Fingering You by Crimson Nightmare

Summary: Draco fell off his broomstick because of a curse that was meant to hit Harry. The fall caused him to be temporary blinded and legs paralyzed. Harry felt responsible so he took care of Draco, while remained anonymous. What will happen when Draco regained his eyesight and sees that it's Harry who has been feeding, changing, and bathing him?

Rated: R

Warning: SLASH, m/m, sex - not exactly graphical, a bit of language, you get the idea.

Declaimer: do I have to do this every time? Just this: Not mine, no money, no sue! There!

A/N: What a busy day: everyone gets a bit more than they bargained for¡KAlso, CN shudders at her spelling of [Parseltonge] Is that the right way to spell it? It, wonderously, differs in every Harry Potter Dictionaries I could find!

ANNOUNCEMENT:

***************From now on: ¡§Fingering You¡¨ will be ¡§Seeing With His Heart¡¨******************

I won¡¦t tell you one by one why I didn¡¦t choose other titles, but this I will say: All of the titles were FANTASTIC!! It took me an awful long consideration until I finally settled on one of the titles. I will, however, trust those of you that told me no matter what title I use, they¡¦ll be fine with it. I KNOW that goes for all of you, right? *beams~*


Seeing With His Heart By Crimson Nightmare

Chapter 8: The Day of More Than

Day, ghosting through universe,

It finds passion, warmness, and stars like the Sun

Day, sifting through galaxy,

It finds grace and tenderness orbiting, such as the Moon

Night, it creeps through the valleys of the Earth,

It meets with threats and danger of the Death

Night, it crawls through claws of living creatures,

It finds all sorts of loss and hurts of emotions

Yet, no matter if it¡¦s Night or Day,

They all ended up with Humans,

Who invented such a thing as light bulb.

Love evolution.

[by Crimson Nightmare]

The gentle, pale morning sun found its way through the shadowy branches and onto the dusky castle. A tender morning such as this was full of encouragements for a new day. A good day. A day filled with possibilities. A perfect day.

Birds chirped as the morning breeze blew. They pecked at the bits of nutrition on the slightly cool morning earth, while willow trees continued to let the wind comb through their svelte branches.

A shadowed presence entered the bright morning. The little snake crawled gracefully as it found its way around the dead wood and rough rocks on the darker side of the castle. It carefully slid through the pile of rotten leaves and mud, and moved swiftly until it had reached its destination. A slightly shady space called the Hospital Wing, where Harry Potter the Boy Who Lived was located, and where the small amphibian had been instructed to watch, and learn. It was as the morning had said. It was the perfect day. A perfect day for the doom of the Dark Lord to begin.

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¡§Draco. Hey.¡¨ A low, gentle voice was calling him.

The pale-haired boy stirred, and muffled some inaudible words further deep into the pillow. Draco had been having dreams. Good ones and bad ones. Sweet ones and terrifying ones. Ones that he wanted to be real but could never be, and ones that he knew would happen and hoped that they wouldn¡¦t. It didn¡¦t matter, though ¡V since it was just a long, realistic dream.

The gentle voice was calling him again. He felt a weight lift up from his back, and protested with a hiss of breath as the cool air of the morning breeze brushed by his bare skin. The warm presence was on his back almost immediately. Why? He didn¡¦t know. But it certainly felt good.

There was a small silence before Harry spoke up. ¡§Draco. I have to go.¡¨

The boy turned suddenly, hands automatically grabbing onto the warm presence embracing him gently. For a moment there he forgot how to speak.

¡§Draco ¡V ¡¨

¡§Go ahead.¡¨ He said suddenly, too calm and cheerily for his own good.

¡§Draco, I ¡V ¡¨

¡§No, it¡¦s okay. Go.¡¨ Draco said. His hands still holding onto Harry lightly.

Harry frowned a bit, ¡§About last night ¡V ¡¨

¡§It was an accident. Now go. You¡¦ll miss classes.¡¨ Draco said. Too casually.

Harry stared in horror. ¡§An¡Kan accident?¡¨

The pale boy¡¦s silver brow seemed to twitch a bit but stopped immediately, ¡§Yes, an accident.¡¨ His perfectly still voice spoke. Almost hypnotizing. ¡§An accident. We were emotionally unstable. We were ¡V ¡¨

¡§Draco!¡¨ The voice was shaking more than ever before.

¡§We were both ¡V ¡¨

¡§No! We were not! It ¡V ¡¨

¡§ ¡V was an accident, James. Now if you don¡¦t hurry, Madame Pomfrey is going to be here for my bandages. She might even be early since she isn¡¦t here much. Now, go.¡¨ His voice ringed in Harry¡¦s mind like hypnotizing murmurs.

Sure, it was so, so easy to just walk away now. Pretending it was an accident and getting over it should not be that hard. Yet Harry still felt the pair of slender hands holding his upper arms lightly ¡V holding onto him, telling him that there were all the reasons in the world why he should not let go. He had every reason to stay, and every reason to go. As the hands lingering on his arms drop, his eyes widened and found a large area of salty wetness on the pillow with his face. Draco had been crying. He had been crying all morning. All night. All the time that Harry had stayed in that bed.

This was not an accident. He said it out loud, gaining a shaky gasp from the other being on the bed, ¡§This is love.¡¨

Love? The being seemed to fall into full confusion. Had he been saying, ¡§Go away¡¨ so many times for nothing? Draco¡¦s lips paled. What had he done?

He snatched his hands away from the boy and tried to move as far away as possible with his unmovable legs and blind vision. Harry stayed where he was, watching hollowly as the boy moved inch by inch, trying so hard to get away from him. He paled, too.

¡§Why do you have to do this?¡¨ He said as if to himself with a lost tone, ¡§Which part don¡¦t you feel love? Tell me, because I can¡¦t remember one moment without it.¡¨

¡§And which part don¡¦t you understand me being Draco Malfoy?¡¨ The usually gentle boy suddenly hissed sharply, ¡§I can¡¦t remember one moment when I didn¡¦t remind you enough.¡¨

¡§And you¡¦re just going to let an identity take your life? Why do you live for this? Why do you live for a simple word used to address you?¡¨ Harry shot back. He was moving towards Draco quickly.

¡§And you think you can just throw it all away just because we had sex last night?¡¨

There was a kind of silence that seemed to be able to echo the sound of heartbeats and panting. The air tightened enough to make Draco¡¦s ears felt hot. An untouchable pressure settled itself over them. Darkness of rage descended down from above.

¡§I.¡¨ A low voice said lightly, yet sounded like thunder, like dark fire. ¡§Love.¡¨ Harry said darkly as his angry hand found its way to Draco¡¦s wrist and grabbed it tightly, earning a small ¡¥ah¡¦ from the other boy. ¡§You.¡¨ There. The word thundered down onto the splitting atmosphere. Once more, very lightly, ¡§I love you.¡¨

¡§It was not just sex, Draco.¡¨ Harry said, narrowed eyes and face close to the other boy¡¦s lips, ¡§I love you and I was making love to you. No matter what the circumstances were. By the way, you were a virgin; so don¡¦t say the word sex so carelessly. I might get interested.¡¨ Boy, Harry could be nasty when he was angry.

Oh. My. Gosh.

Draco dropped his jaw. That was James? Did James really just say that? About being a vir¡K¡K¡K¡K. ¡§How did you know?¡¨ He burst out ridiculously.

Harry smirked, ¡§Trust me, I know.¡¨

Draco let his jaws dropped further - only to be caught on the lips by the other boy and the husky words were said into his mouth. Inaudible.

They kissed. They broke apart after oxygen was not in satisfying supply. Harry said he would be back after classes. Draco was still trying to recover from lost of oxygen.

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The Dark Lord smiled. No, lips twisted upward in attempts to smile would be a better description. Whatever made him ¡¥smile¡¦ was incomprehensible to his followers all around, though ¡V it was in Parseltonge. A small graceful snake curled comfortably on the Dark Lord¡¦s forearm and there it rested and told the Dark Lord of his story. A story about Harry Potter the Boy Who Lived and another boy by the name of Draco Lucius Malfoy.

Lord Voldemort smiled unpleasantly. Finally, he had found a reason to crush Lucius Malfoy down under his feet forever. A Malfoy should be afraid. A Malfoy should serve and serve only.

Lucius Malfoy had been too fast of a thinker, too intelligent a learner, and too charismatic for his own good. Although he had noticed all these when he first initiated the young Malfoy when Lucius had been a new graduate of Hogwarts, he never had believed that the man could have accomplished this far without getting himself killed.

Lucius was a survivor of both the Light and the Dark Side. It was a stunning ability that, despite the agreeable background, the man could blend in and take control so quickly that it finally caught the Dark Lord¡¦s attention. Methinks he had been hiding it for quite a while. Thought the Dark Lord. Yet he is too valuable to let go. What shall I do with this piece of interesting news, Lucius? What shall I do with you?

The red eyes glittered as the Master looked at the snake thoughtfully. And then hisses were heard again on and off until the ¡¥conversation¡¦ seemed to have ended. Peter Pettigrew held himself tighter as the Evil Presence turned toward him.

¡§Wormtail.¡¨

¡§Ye..Yes milord.¡¨ His veins shook. The evilness was once again crawling under his skin, eating up what was left of him rapidly.

¡§Go and fetch Shara, tell her that her Master must use her services immediately.¡¨

Peter shivered. He hated snakes. Especially Shara. Yet there were plenty that his Master had called in favoritism even more than any Death Eater in the rank. Snakes think like what we should think like. His Master had once said. It was only right to learn from a snake comparing to a man with no brains, Wormtail. Yes, Master. He had said automatically.

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This day was a really nice day, as we have concluded. Severus got his potion done. Lucius got to grope Severus once or twice during the process. And there was no Dark Lord or Dooms Day for them to worry about. The day ended with Severus finally gave into Lucius¡¦ pompous persuasions and went for a small tour in the long-unvisited Malfoy Manor and have late afternoon tea with the elder Malfoy.

They threw Slytherin-fashioned jokes at each other once in a while, but had a pleasant afternoon nonetheless. Severus finally admitted that Harry helped him out of his sleepless addiction and Lucius pecked his fellow Slytherin in return.

Wait a minute.

¡§WHAT DID YOU DO THAT FOR~~~YOU..YOU..¡¨

¡§What, Sev¡¦? This?¡¨ Another peck, this time on the lips, ¡§Are you afraid that I might tell Harry?¡¨

¡§Lucifer Malfoy I am warning you ¡V ¡¨ Severus growled ----

---- and ended up kissing crazily with the other man. Severus says it was something to do with the alcohol that afternoon, but Malfoy insisted it was their unchangeable fate (?).

Small correction ¡V The day ended up with Severus rushing out of the house with a hell-I-am-MAD scowl on his face, and Lucius smiling innocently at the stomping figure that kicked open his door to get out.

The day ended with Lucius Malfoy getting more than he planned for the day and was completely and pleasantly undisturbed by that particular fact.

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A shade of pale green, a few black scales, and two smudges of crystal red slipped through the darkness. Oh, no, this day isn¡¦t over. Are you kidding? There¡¦s still two hours until midnight. The figure twisted its way through the bulky branches and stopped to sniff at human scent. Deliciously soft and tender. Sweet beyond words.

Shara hissed. She loved humans. She loved this job.

TBC¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K

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READ THIS: If you have any really, really important concerns due to the new title (which I hope you wouldn¡¦t), please don¡¦t use the review board simply to leave a question! Drop me an email instead.

A/N: Well, that was certainly a productive day! Harry got Draco shell-shocked, Voldie got a smiling-issue going on, and Lucius certainly had fun~ It gets better, people, so review and threaten me on! Long reviews would be lovely ¡¥bribes¡¦ for me~ (Hint! Hint!) This chapter is still late, I know, I know, but I¡¦m beginning to think some of you are used to it by now¡K*sweats* Anyways, it¡¦s shorter this time, but probably will be longer next time we meet¡KSo for now¡K:

Guess what our snake mistress: Ms. Shara will do~ *winks*

Thank you everyone for your wonderful reviews, participation in either suggesting of titles or voting in the poll! And also big thanks to all who are reading this¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K.

Replies for Reviews:

Slytherin-git: Thank you~ ^.^ Harry is sweet~(hearts) But he certainly has a dark side, too, doesn¡¦t he? I certainly love his unique double-sided personalities (which, if I may clarify, is not multiple-personality ¡V which is a psychological illness that¡¦s completely different case¡K) I hope you liked this chapter, too~ But I¡¦ve certainly took a long time updating haven¡¦t I? ¡K.don¡¦t remind me~ (runs~o;;)

Paranoid-Fan-Girl: Never thought of LM/SS before?! I don¡¦t blame you, since the pairing certainly is not considered popular in any sense. It¡¦s always dark and twisted with this pairing, and I intend it to be healthy and somewhat adorable¡K.;; Poem/Song? The first few parts just my little collection of children songs that I¡¦ve twisted into my ¡§Horror Lullabies¡¨ collection. But just to clarify, those are very early works, which are not terrifying at all¡K*shakes head* The rest are either songs I felt reflecting the mood of the chapters, or, like the last one, poems I created for my fics. If you want to know the details, drop me an email. Come, I don¡¦t bite~ ^___^;;

Emily: *dances around* what a nice review~ (got great reflections and everything~) Thank you! Hmm. It will be fun, wouldn¡¦t it? Well, not fun, but interesting (?) to see how Draco will react to James¡¦s real identity¡KOh how I am going to PLAY with these lovely boys (she says with an insane look in her eyes) Oh, ¡§The Free and the Non-Free¡¨ updated a while ago; no, I¡¦m not giving up that fic. Rather, I¡¦m just moody with it. I will not regularly update that fic, but when I update, my bio will inform all that I have updated. So if you don¡¦t want to go through all the trouble to look up the fic and then see that it¡¦s not updated yet, simply look at my bio and it¡¦ll say what has or hasn¡¦t updated. Cheers~

Blackunicorn: (She smiles mysteriously) Exactly, we all know the fun of playing around with Draco¡¦s mind, don¡¦t we? Harry¡¦s (quote, or should I say James,) identity will be revealed eventually, though not in this chapter. This chapter has more of a ¡¥tempest¡¦ feeling if anything. Well, off to dress ¡¥James¡¦ up for another show! *waves goodbye* Oh, and come back next time!

Ru av Natten: Whoa~ ¡¥That¡¦ was a long review! Thank you, you know how much I love long reviews (No pressure, you don¡¦t have to do it all the time. *g*) I know what you mean: ¡§Phatom¡¦s Touch¡¨ is rather depressing. Thank you for the suggestion (and your hard work for searching it up ^.^). I did like the idea of that title a lot. Thank you also for pointing out some aspects I didn¡¦t see in titles before à prevents me from making same mistakes again, and we all know what that means ~ (she looks at her original title¡KToT)

Ivan: *bows~* I¡¦m glad to make your new year a cheery beginning! Oh, you like Lucius, too~? (Jumps around) Yay, I¡¦m so happy someone likes my Lucius~~~o Because I¡¦m totally in love with the Lucius in my imagination. The Lucius in this fic, of course, can¡¦t even begin to compare to the Lucius in my wild imagination, but he¡¦ll do for now~ (ducks from a curse sent by Lucius-of-the-fic~) Sorry, gotta run now~ (ducks again from another curse from Sev¡¦)

Vel-chan: I know! They finally got together! (Whispers: it¡¦s about time, y¡¦all~) Draco will probably be more than just shell-shocked if he finds out about Harry¡¦s identity¡KOops~ Didn¡¦t mean to say that~ *winks* Voldie~ I love that nickname¡K;P Oh, he¡¦s got a plan alright~ A considerably BIG plan (which is thought up by my very small brain, so you know what that means¡K*crackles*) Now, if you¡¦ll excuse me, I¡¦ve got to run¡K(she runs, ducking Vodie¡¦s AV curses and leaves Lucius muttering: It was really, *really* just a thought, Harry, I really didn¡¦t want to talk to you and AV you while you¡¦re concentrating and so on~~;;)

Danielle: Oh~ Another participant of my attempts at making a poll for my ridiculous title¡KReally, I really was using that title as ¡¥Draco touches Harry¡¦s face, which is ¡§Fingering¡¨ Harry¡¦! Not the way *almost everyone* thought it was!!! *sighs~* Thank you for voting *beams~* Now I can get rid of that trouble-magnet of a title!

Spangle*Star: Yeah~ I think another voter said so too! ^^ All of the titles are great and fits the fic in one way or another à So hard to choose! Do you have any idea how hard I was struggling with choosing? They¡¦re all so nice and suiting. Hey, this can be a reason why I couldn¡¦t update so soon! (darn, why didn¡¦t I use this reason before?!)

GalesMystique710: Update, what a terrifying word¡KYeah, I know, reading chapter eight probably challenged a lot of wild unreasonable imaginations out there. It¡¦s too abstract if you ask me. Chapter eight was a image in my head, where everything was dark and all I know is that I wrote down the words the instant they came to me (and then did a rather poor attempt at putting these words into sentences?) I¡¦ll try to improve~ ToT

Aishiteru Tenshi: Hey, you¡¦ve voted two of the three titles that were all very close to the score! ¡§Seeing with His Heart¡¨ ended up hitting the score with not exactly the highest vote but the most convincing one for me. Do you like this chapter? I hope this one wasn¡¦t too late~;P

Gwendolyn: I love your penname! I chose it for an original character of mine in the first-ever original fic I wrote, though, sadly, the fic was lost along with the disk that went missing *cries* I actually was satisfied with that fic, you know, and satisfaction doesn¡¦t often come to me when it comes to writing. Gwendolyn was a name I used for a character that was quite holy looking. But enough blabbing about this¡KThank you for voting. Hope you liked this new chapter!

Tsuyuno: Sure Draco gets hurt in the first chapter! I¡¦m a cold-blooded sicko that plans to torture Draco every single day remember? But¡KWhat sucks big time? (Big question mark)

Shukumei-of-another-world: Oh-yay~ An old, I mean, previously-presented reviewer¡¦s here! It¡¦s not easy to see any reviewers stick with my fics since I update so damn slow¡K(yes, I know, you don¡¦t have to tell me¡K) But it¡¦s so nice to see familiar face, I mean, penname once in a while¡KThank you for pointing out that Lucius is married and I still have Narcissa to deal with *sweat drops* Well, that¡¦s going to be one hell of a show, wouldn¡¦t you agree? Nah, I¡¦m leaning towards the neutral side when it comes to Narcissa, I don¡¦t like her, but I don¡¦t hate her either. We¡¦ll see¡K¡K¡K..

Grey Malfoy: Awww~ Poor baby, allergies? Luckily, I¡¦ve been blessed with a total allergy-free system. I know, that title is very nice, right? I loved it, too. But I do agree with some other people that it is quite depressing. And since I can¡¦t bring myself to be serious for more than five minutes, I can¡¦t deal with depression in a fic like this¡KLucius approves? (Lucius shouts: I don¡¦t approve! I just¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K.Author: yeah, yeah *yawns~*)

Cobalt Killer: Wow, you just used one sentence and summarized all my purpose for writing fanfictions¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K=______=bb You¡¦re right! ^^ Other sides of characters in the novels that are hinted at, and I intend to express them by playing around with my ridiculous amount of vocab knowledge and blinding grammar. Thank you! It¡¦s a really nice comment. It¡¦s great to see someone who understands.

Zareta Stargazer: New to whole review thing? Me feel flattered to bring you into the wonderful review world~! *beams~* Oh, don¡¦t ever worry about getting any sad or horrible ending from me, because I am absolutely horrified of any sad ending, even if some fics (written by other people, never by me) manage to make them really beautiful and all. This fic will not, nor will any of my other fics, become an angst-concluding love story. I wrote these stories to entertain myself, not to let myself cry!

Icy Flame: Oh, thank you! Glad to introduce you to the absolutely adorable couple ¡V (drum rolls) Lucius/Severus!!! So much writers make this couple sick and twisted dark kind of love, not that none of them make it interesting and beautiful to read, but I personally think that dark relationships seems to be all that this couple is getting. Therefore I am determined to write them fluff and sap until everyone gets brainwashed and so on¡K¡K¡K..

Jessica: You like it? And manage to be a sap for angst? No problem! Oh, and thank you for the nice comment! Chapter eight was probably the chapter with the most serious mood of all! Wow, (steps back) you¡¦re tearing? Wow, (first time seeing her own work drawing tears out of reader) I feel quite good for some reason¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K.Is this normal? (puts a hand on forehead¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K.) Nah, I¡¦m glad I could communicate the mood to a reader so well. Thank you! ^^

The Insane Floo pot: *g* That¡¦s a cool penname! Ah~ Too many questions! I know~ (tears hair madly with her) I couldn¡¦t choose which title to use, I couldn¡¦t bring myself to tell Draco who James was so soon, and I failed to make Voldie scary enough and so on¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K..I¡¦m currently lost in the desert of failure, I shall go and destroy myself now¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K..A-hem, ignore me, it¡¦s midnight and I¡¦m kinda out of it~$&*#^(&@~~~~_____

Leean Meanlock: Whoa~ Your review has a structure! (Two words beginning two words end, two sentences sandwiching the actual purpose of the review¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K.) *g* Thank you for reviewing! Did FF.Net cut you off (chapter 8)? I know, that happens a lot to me *kicks the machine* I usually give out really long reviews, and since FF.Net lost it all, or half of it, or most of it, whatever, I couldn¡¦t remember what I wrote anymore~~~x Oh, well! I¡¦ve been told to pretend that the computer was being silly with me¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K*sweat drops*

Lady Maria: Thank you! Here¡¦s an update for you! I hope it¡¦s up to expectations! This chapter is a bit shorter than others, but it¡¦ll do for now~~~ I hope you like it! And always come back for more! (And with that, she falls off sleeping as it is nearly morning~ Oh, wait, I¡¦m not done yet¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K¡K..Got to go and actually update this chapter!)

Draven: Ooo~ Another suggestion! Sorry I can¡¦t put it into the poll now since most people already voted, but I thank you anyway for your participation and a wonderful title suggestion. Hmm. A Touch in the Dark, yeah! Draco is blind and it does suit~~~~ Wha~~~ It was so hard to decide and now another good one appears, are you trying to torture me??? 3

Alright, folks, you know what to do!

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