Chapter 1 "Loving You."

"Buffy you know you need more weapons then a stake to go slaying. This is not a vampire we are dealing with! This is a first class evil creature! It will rip you apart if you don't have the right weapons. Take this, Luv." Spike scolded handing her a sword. His eyes shone bright with love for his slayer. His eyes were seeping with adoration for this fragile woman. She had taken his evil loving self and made him into something new; he was a warrior fighting only for her. Every fight would be for her.

"Spike I can take care of myself! I don't need a fiend telling me how to fight the creatures of the night! It's my job Spike, you know that." She yelled with the last sentence coming out in a soft whisper that floated with the wind. "I promise I'll be okay. Don't I always?"

"Yea but just take the sword I'll quit at that, just take the sword. And remember this is a Siren Demon, they are very strong and they can rip a normal man in half if they get them mad enough."

"I'll be careful and I always did come back, didn't I?"

"Yes you did Slayer and promise me you always will."

"Spike. you know."

"Stop it Slayer. I just want a simple little promise, it won't kill you to give me at least that much. I'm sure of that." He interrupted a look of hurt crossing his features because of what he thought his slayer was about to say.

"Okay Spike I promise I will always come back. Hey I've came back both times I died." She said trying to lighten the mood that the room was engulfed in.

"Don't talk like that slayer! I don't ever want you to go saying that! It sounds like you are proud of the fact you have died twice." He scolded as he wiped an unseen thing out of his eye.

"Spike I was just joking, okay? I'm sorry but you don't need to go all I'm gonna fall over on you. I won't okay; today is not Buffy's day to die. * I don't think. * Besides I feel all strong and nothing can possibly go wrong because I have been practicing my technique." She mumbled getting a you can shut up already look from Spike.

"I shouldn't of said that Buffy. it's just sometimes I feel like we're still together and it's my job to look after you but we're not so I won't act like I am. * Although I want to protect you * I wish I could protect you but that isn't my job anymore now is it?" He asked pain gleaming in his eyes.

"It is a little Spike, you are still my friend." Buffy replied placing a gentle hand on his cheek. * I should tell him but I can't not now. *

"Okay then I think we should go then, don't want to miss all the action. I need a good fight to get all this rage outta my system if you know what I mean." He replied putting his hand over hers for a second then pulling it away nervously. * I don't know if I should tell her what I want to tell her or just keep it to myself. *

He felt regret wash over him like he was not doing something he should. "I still love you Buffy, I know you don't like when I say it but I needed to say it. Don't say I shouldn't say that please, let it go just this once." He begged as he felt a tear of lost time fall down his cheek. "Never forget that Buffy. I just wish that things could be the way they were when we were alone last when we were alone."

"I'm sorry Buffy I shouldn't have said that." He added softly lowering his head.

"It's okay you said what you felt." * If only I could say what I feel. I need to, I want to. *

He smiled softly at her in the way he always did before he went with her to fight death. And death was what they fought. She is the slayer and he a vampire, a very unlikely team but a team none the less. They were a team from the first time he helped her save the world from Acathela. He watched his slayer with so much love and adoration more than any man could possibly ever give. His eyes shone with love for her and it made Buffy shiver.

The graveyard was cold and it was like a sign from the Powers that Be that something bad was about to happen. The sky was black and not one star shone through the clouds. A flash of lightning danced across the sky and sailed into oblivion as a blanket of rain washed down from the heavens.

Buffy shivered and pulled her arms around her chest in an effort to keep warm. The rain splashed to the ground and the graveyard came alive with sounds.

"Here Luv take my jacket." Spike whispered pulling his long leather duster off and placing it around her shoulders. The material was warm to the touch and soft due to a hundred years of the vampire wearing it. She smiled warmly at him in appreciation for the kind gesture. It smelt of booze and cigarettes with a hint of the earth mixed together making it a scent purely of his own.

The water that was standing on the ground began to splash as they walked. Spikes shirt was clinging to his abdomen showing the outline of his muscles. Muscles that Buffy had seen all to well in the past year. But that wasn't the same man just the same body and the same love for her.

"Spike look I think we need to talk. I have been thinking a lot about you and me and I think that we should try the oomph." She said as she was blind-sided by a heavy demon. She landed on the ground with a splash and she slid into a gravestone that crumbled under the force.

She pulled herself up and Spike through the sword that had flown from her hand to her. She through her fist at the demon's stomach and it grabbed her arm and wrenched it out of its socket. She screamed as a wave of pain shoat through her body.

Spike took his place at her side and kicked the demon in the chest knocking it back a few inches while Buffy gathered up her strength. It growled and ran at Buffy and hit her with its fist making her nose crack. She returned the hit with an upper cut to the demon's throat. It howled and knocked Buffy in the air with one hit from its right fist.

Spike joined the fight once again and went to kick it but it caught his leg in between its hands and twisted. His knee broke and the bone popped out of the skin as blood trickled down his leg and onto the demon's hands. It picked him up and through him into a cluster of gravestones making them break and fall over him making the sharp pieces cut and tear at the skin. He bit his lip so he would not scream and his blood ran into his mouth from the wound that he was creating.

Buffy pulled herself up long enough to see Spike fall. "No! Don't hurt him you fucking Demon! Don't hurt my."

She ran at the demon and the demon laughed as she punched him in the chest and stomach. It sliced its claws down and soon they were hidden beneath the skin of Buffy's neck. The claw sliced into the jugular sending blood squirting out of her neck. She looked up and the demon's head flew off from the massive amount of force in the blow that Spike delivered to its neck.

He fell to his knees making pain wash over him but he didn't even care. Buffy fell into his lap and laid her head in his lap softly. "Spike I'm sorry I broke my promise. I'm sorry my love. Spike I want you to drink me. I can't talk much longer and I need you to see what I want to tell you." Buffy said as tears washed down her face.

Spike coughed back the sorrow that overwhelmed him and he brought her hand to his tear stained face placing a single soft kiss on her wrist. He pushed his fangs through the skin and let the blood flow into his mouth. He took one drink of he precious blood and when he opened his eyed he was standing alone in their spot at the beach. The spot that they traveled to one night to get away. He wiped the tears from his face and looked around.

Then it was like an Angel walked out in front of him. Buffy was in a white dress and lilies were braided into her long golden locks. "Spike there is something I need to tell you before I go and I need you to hold it with you forever. I love you, I have for the longest time now and I want you to remember me for as long as you are on this earth." She whispered as she placed a kiss on his lips. They stood there in each other s arms until she pulled away.

"Spike you will find another love, I know I have seen what is to come. She will love you in ways I never could."

"No! I will never love anyone but you Buffy. You are my slayer, the only one for me, I can't love anyone else." He screamed as tears streamed down his face.

"Spike please just remember this, I love you and I will never leave you. She is a part of me as is a part of you. She will be the last and you must take care of her. She is what you must protect. I love you Spike now open your eyes." She replied as a tear streamed down her face and fell onto his chest on the place of his heart.

He struggled but to keep his eyes closed but he failed and opened them. He awoke with Buffy in his arms and blood flowing into his lap.

"Spike I love you please don't forget me, and take care of her, she is a part of me Spike I can feel her even though she does not yet exist. I will always be there Spike, always." She breathed like she wasn't even in pain.

"Buffy Slayer Pet I love you! Please don't leave my Buffy." He begged placing his lips on her's in a soft final kiss that would haunt him forever.

"I love you, William. Goodbye." She whispered as she fell into oblivion.

"No!" He screamed as though there was no one that could hear him.

"Goodbye my William. I always love you, always." She whispered on a breeze of wind. "I love you."