J.K Rowling and it certainly isnt Warner
Bros.
Dedication: Just like the first part of this fic. It is
dedicated to my savior Army. Your such a great inspiration babe
I dont know what Id do with out you!
Beautiful Angel: End of the line.
James P.O.V
The icy dawn air bristles past me. I close my eyes and breathe
it all in. My jogging partner pants with exhaustion as we round
the last corner and collapse on the grass. I smile as i fall
down after him. My eyes trained on the sky as i struggle to
regain even breathing once more. The tiny Grey fingers of the
dawn light leaps over my face as we lay panting. I tilt my head
and blink as I find he is watching me. "Paddy?" I whisper. I see
it in his eyes as he struggles to pull himself out of his
thoughts. Grinning we stand and i sling my arm around his
shoulders, i feel him tense under my touch, but i put it down as
just sore muscles. I strike up some idle chatter about Quidditch
as we walk, but he doesnt listen. He is back in his thoughts,
his face shadowed in deep depression. Remus, Peter and I had
been trying for months to pull him out of it. But we failed
miserably. I know Remus knows what is going on behind Sirius's
dark eyes, he is too smart not to know. Peter is clueless and is
just bidding his time before leaving us for someone who can
protect him better. I smile and nudge him, attracting his
attention to something other than his morbid thoughts. "Isn't it
nice?" I ask him. His eyes flick to the landscape. He almost
smiles as he soaks in the stunning sight of dawn on the Hogwarts
ground. He seems lost in that now. I grab his arm, impatient for
a shower and to wind down before classes. He sighs and allows me
to drag him along.
We now stand in a steam filled shower room, swiping at each
other with soapy hands. Chuckling we towel off and dress. Sirius
looks at me, and I sense something is wrong. He mumbles that he
needs to use the bathroom and darts off. I wait for him in
silence and when he returns I grin. He knows what this means. We
turn and run, Racing each other to the great hall. As usual
Remus and Peter have already arrived. Remus is reading one of
his schoolbooks avidly. And Peter is stuffing his face with
food. I sit myself down beside him and smile. His eyes light up
at this, and he abandons his face-stuffing. It takes us mere
seconds to indulge ourselves heatedly into a verbal battle of
Quidditch tactics. I feel Siriuss gaze on me as I talk. It makes
my skin prickle and I feeldirty. Sighing I look up as the bell
sounds. We groan and head off for our classes.
As I sit in the sweltering potions dungeon I feel eyes on my
back. It makes my skin crawl. I turn around and face my watcher
although I know it is Sirius. I groan inwardly at this and offer
him a goofy grin. When I turn around a small piece of parchment
is on my desk. I open it and read the few neatly scrawled words.
James,
Meet me after Potions ok? We need
to talk.
-Moony
I catch my friends eye and nod silently. The class winds down
and the bell sounds. Neither Remus, Peter nor myself are
surprised when Sirius packs his stuff and leaves without us.
Sighing the three of us share a knowing glance. I know he does
this because of me. And over the months I have just stopped
caring. Lily and I are steady, and I love her. Sirius just needs
to move on. I narrow my eyes and looks at Remus. You find him
this time. Im going to have lunch with Lil. Slinging my backpack
over my shoulder I exit the room.
After a pleasant lunch with Lily I enter the common room. Peter
snags me and we sit talking about various things. After awhile I
tire of this and walk up to the dormitories. Lying on my bed I
close my eyes, thinking maybe Ill catch some sleep before
Quidditch practice. But the solitude doesnt last long as Sirius
barges in and flings himself onto his bed. I roll my eyes. I
dont know how much longer I can humor him.
Standing I walk over to his bed and draw the curtains back. Sure
enough, he sits, Bandaging his freshly scarred arm. I hear him
whisper. He is Beautiful And counter it with a loose. But so are
you He spins around glaring at me, the menacing look doesnt stay
on his face for long as he realizes its me talking to him. I
scream on the inside for him to grow up, but Instead I say
slowly and dramatically. PaddyRemusHe told me And thats all it
took. In seconds he was flying down stairs. I listen as he and
Remus argue. Siriuss bellows loud enough to wake the long time
dead and Remuss well thought out sentences making me smile. I
walk out onto the landing. Everyone has dropped what he or she
was doing, whether it is from curiosity or from shock I am
unsure. I am scared now. Not for Siriuss wellbeing. But for
Remuss. Black seems to be teetering on the edge of sanity. I
sigh and place my hand as gently as I can on his shoulder, I
will live to regret that move as he spins around and thrusts me
up against the wall. The sudden jarring of my back brings tears
to my eyes. He stares at me, his eyes filled with pain, panic,
sorrow and unrequited love. I have the urge to push him away in
disgust, but instead he drops me and I slump to the floor. The
pain in my back stopping any kind of movement I may wish to
make. He looks around him, taking in the staring shocked faces.
And then as usual, he runs. I look up at Peter and Remus. My
glare could kill now. Thats enough. I wont do this anymore My
words ring out through the silent room as shove my self up and
force myself out of the common room.
Remus and Peter stay by my side now. We walk with a mission, as
we enter the boys bathroom I bellow. SIRIUS I can hear a soft
whimper and as we draw closer to the all too familiar stall, I
gag. A thick pool of blood has gathered and is slowly leaking
out under the door. Remus mutters a spell and flings the door
open. And what I see before me, revolts me to no end. He sits
cowering in the corner. Demanding I not look at him. I scowl and
lift him up easily, he looks at me, I see the hope in his eyes
before he blacks out.
We sit in the infirmary. Blacks hand clutching mine. No doubt
when he wakes he will think it be the opposite. Remus has taken
to reading once more. I smile and chuckle as Peter discovers a
pan of utensils. With a nervous sort of pride he walks up and
inspects them. At every odd moment I say Watch out! And he
jumps, I laugh and smile at him as he glares at me for taking
three years off his life.
I look down at Sirius as he lies there. I feel no pangs of
sorrow. No hope. Just pure anger. His body bandaged so he looks
like a newly wrapped present, I lower my head and allow myself
to cry. I dont want to be here. I want to be outside, playing
Quidditch, kissing Lily. Doing normal teenage things. Id give
everything I own even to be in the library studying. But no, I
glare at the stationary form of Sirius and think. No. You had to
be selfish. I lower my head again and yawn, the movement shaking
me slightly as I hadnt realized just how tired I really was.
Remus speaks every once in awhile, which causes Peter to jump,
and me to laugh. Sighing i lean back, I have the urge to end his
life for him. But I bite it down.
I feel a stirring and slight groan so I lift my head angrily.
Sirius smiles at me, I thought so, he thinks Im holding his
hand. I wrench it free and stand leaning over him. My tears of
anger spilling out on his face. Fool I whisper. He smiles and I
cant help an almost hysterical smile, and soon the for of us are
smiling. For reasons I am unsure of. Peter, who has nearly up
ended the tray, leaves silently. Remus moves to my side.
Standing I walk to the end of the end and glare viciously at
him. He sees my anger. PaddyI am your friendbut I sigh as he
stubbornly turns away from me. I cant take it anymore and I feel
something inside me snap.
Lily and I are engaged now. And even if we werent He is arrogant
enough to lift his hand to stop me, fine, I think, dont ever say
I didnt try, I think irately. Remus grabs my hand and leads me
to the door. Worried I might do something I will live to regret.
But in the years to come, I think Ill look back on this moment
and regret I didnt finish his botched job properly.
Peter, Remus and I sit around the small fire in the common room.
So what now? Think hell get better? Peter asks us. Remus looks at me. I dont care. He is my so-called-friend. A friend wouldnt do this. I hiss heatedly. Words fail me here. I can not express to them enough, how Sirius has angered me and pushed me close to the line. Remus pets my shoulder softly and nods knowingly. Sirius has tried us all in his foolish attempts. He used actions instead of words, and for almost costing me Lily. I will never forgive him for that. -Fin-
So what now? Think hell get better? Peter asks us. Remus looks at me. I dont care. He is my so-called-friend. A friend wouldnt do this. I hiss heatedly. Words fail me here. I can not express to them enough, how Sirius has angered me and pushed me close to the line. Remus pets my shoulder softly and nods knowingly. Sirius has tried us all in his foolish attempts. He used actions instead of words, and for almost costing me Lily. I will never forgive him for that. -Fin-
