Title: Life Law #4
Author: Moon Fox
Rating: PG
Summery: Response to a challenge by Gryphon at http://forums.moonlitpaths.com/viewtopic.php?p=63#63
Xander get sick of Sunny Dale and leaves it behind to find a new world waiting for him.
Pairings: Xander/ Jennifer Hailey
Fandoms: Buffy: TVS(character and background up till Hell's Bells in season 6 *sniffle* I haven't seen anything after that!), Stargate SG-1 (End season six)
A/N this fic is an AU and I'm messing with the time lines a bit. Basically Hell's Bell happens about the same time as Stargate the movie. Words PA system, or other communication device. {Words} memory, thought. Words^ find reference at end of chapter.
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Prologue: Take two and call on yourself in the morning
Xander's shoes felt heavy. Like they were trying to keep him from walking away. Maybe he should listen to them. Naw, he should listen to himself, if it was himself… His mind was filled to the brim with yes/no questions. The problem was he could only come up with maybes for answers. The rain had soaked him and his tuxedo thoroughly. He looked up now as the constant sprinkler in the sky took a breather. He was standing in front of strip mall in downtown Sunny Dale. The store front next to him displayed an American Flag in the window with a backdrop of medals, pictures taken out in the fields of war and peacetimes, and a neatly printed list of reasons why men and women would want to enlist and there was a banner above it all – Be an Army of One.
Growing up he watched the history channel with enthusiasm. He wanted to be a soldier, an officer…anything. Then in his sophomore year of high school he did become a warrior – against evil. OK so it was a pretty poor imitation of one. He had no self-esteem, and those he was around didn't help to give him a boost of self-confidence. A few times in the passed years he proved to himself what he was capable of. Yet, many times, especially in the face of those he called friends, he wouldn't allow himself to believe it. He was a soldier once for Halloween, he took down a group of undead jocks single handedly, he even spilt into two once – a competent well-adjusted and successful side, and the side he let everyone see. It was what they all expected, even today as he was missing his own wedding.
A thought began to formulate in his mind. Something he saw on the television the other day began to make sense. Did any of his friends realize that three weeks ago he became twenty-two years old? Nope. Not even his fiancé. A strong resentment that had been growing in him over the years, started to surface. Then four days ago the construction crew was shut down due to rain, he stayed home and watched Oprah. It was Tuesday and Dr. Phil was the guest. Since that day the ten life lessons played over and over in his mind along with something that struck an even deeper core. One specific law –
{Life Law #4: You cannot change what you do not
acknowledge.
Strategy: Get real with yourself about
life and everybody in it. Be truthful about what isn't working in your life.
Stop making excuses and start making results. }
He was thinking hard about what was working for him. What had worked for him in the past? A realization began to dawn on him. Life worked and he worked when he was away from the scoobies. Sure he loved them all, but it wasn't working. It took magic and some reality twisting to act on his own with confidence. Apart from them, he was ok. Better than ok, he actually felt like a man with a purpose to life. He heard the jingle of bells on the door he was opening before he realized what he was doing. A self-satisfying grin plastered itself across his face, and an air of confidence sprung into his walk. No more excuses for the Xand-man. It was his life, and he wanted results.
