Fingering You by Crimson Nightmare

Summary: Draco fell off his broomstick because of a curse that was meant to hit Harry. The fall caused him to be temporary blinded and legs paralyzed. Harry felt responsible so he took care of Draco, while remained anonymous. What will happen when Draco regained his eyesight and sees that it's Harry who has been feeding, changing, and bathing him?

Rated: R

Warning: SLASH, m/m, sex - not exactly graphical, a bit of language, you get the idea.......

Declaimer: (Almost forgot......*sweat breaks*) Nope, they're not mine. Too bad, I only get to play and poke and torture and bite at them. *sighs~*

Author's Notes: Yes, I know, somebody wants to hang me from the ceiling and pour boiled oil on me, but, this is my offering, so, don't kill me? Pwease?

Okay, I know: I am so sorry/sorry/sorry/sowwy~~~~~~~~ ____;;; It was a stupid summer vacation that stopped me from continuing~ To make up to all the readers that care, I'm posting two chapters this time. Chapter 4: "Lullaby, and sleep tight...." And Chapter 5: "Hush a bye....."

In Chapter 4: "Lullaby, and sleep tight..." is some parts about how Severus Snape and Harry had gradually became friends, and about Lucius' feelings towards Severus beginning to reveal. In this fic, I consider the Lucius/Severus pairing as important as Harry and Draco's; so I've dedicated this whole chapter to them, especially to Severus. Don't worry, though, in the next chapter Harry and Draco get to have sappy kissys~~~~~ ////~o~////.



Oh, almost forgot.....

LACK OF SAPPINESS AHEAD, PREPARE YOURSELVES~ =_________=;;



Chapter 4: Lullaby, and sleep tight....



Lullaby, and sleep tight.

[I'll take you tonight.......]

Hush! My darling is sleeping,

[And I'll eat you up....]

On his sheets white as cream,

[Tear you apart.....]

With his head full of dreams.

[Make you cry.....]

When the sky's bright with dawn,

[Make you beg.....]

He will wake in the morning.

[Make you wish that you would die.....]

When noontide warms the world,

[Why? My love? All such deeds?.....]

He will frolic in the sun.

[Because I want you to see......]



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Thursday. Double Potions. Paper due tomorrow. Bah!

The teen sighed. Do I really have to do this? Yes, I do.

He picked up his quill with a grumble and dipped the feather into his inkbottle, which, now, has only about three millimeters of ink left. He wasn't sure if he could finish a fifteen-inch scroll with that amount; what's more important is, he wasn't sure if he could COME UP with a fifteen- inch essay on a simple Stimulation Solution.

Stimulation Solution. Stimulation Solution. Stimulation Solution....Ahhhhh~ What's so special about that??? Why not doing something exciting like the Vaporizer Serum (a potion that can vaporize any substance in contact, which includes human beings; he thought that was very cool.) Harry Potter snapped his dictionary-sized reference book shut, and threw his paper airplane - made from a bit of his parchment, out of the window.

He sat there lazily, watching the paper plane swoosh here and there from the impact of the morning breeze.......until it bumped on a tree branch, and landed on a window ceiling.

Hmm.......? The bored teen felt like doing something extreme, okay, maybe not extreme, maybe.....just weird. Like, climbing down the east tower by walls while nobody's watching to reach that nice piece of scroll-paper- plane for example. Yes, that might just be it. Gotta get that paper back for -- no reason.

He opened up the window, ignoring the concerned paintings' questions, and scrambled down along the stonewall. How? Well, a little trick he learned from the Weasley Twins.

"Ah-hah. Found it." He said to himself, and reached out for the small paper plane......

"Whoah~" Harry crashed down right in front of the window, saved by a tree branch. "Severus?!"



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//Earlier that day//



"What is THIS, Malfoy???!!!" Severus, who had just been forcefully apparated to a very, very nice and expensive looking restaurant, demanded angrily.

"It's a restaurant, you know, where people eat?" Lucius said very innocently.

Severus felt the urge to do something to this man.....like -- slapping him girlishly on the face, but restrained himself immediately. "And you suppose I'm hungry right now?"

"I 'know' you're hungry." Lucius said in a gentler tone. "I know you never sleep for more than three hours, and you get up at 5:00 a.m. in the morning. Despite the fact that you've gone into some sort of a depression that stopped you from sleeping at all for the past whole week, you usually brush your teeth and comb through your hair with only your fingers, drinks a cup of strong, black coffee, makes nasty comments about your breakfast, then heads off to your office to prepare for your first class."

"When the first class is over, you take a short break to work on your own project - usually some very advanced potions, until it's time for your next class. In the second class, you tend to get very touchy, and if the class is Gryffindors, you'll pick on Longbottom. After that, you'll start checking up on the Slytherins' dorms, lecture them on the Slytherin pride; then it's time for lunch....." He picked the stunned Severus' hand up. ".....and you're usually very hungry by 12:30."

Severus was speechless for a very long time, and when he finally found his voice again, he whispered hoarsely "How did you know?"

"Oh.....here and there."



"Why?"

"Because I like you."

"Oh." Shock.

"Time for lunch."

"......" Still in shock + now very hungry.



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//now//



"Severus?!" Harry exclaimed inwardly in shock.



A 'sleeping' potions master was really, really rare.

As far as Harry knows, he had never seen Severus asleep before. Of course, the man sleeps -- not going crazy being a sign saying that he has at least gotten a bit of sleep. Sometimes when Harry wakes up at midnight, sneaking into the kitchen trying to find something to drink, he'd find Severus there - drinking coffee, cup after cup, like a never-sleeping lunatic. He had mentioned the fact to Severus, later, that - not sleeping is just not natural for human beings, and that he should sleep more than just two to three hours a day.

He remembered the first time he found Severus in the kitchen; it was at night after one of the summer advanced potions lessons that went through terribly, as always, that Harry decided to get up and sneak something to drink since he couldn't sleep while being so angry at Severus. He went through the kitchen secret door, and the first being he saw - Severus Snape, sitting alone, with a large goblet with contents that smelt like a sickening-strong coffee.

//flashback//



Harry was surprised. He didn't know wizards had coffee?! Moreover, what did Severus add in it to make it smell so strong? His head was already feeling dizzy by smelling the content......

"Professor?" The boy asked cautiously. First of all, he wasn't supposed to be there. Secondly, Severus certainly didn't look like he's in the mood to chitchat.

The potions master didn't react at first. He kept staring at his own mug, looking dazed; the man reminded Harry of the drug addicts of the Muggle world. Finally, Severus lift his head up with some effort, and stared at his student as if he had just found out that the boy was there.

Then the professor turned his head away, remaining expressionless. "Aren't you supposed to be in your dorms, Mr. Potter?"

Harry ignored him, "What is that you're drinking, Professor?"

"It's called coffee, Potter." The older man sneered. "I'm sure that's legal around here."

"Normal coffee doesn't smell that way."

Severus raised an eyebrow, and asked blankly, "Are you going anywhere with this, Potter?"

"You put something in that coffee, didn't you?" Harry replied coolly, "Or have you forgotten that I've been trained by you?" The student glanced at the cup of sickening-strong liquid, and said with a cold, distant tone, "Stimulation Solution, more than three spoonful you'll be having delusions. From the smell of it, there's got to be more than five in there."

Then the boy sneered a very Snape-like-sneer, "And you're telling me that's not illegal?"

Silence. Even the house elves started to back away. The potions master glared at the boy before him. The boy had grown, grown out of his childish ways, grown out of that pure innocence, grown out of that idealist's mind, which was once filled with the hope that the world could get rid of evilness once and for all; the boy had changed.

The boy was more like him now. He had faced death more times than he could count, watched pure evil work before him, and killed.......to survive. So he decided to answer boldly, because the conclusion he drew was: Harry Potter had become the same as him. The same kind, the same mind, the same hands that shed blood, the same heart that had been so cold that it seemed to be splitting.....then, fall apart, into nothing.......He can't let that happen. The boy was so young.

"I couldn't sleep." He said truthfully.

Harry blinked in surprise. He didn't expect a straight answer from his professor that fast.

"Nightmares?"

Severus nodded.



Then, they launched into a long talk throughout the night.



//flashback end//



So Severus finally got a nap like normal human beings do when they hadn't slept for the past whole week. That's good. But who's this beside him?



Lucius Malfoy. The Death Eater. The right hand of the Dark Lord.

Sitting beside the sleeping potions master, softly caressing the dark hair of Severus. Harry didn't dare move a bit or make a small noise, for the Death Eater would hear. Instead the young man observed silently.

He wasn't sure that the person he was looking at was Lucius Malfoy anymore. That look. That soft, tender look of the man is just....not him! Moreover, he is 'caressing' the potions master's hair with such loving look........



Whoooooooooosh!!!!!!!!!!!!

Something flew passed Harry rudely and almost gave the boy a heart attack. The teen glared at what almost knocked him off the tree - a handsome eagle owl, with a special 'M' clearly marked on its leg. It was a Malfoy's personal owl.

Lucius Malfoy glanced up at the owl with an annoyed look (Harry exhaled slowly, relaxed, for the fact that the blonde didn't see him hanging outside the window.)

There was a silence while the blonde man read the letter with a frown. Then, the man sighed quietly and stood up from his chair. With one last tender glance at the sleeping potions master, Lucius returned to his usual icy-cold expression and walked away with a swish of his long, expensive black robes.

The teen outside the window remained dumbstruck by what he saw. When he finally recovered, Harry climbed inside the room quietly and with a swing of his wand (luckily, he had brought it along.) he delivered the potions master into the professor's private bedroom without waking him up. Then, he went to the Headmaster's office and informed Dumbledore of Severus' lack-of- sleep situation and gotten his professor a permission slip for taking off rest off the next two days.

The green-eyed teenager grinned to himself in satisfaction, and climbed back to his study and finished the essay on Stimulation Solution quickly.

Now. Now that he was free, he should go and see Draco again.

Harry grinned even more and set off towards the Hospital Wing.



Tbc...............

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Author's Notes: This chapter is getting too long I tell ya! I couldn't help it. Not only have I suffered from the writer's block, I also had to deal with a whole bunch of random scenes I've written, and tried to arrange them into something readable. *Sighs deeply - angst, I tell ya! Angst!* I'm trying! I really am! But I'm also dedicated to be a good kid at school, so pwease don't blame me~

The next chapter is here also, but would you mind if I ask you to review this chapter for me also? I want to see what people think of every chapter I write, and learn to improve every time I write a new one. So Review pwease~~~~~~~~~~~^V^

Oh, by the way, I'm guessing some of you have noticed: I have a thing for turning lullabies and children songs into horror poems (or something like that)......It's a weird habit of mine, what's yours?

Tell me in your review if you have one, I'm just curious~



Answers to your reviews:



Stormy: Right, I see that you're the fifth or sixth person who's been taking in the title with FAR MORE meanings than I originally intended. I've decided to change the title, but only when I get a good one, but for now, live with it. You know, I never knew what the protesters-about-the-title were thinking of until you told me, so I guess I should thank you? Um, I think I'll go and think about the title a little more now~

Aurora: You and I (she said in a understanding tone), have so much in common. That kind of thing is what I would say if I were reviewing a fluffy fic like this....................*sighs~* Anyway, to answer your question, yes, there will be snogs in the future - in the far~ future. I won't promise you it will be very................say................graphical and blinding, but I assure you I want them to snog as much as you do (My gosh, is this something decent people should be saying?~~~~~~*sweat breaks and laughs dryly*)

ILLK: Well, I'm glad that you liked the story! And from your comment I'm guessing that you don't like Lucius? Well, I'm not exactly doing a good!Lucius, not a bad one either. I want him to be the "in between" kind, quite different from the original story. I hope you still like the story, so enjoy!

The Slayer: Yes, the Evil Rubber Duckies are really wrecking my yard over here (eating up all my hidden sweets and all that~) Sorry this new chapter took so long, but as I've said, I'm just a good kid trying to keep up with school (Ha! Like I'm a good kid, really, no lies!) So, here's the offering, take back all the Duckies, please? (Their biting my precious fingers now......................*screams like the screams in "Scream" * - hey that rhymes)

Rosh: (laughs dryly) Yes, I can't wait for more either, but sometimes they just don't cooperate ~ (cries miserably) Oh, yeah, if you're reading all of my stories, be sure to heed the warnings, for some of them are very, very dark. Cute fics are really exceptional works for me, I usually feel more comfortable writing dark fics - because that's the way I deal with some of the unwelcome feelings in my life...................Oh! Oops! Shhh~ That was supposed to be a secret~

Sharem: Thank you! I was hoping you people would think it's interesting (but again, I also hoped to be able to update too..................), if the fic weren't interesting - how sad would that be!! (Widens eyes and inhales shakily - okay, I'm writing fictions too much now!) Anyways, here's the new chapter, hope you think it's as interesting as the former chapters. Enjoy!

Stryder of Fruit Loopies: (Man, I love your penname~) You are a very logical and careful person, aren't you? (Don't tell me if I'm wrong.......................*sweats*) Your questions will be answered in the future chapters, but not in the two I've just updated. Don't worry, because the questions you asked were quite important to the fic, so they will appear..............not too late~ And, thank you, I rather like my Severus too. Even though I feel like I haven't really wrote to the point that expressed completely what I think about Severus (or, would like him to be), I'm still happy that you noticed him.

Cail: Yes, British accents ARE COOL~~~~~~ A-hem, anyways, I see that you really liked Lucius! Me too! But in the way I want him to be. I wasn't intending on making him all evil, but I'm not planning on making him a mislead angel either. This is what I want him to be: a survivor. You see, Lucius is a complex man, his role in the story is to twist the plot and make it full of crisis. I'm not saying he's a Death god, but that he is someone who uses everything to accomplish whatever he wanted - he's a businessman. He's smart, sexy, and always get his own ways. (Okay, maybe that's a bit too much information about him, but since we both like the guy, why not?)

Shukumei-of-another-world: I know, I tend to make scenes jump quickly. Hey, I like these kinds of comments, it tells me what to improve! Even though, I don't think I can eliminate this bad habit too quickly, I will try to improve next time. And, I know how you feel, having too much different fics at once and not having anything done (people are dooming me for it................;;). You'll see my other fics too? Yay! But heed the warnings! They're there for a reason.

Hermionegranger: *Sighs~* Too many people are having a fuss about the title! Why? When I was naming the fic, I was actually thinking of Draco touching Harry's face, trying to know who he really is, but you guys seemed to have thought a LOT more then that.....................(WHYWHYWHY??? I'm feeling so innocent right now~) Okay, I am considering of changing the title soon, but give me suggestions! Make it have something to do with the theme: "looking pass the outside". Thank you.



Thank you all for your wonderful reviews, and for those who are reading this~



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