Fingering You by Crimson Nightmare

Summary: Draco fell off his broomstick because of a curse that was meant to hit Harry. The fall caused him to be temporary blinded and legs paralyzed. Harry felt responsible so he took care of Draco, while remained anonymous. What will happen when Draco regained his eyesight and sees that it's Harry who has been feeding, changing, and bathing him?



Rated: R

Warning: SLASH, m/m, sex - not exactly graphical, you get the idea.

A/N: Whoa whoa whoa~ Homework! Homework! Everywhere! They're everywhere~!!! AH~~~~~~~~~~~~*going crazy* A-hem, while I'm struggling in my private little hell on my side of the globe, here's Chapter 7!



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Chapter 7: This Is Night by Crimson Nightmare



This is Night

Lullaby

Humming tones

A breeze

This is Breeze

Children song

Lalala

A laughter

This is Laughter

Music

"Oh how I love thee~"

A cry

This is Cry

Silent screams

Barely breathing

The end?

By [crimson nightmare]





Severus had been in the potions lab for the past seven hours in the middle of the night. His barely sleeping condition was back, since there was no one to threaten him with the Imperius Curse for him to drink any Sleeping potion. He took this opportunity to go and visit Draco, even if it was three forty-two in the morning.

He stopped in his walk when he heard two voices speaking as he got near to the Hospital Wing................

"Oh, gosh, I'm sorry, Sir.........." A tall teenager looked up at the person he bumped into and froze, his green eyes widened in horror. "You're here?!"

"It's you? You are the one -- " Lucius started with the same horror but was very, very surprisingly muted by the boy in front of him, who cast a Silencing Spell out of natural reaction.

(Damn it! Said Severus.)

"Oh gosh--" Lucius moaned, pulling at his hair madly, "Oh gosh, oh gosh, oh my gosh - It's you?! You?! Of all people? It had to be you?" He repeated as if he had suddenly snapped or something, "You, Potter, why does everything always have to be about you?! Huh? Tell me!!! Why, why, why, why, why ---"

"Sir --"

"Not you, not you, please tell me it's not you who's been caring for my son --"

"Sir!"

"Oh, gosh, this is a nightmare! What did I ever do to deserve this--"

"SIR!!" The loud calling woke Lucius back to reality, and he realized that all of the above, which he meant to scream at Harry Potter, were not said out loud. In fact, he had stopped right after saying "It's you? You are the one -- " and started staring at Harry with an airy look for a long time.

(Severus cast a Penetrating Charm quietly so that he could hear what the two were saying.)

"Mr. Malfoy!" By now, Lucius' eyes focused back to reality and found Harry waving a hand in front of his face and snapped out of natural reaction, "Don't wave your hand so close to people's face, Potter, it's rude to do so."

(Severus sniggered and muttered, "It's rude to stare, Lucifer.")

Harry sighed, "Are you awake yet, sir?"

"Sir? Why do you call me that?"

"Because you're an old man." Harry said with boldness.

"Oh, right." Lucius, not completely recovered from the shock, dismissed the insult and looked around. "Silencing Bubble, Potter? Is that the best you can do?"

"It was a natural reaction." Harry explained wearily. "I didn't want Draco............." Then he suddenly panicked. What was he doing?! Didn't Draco say 'no'? Why is he explaining all this (and possibly will be cursed for it) to Lucius Malfoy when he had already broken up with Draco?! Then again, Ron was probably right. If this was real love then he should be taking the long, hard journey, no matter what the situation looks like now. Hey, he's only tried getting Draco once. It's never too much to try it a second time............

He looked up and found Lucius Malfoy watching him with a strange, measuring expression on his face.



"What do you think you're doing, boy?" Lucius said with a low voice, indicating the double-sided meaning to the question. On one hand, it was simply 'what Harry was doing, keeping Lucius Malfoy in a ridiculous Silencing Bubble.' On the other hand, Lucius was asking Harry if he really knew what he was messing with: Lucius Malfoy's son, a Death Eater-to-be, and an important member in Death Eater circle in the future. Moreover, there was always the question of Lord Voldemort............

Silence followed for a few seconds, and then Harry spoke with a sensation that reminded Lucius of an experienced Auror, and gained the older man's slight but rare approval.

"I won't give Draco up simply for that." He said. They both knew what 'that' was implying. Harry took a deep breath and said, "This is serious."

(Severus rolled his eyes at the serious expression.)

Lucius raised a blonde eyebrow. The boy was pretty good. With two simple sentences, Harry had managed to avoid declaring anything practical, yet was able to make his point firmly. Lucius smirked for a moment, imagining what the Dark Lord would look like when he saw Draco Malfoy and Harry Potter had hooked up and regarded the whole Death Eaters' loyalty concept as trash. He almost burst out laughing.

"I don't understand." Lucius spoke, trying hard not to laugh at the mental image embedded in his mind, "Why are you willing to risk so much? Aren't you afraid that it might simply be a wild goose chase urged by silly teen hormones, or, more likely, a trap?"

"Why would I have not passed those doubts before?" Harry replied with a slightly distant look.

And with that, Lucius understood the unfinished sentence.

"You are in love."

Lucius turned and looked at the half-shut window in the hallway. A grey cloud was forming above the castle. Look like it was about to rain. "I have learned long time ago," He continued, "that there are three types of people that one should never try to meddle with: a madman, a lover, and a lunatic." The edge of his lips lifted a bit in a bitter smile, "I have known some of them for a very long time myself."

(Severus's lips parted in concentration. He knew exactly what Lucius was talking about. Two of these kinds were obvious. A lunatic was referring to Lord Voldemort; a lover was, of course, the boy in front of them. A lunatic, however, was taken from a line that Severus used to describe Lucius in their Sixth year at Hogwarts. "You are a madman, Lucifer, you'll do anything to get what you want!" He had said it with mild frustration, amusement, and, oddly, respect.)

Lucius looked back again and saw Harry smiling. "What?" He said, annoyed.

"Are you agreeing with me?"

"I'm not granting you anything, Potter." Lucius snapped with irritation. "I'm simply allowing you to try. Success or not, whatever the outcome, and the aftermath, I will not be holding responsible. I am a lousy father, Potter, and therefore I do not trust myself to interfere, but if you hurt my son in any way, I'll make sure you wish you've never been born."

Harry simply smiled. "You're not as bad as I thought you would be, Sir."





Lucius left with a dangerous urge to laugh out loud.

(Severus left.)





+++++++O+++++++



Draco was listening gloomily to the raindrops when Harry had walked into the Hospital Wing. He stopped for a moment at the door, and then walked with a slower pace to the edge of Draco's bed.

The blind boy stopped listening to raindrops by the window and leaned back on his pillow to ask who had just came in. It turned out to be James, and Draco inhaled shakily that it was the very person he had been nervously expecting.

He sat there waiting for the Harry to speak for about ten minutes or so, and turned away when a thunder rolled outside and interrupted Draco's train of thoughts on their silent conversation. Draco sighed a little. Harry, out of nowhere, gave Draco a big, teddy-bearish, warm hug.



"James?!"



"Draco would you please, please listen to me before you slap me across my face and throw me across the room?" He paused and said seriously, "I'm serious."

Draco resisted the urge to push him away. Then he stopped himself from slapping the boy, who was still holding him tightly.



"Yes?" He tried as cold as he could. Yet there was still weakness in his tone.



"I don't want you to think that this is it, that I've given up, because I have not. I won't push you about it, because you have the right to decide and take time to do so. But I want you to know that I'm going to keep trying. I'm going to try again and again and again because I want to get that chance to say it out loud. Say the words out loud to you. And I don't want to say it until I'm completely ready for it.

But all I ask is this. Don't push me away, Draco." He adjusted Draco's thin- framed face toward his and said it as if Draco could see the seriousness expressed on his face. "Give me a chance, that's all I ask."



Silence wore on, and the boy on the bed was vaguely aware that he had been trembling the whole time while the other's words were laid out boldly before him. He wanted to hide; he wanted to hide so bad! Yet he was not physically able to, so he sealed his own lips tightly, demonstrating that he won't give in. No, he was Draco Malfoy, the son of Lucius Malfoy, a Death-Eater to be, and an important figure in the Dark side in the future, how could he ever give up all that just to satisfy his teenage hormones? And it was, he was certain, just teenage hormone that would pass away as days go by. The last few days were just not long enough, that's all.



"Draco?" Harry's voice came firmly.



"Draco?" The low voice was a bit disturbed.



"Draco?" The voice started to shake.



"Draco, please.............." Harry whispered into the boy's shoulder. It was so cold. Was this boy always this cold?



Then he realised that he was not going to get a response. He drew in a shaky breath and said to himself, "Shouldn't push him." He got up and held onto the bedpost as if afraid that he might fall if not doing so. "I'll..............I'll come back again."



And he left.



Draco burst out crying.



"DAMN YOU! Damn you! I hate you! I HATE YOU!!! You make me FEEL! You make me want to feel.......... Do you have any idea how serious this is for me? Do you KNOW what I am supposed to be like? Draco Malfoy? The Death Eater? I hate you!!! I can't afford to feel!!! Don't you understand? I CAN'T AFFORD TO FEEL!!!!!"

Then he cried.



Lost track of time.

Never knew it anyways.



And he cried.





++++++O++++++





Harry started walking out that door, and he heard the outburst.



"DAMN YOU! Damn you! I hate you! I HATE YOU!!! You make me FEEL! You make me want to feel.......... Do you have any idea how serious this is for me? Do you KNOW what I am supposed to be like? Draco Malfoy? The Death Eater? I hate you!!! I can't afford to feel!!! Don't you understand? I CAN'T AFFORD TO FEEL!!!!!" The usually controlled voice cried out and it was unbearably heart breaking.



He dashed back inside the hospital and stopped dead.



Draco was crying.

Tears rolled down the pale, soft cheeks; under the silver lashes there were newly formed teardrops. A drop of tear rolled from Draco's pales cheek to the side of his lips, and it sat there. Waiting.



Harry ran over and caught the around the shoulders and kissed him feverishly. He could not stand the heart breaking sight, and therefore, he kissed it away. He kissed every teardrop. Every sob. Every intake of shaky breath. Every salty taste on the lips. Every bit of sadness, anger, confusion, and fear. He was going to kiss it all away.



They weren't in a fairytale. He was not trying to be a prince on a white horse.



All he had to do was to love Draco. And he did.





++++++O++++++



It was as if they were both drunk that night.



Rain was still dripping.

Drip.

Drip.

Drip.



Their bodies twisted together.



Thunder rolled in the dark sky.



Thunder flashed. Thunder roared.



They clutched at each other as if they were going to die if left apart. Green eyes were nearly as blind as the other's eyes; green eyes were shut tightly, letting his instincts guiding him and there were no doubts. No hesitations. There were only them. Two of them. As one. They made love that night.



Dark sky outside. Blackness was descending.



Rain was heavy.



Draco called out weakly.



Drip.

Drip.

Drip.



Harry exhaled shakily and buried himself into the night.



"James?"



"Yes?"



"Don't go."



"I'm not going anywhere."



Then they made love again.



Draco cried out.



Harry kissed the cries away.



They loved.



Yet there was tomorrow.



"What is your real name?"



"................................"



"You won't tell me?" He was shaking.



When the storm's over, light will come.



Can they take that?



Can they take tomorrow?



+++++O+++++



"Where is the boy, Wormtail?" Lord Voldemort was demanding.

"He is still in Hogwarts, milord."

"Weren't Lucius Malfoy there today?"

"Yes, milord." A fat man kneeled on the ground. Shaking, as life was sucked out of him by the evilness that was present in the room.

"Perfect, then he would be able to get Harry Potter out of that school." Snakes all around them hissed in agreement.



+++++O+++++



"Lucifer." Severus said.

The man stopped in his tracks and turned, "Severus."

"Do you know what you're doing?"

"Yes. Are you worried for me, Sev'?"

"No!" Severus stepped back immediately.

"Don't worry, Sev'." Lucius continued as if he didn't hear Severus' reply. "There's nothing we can do."

"But you know what will come down to you, don't you?"

The taller man narrowed his eyes at the storm outside. "Yes." He said.



"I know."



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Tbc.............................



A/N: Hello there, everyone~ Happy holidays! (Even though winter break is about to end.) I shouldn't ramble on this time, because I've got to go and finish my homework! (It's been left there for almost two weeks, can I really finish them all tonight and tomorrow? *Hesitates* No!)

Anyways, this chapter may be very confusing, but what I wanted to express was the total out-of-control relationship between Harry and Draco.

The chance that he had to let go was the last straw for Draco, and the deeply buried feelings that had been brooding for so long exploded all of the sudden. In this fic he was sort of an extreme person. He was deeply concealed usually, despite the physical appearance that called for attention, he was never allowed to let out his feelings completely. Yet this was his chance, though it was only a concept that laid in his subconscious, and he threw off all the control he had left and *let* Harry claim his self.

Harry, had he had any control left, he would have only allowed himself to hold Draco and calm the boy down. Yet he had just been bashed over the head with the second rejection that came from Draco. He was not even allowed a chance to try to love Draco. He was emotionally unstable. Then, when he heard Draco's saddest and most sudden outburst, he had no idea what he was doing. He only went back into the room and conscious seemed to have slipped out of his mind. Draco crying. Something he didn't know how to deal with. Something that was unidentifiable. And he acted by instincts.



Oh, and I thought I wasn't going to ramble.................

Ah! And for the Lucius/Severus fans, don't worry, their parts won't be forgotten. Next time! Next time.

Right. That HAD to be it. BYE! *Runs away*



Big thanks to everyone who reviewed, will be reviewing, or thinking about reviewing this chapter. Also, to everyone who managed to make it this far.



Replies for Reviewers:



Nightwing: Thank you! That's so sweet! And here is me keep writing *hard*! Thank you for the title suggestion, the poll is at the bottom, go and vote!!

Sairavanie: Thank you for your lovely comment! ".hushed, melancholic mood" I love it when people point out where my fic is different from others. *beams*

Caecesdeo: Oooo~ Another title suggestion! It will be in the poll. I'm doing good? How's this chapter? Still good? *blinks hopefully*

Grey Malfoy: Wow! You read my story in like 10 minutes?! That's fast! (about 50 pages in Microsoft Word!) But anyways, I'm glad you thought it got good and I'm relieved that you thought it stayed that way. *turns and works hard again~*

Bunni bunni: Yes!!! I think Lucius and Severus are cute..............no, you're right, that's not the right word ^-^;; How about yummy? Uh, forget I said that *faints*

Kale: Thank you! You think the fic is cute?! Yai~ But right now it's sort of going into an angst stage...............Hmmm~ Should I snap them out of it? *Falls into thinking~*

Jammie: There~ There! There's your chapter! *smiles* I've updated!!! Though I can't say fast...............*runs~*

Jade Dragon: Ah~~~~ A long review spotted! *dances around* I love long reviews and people commenting on specific aspects or parts of plots in my fic! It gives me a pointer on which parts are good, and which ones need improvements. See title at poll at the bottom.

Dark-One Shadowphyre: Wowwwwwwww~~~ Three titles input!!! Thank you! They will be in the poll, of course, and they are deep and wonderful! I take more liking in the second one....................

Blackunicorn: Mmmm~ A unique feeling from the simple penname. I like it. Well, here's the new chapter! What do you think?

Kristin: Really? Your second HP slash ever read? I'm flattered! Oh, I like your title suggestion and especially its explanation. It really grasped the feeling of the first part of the fic, where the characters only interact lightly and with humor. I like it!

Immature Angela: (chapter 3 review) Awwww~~~ That was a cute review~~ (chapter 7) Thank you for the title suggestion, it will go into the poll. And stop worrying! I didn't say you got it from someone else! *giggles*

Aishiteru Tenshi: Oh, yes~! There! I'm continuing! Don't go away! There's more, as always. (Am I an radio advertisement speaker or something?!)

CosmicStarr: Oh, you are really the only person who ever, ever mentioned my fake name for Harry in a review up until now! Good to know that someone actually noticed it! And, there, they hooked up.

Jamaine: You know, this just gave me an idea of an epilogue for the fic! To tell you the truth, it was out of laziness that I didn't write out the parts where Harry actually takes care of Draco.............*laughs dryly* Well, I'll try to make up for it in the epilogue.................

Qserenity2000: *jumps around* My works are appreciated~~~~~! More than one! I'm so happy someone checked out my profile land! I really, really hope that people can like *all* my works instead of only one or two. You made me so happy! *beams*

DBZVelena: (What does DBZ stand for? *asking curiously*) Anyways, here's more for you, hope you enjoy it as much as the former chapters! *mutters* Is this soon? Update? Um.................;;

Celesta Hellewise Harman: More! More! Though not much Luc/Sev but there will be! Don't go! You think it's creative? Thank you! I like the friendship between Harry and Severus too! And don't worry, there will be more L/S because I adore this pairing, too!

Vel-Chan: Here's how I handled Lucius and Harry's meeting, and it might be kinda weird because I was in a weird mood when I wrote that part. No, he didn't kill Harry boy, but, though I didn't mention, I think he had a brief thought of doing so. (Lucius: It was just a thought!)



THE POLL FOR NEW TITLE:

"blah" are titles suggested by reviewers.

*** are recommended by author

I will put the voting as consideration. New title will be up next update.

Thank you all for participating!

"Seeing With His Heart" (by nightwing)

"Truth Through Touch" (by Jade Dragon ".because Draco would never learn the truth about how he feels about Harry if he could see...")

"From Your Hand to My Heart" (by Dark-One Shadowphyre)

*** "Touch Scarcely Felt or Seen" (by Dark-One Shadowphyre)

"Hearts Touched With Fire" (by Dark-One Shadowphyre: "The original quote is: "Through our great good fortune, in our youth our hearts were touched with fire." [Oliver Wendell Holmes, Jr.] It seemed to fit, not just Harry and Draco's current situation, but also the history between Lucius and Severus.")

*** "Feather Touches" (by Kristin: "Because in this story, love doesn't happen all at once, it doesn't just hit you like an anvil. It's like a feather tickling your arm, and you don't even realize it until you start to giggle.")

"Love is Blind" (by Immature Angela)

*** "An Empty Kiss" (by Kapony?)

*** "Phantom Touch" (by Kapony?)



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