Disclaimer: I do not own the characters of The X Files, or the rights to
"There You'll Be." I'm just borrowing Mulder and Scully and promise to
give them back soon!
Genre: Mulder POV/Drama/Angst
*Chapter 1* ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...
"Dreams really do come true."
"If you want something badly enough and reach for the stars, you can achieve anything."
Whoever came up with these theories has no idea how right they are.
But there has to be a catch, it seems too good to be true, doesn't it?
Yes, there is a catch; an all too fatal one.
People naturally assume that this line is a positive thing. Dreams coming true, it sounds like something from a fairy tale, right? But who is to say that there is a difference between a dream and a nightmare? After all, are they not both similar in nature? Most people would disagree with this.
Honestly, I myself once did.
That is until I discovered the true nature of a dream. This is my story.
***
"I think therefore I am."
Actions are the product of our thoughts. But what is it that makes up our minds for us, that "controls" our thoughts? What most people don't come to realize is that our own thoughts and minds are also our own prison. We captivate ourselves with our own thoughts.
Could random thoughts, dreams and desires, if strong enough, be the actual deciding factor in life? Could dreams even decide your destiny between life and death?
If dreams and thoughts are the deciding factor, then does rationalism really exist? What would be considered "rational"?
Everything would be reasonable because anything would be possible. The rate of unpredictability would be unimaginable. Chance would be relevant for everyone. But the real question would be, could one really control their dreams, control their destiny?
Everybody has them. Those dreams that keep you up in the middle of the night. You dream the same thing, night after night but you can't understand why. Some people may think it's a sign, while most people just overlook it. They know in their minds that this dream will never actually happen to them.
People tend to draw that line between fantasy and reality. The problem is that these people don't know what reality truly is.
One of my greatest fears has always been the loss of my sister. People may say she is already lost. But maybe what I'm more afraid of is the loss of hope than anything else. I've been to hypnotists as a child and still nothing leads me any closer to finding her. I want to find her, more than anything.
I felt a sense of guilt, that I would be betraying my own sister if I ever stopped looking for her. I blamed myself for not saving her, for not doing something about it.
I used to wonder how changing your destiny through your desires could be possible, because I wanted this more than anything else.
However, everything is preordained. Fate is just as much a part of our future as our past or present. How did I know that there wouldn't be something that I wanted even more that I haven't yet experienced?
That wasn't possible.
There was nothing to my life. I had a bad name in the FBI, I've been divorced, nothing mattered anymore.
Day and night my time consisted of searching for answers, chasing lies.
There was a change in my fate though. I didn't know it at first because it was subtle.
The day she entered my basement office, the course of my fate was changed permanently. The agent who "was sent to spy on me" would eventually become much more than that to me. She would be the complete opposite of what I had thought; the only person who I could trust. ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...
Genre: Mulder POV/Drama/Angst
*Chapter 1* ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...
"Dreams really do come true."
"If you want something badly enough and reach for the stars, you can achieve anything."
Whoever came up with these theories has no idea how right they are.
But there has to be a catch, it seems too good to be true, doesn't it?
Yes, there is a catch; an all too fatal one.
People naturally assume that this line is a positive thing. Dreams coming true, it sounds like something from a fairy tale, right? But who is to say that there is a difference between a dream and a nightmare? After all, are they not both similar in nature? Most people would disagree with this.
Honestly, I myself once did.
That is until I discovered the true nature of a dream. This is my story.
***
"I think therefore I am."
Actions are the product of our thoughts. But what is it that makes up our minds for us, that "controls" our thoughts? What most people don't come to realize is that our own thoughts and minds are also our own prison. We captivate ourselves with our own thoughts.
Could random thoughts, dreams and desires, if strong enough, be the actual deciding factor in life? Could dreams even decide your destiny between life and death?
If dreams and thoughts are the deciding factor, then does rationalism really exist? What would be considered "rational"?
Everything would be reasonable because anything would be possible. The rate of unpredictability would be unimaginable. Chance would be relevant for everyone. But the real question would be, could one really control their dreams, control their destiny?
Everybody has them. Those dreams that keep you up in the middle of the night. You dream the same thing, night after night but you can't understand why. Some people may think it's a sign, while most people just overlook it. They know in their minds that this dream will never actually happen to them.
People tend to draw that line between fantasy and reality. The problem is that these people don't know what reality truly is.
One of my greatest fears has always been the loss of my sister. People may say she is already lost. But maybe what I'm more afraid of is the loss of hope than anything else. I've been to hypnotists as a child and still nothing leads me any closer to finding her. I want to find her, more than anything.
I felt a sense of guilt, that I would be betraying my own sister if I ever stopped looking for her. I blamed myself for not saving her, for not doing something about it.
I used to wonder how changing your destiny through your desires could be possible, because I wanted this more than anything else.
However, everything is preordained. Fate is just as much a part of our future as our past or present. How did I know that there wouldn't be something that I wanted even more that I haven't yet experienced?
That wasn't possible.
There was nothing to my life. I had a bad name in the FBI, I've been divorced, nothing mattered anymore.
Day and night my time consisted of searching for answers, chasing lies.
There was a change in my fate though. I didn't know it at first because it was subtle.
The day she entered my basement office, the course of my fate was changed permanently. The agent who "was sent to spy on me" would eventually become much more than that to me. She would be the complete opposite of what I had thought; the only person who I could trust. ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...
