Note: if you freak out at the thought of blood or something like that, i advise you not to read this...

About a few hours later, while Elle was running--then walking after a while--in the city, her crying slowed down into whimpers and stiffled sobs. Alone. Alone again. This time alone in the heart, too. Rini she lost. Aryeona and Cindy she let lose. Lily she let fly away. Tehiro she forgot about.

Elle sat down on the bench she sat on last night, ignoring people walking by, and felt trickles of warm tears fall into her lap and down her cheeks.

'Why does fate hate me?' she asked herself.

'It's not fate that is doing this to you,' said another part of her. 'It's yourself. Your just feeling bad for yourself.'

'Exactly. How am i going to live with myself?'

'By excepting your fate, your destiny. Once you do so, you'll live--'

Elle wasn't listening to the other part of her now. 'I can't live in this misery. I just can't! What's the point in living in pain when you can be in peace? Where no one gets heart broken, where no one bothers you, or tells you what to do!'

"I want it..." she growled, an evil grin on her face. She looked next to the bench, at the leg, and ...yes. She saw one. A nice clean peice of glass, not too large either. She relaxed a bit and reached down and picked it up. Testing it with her finger, Elle found it was extremely sharp when her finger bled immediatly from touching the blade. "...I'll take it...."

'No!' screamed part of her mind, but she ignored it again.

She placed the glass against her neck, not wincing as cold blood splotched out when the blade touched her bare flesh. Just a little more pressure... She pressed harder against her neck, and fell off her seat to the ground. She heard screams and saw blood covering her hands, and a puddle of it forming under her head.

Grinning, she slipped into unconsciousness, with death not far ahead.

~*~

Elle was floating in nothingness again, wearing her Sailor Senshi uniform, except now there were giant, strong black wings holding her steady. Her long boots were black with black opals on the sides. Her skirts and bows were black, along with her nails and make-up.

Suddenly a small person came forward. She was wearing a long light blue silk dress, and small white angel wings. She had extremely long blonde hair, and her eyes were black. Her face was expressionless.

"Princess Illusion, what were you thinking?" she asked. When Elle didn't say anything, she continued, "You had a mission to accomplish, and you just blew it! How do you think your friends are feeling right now, since you didn't come home? How do you think they'll feel when you never come home? What about Prince Tehiro, Illusion? He loves you dearly! And what about Princess Neptune, you mother? You never stopped the think about how you'll harm your friends and family! You only thought of yourself! What about the earth? You were supposed to save it, with help from the Sailor Senshi and Areon and Charon! You blew it! Since you've killed yourself, you've killed the earth and the hearts of millions! You never thought of what came after death!" It hesitated. "What about Lily?"

Elle tried not to cry. She didn't think about all that! And Lily...if she was alive. "What am i going to do?" she asked the small person, biting back tears.

The woman flew over, and placed a hand over Elle's black wings. With a pop, they disappeared. She screamed as she started to fall, but the woman held onto her hand.

"You will go back and help. But you won't be given any other chances. And this time it'll be different... only so many will see you."

"I'll--i'll just be a spirit?"

The small lady nodded gravely, then let go. Elle screamed as she fell into infinity. Falling... falling. Did it ever stop? She looked down and saw a large globe filled with light. She fell thru it.

"AGGGHHHHH!!!!!!"

Pain beyond anyone could imagine. It felt like her body being ripped apart, as her bones turned into pebbles.

She was wrong. This pain was far worce than living, and this pain was the opposite of peace.