~Chapter 5?~ I think its chapter 5!! Anyway I know I haven't updated in a while but here's an updation…did that make sense? Probably not…but updation (well in my language) it means a new chapter..or I updated!! So yeah!! So here's my updation and thanks to all the reviewers!!! And I know this chapter goes a little fast, but that's cuz I have plans for later so I wanted to speed it up a bit so yeah!
****Soda's POV****
Rina was sweet and she didn't treat me like a freak after she saw me cutting myself, but I still didn't really want to go out with her. I just wanted to stay home and do nothing. "Come on Soda, why not?" Steve was begging me to go on a double date with him and Carmen.
"Because Steve, I don't feel like it." I complained to him and cringed when I heard the door shut. That meant Darry was home. "Steve, go get Pony." I commanded him and he just shrugged and yelled to Pony. Thanks, I thought to myself, I could have done that, I actually wanted you to go get Pony, Steve.
Pony moped in the door, frowning. "What Steve?" He wondered and wouldn't look me in the eye when I looked at him. Steve shrugged.
"I dunno. Soda wants to talk to you." Then Steve left.
"Hey Pony," I began but he cut me off.
"No Soda. I don't want to hear it. I don't want to ever talk to you again!" My eyes grew big and I felt my face start toturn red. That wasn't like Pony. He was never mad at me and he never talked to me like that. "How could you hurt yourself? What are you trying to do, leave me and Darry all alone? Why don't you just have Darry send you off to a home if you want to leave? Huh!?" I shook my head.
"No, no, Pony, that's not what I wanted. I don't want to leave you guys," I felt tears well up in my eyes. I wasn't sure what I wanted. I might have wanted to leave everyone.
"Then why did you do it!?" He shouted at me and I heard Darry come down the hall.
"Whats going on in there?" He asked, opening the door. I shook my head and rolled over on the bed, burying my head in the pillow and letting tears come out of my eyes.
"What's wrong with you PepsiCola?" Darry sat down on the bed, next to me and put his hand on my back, speaking gently.
"Pony knows. Ask him." I muttered angrily.
"Pony, whats wrong with him?" I heard Darry whisper.
They exchanged a few whispers before I heard Darry tell Pony to leave the room so he could talk to me. Great, now Darry knew that I was cutting, that was the one thing I hoped would not happen.
"Soda." The tone of Darry's voice made me roll over to face him. He was using a harsh voice, like he was getting ready to scream at me. I knew he would be mad, but he was crossing the line. His voice seemed furious. "What the fuck are you trying to pull? Do you want out of the house? If that's what you want, I'll give it to you. But as long as you're living under my roof you won't and I mean won't cut yourself. Is that understood? If you pull a stunt like this again I will personally kick you out. I don't give a damn what you think. I'm not going to stand around and watch you kill yourself." Darry stopped and I wondered if maybe, by a small chance if he was done. He had already almost brought me to tears. I didn't like it when any of us fought, but this was worst then any fight that we'd ever had. Darry had never threatened to kick any of us out of the house. " I know you want me to stand here and tell you that I'm sorry that you're cutting yourself and all that shit, but you know what Soda? I'm not going to. You knew better. You knew what it can do to you. You seen Riley and you tried to get her to stop and now that she's gone you started. That's not right. And another thing, you're behavior for the last few days has been unacceptable too, all you do is mope around and apparently cut yourself. Soda, do you want to end up dead..like Riley?"
I sprang up off the bed. He had went to far. "Don't bring Riley into this Darry! And its none of your damn business what I do! Stop being such a parent and be a brother, asshole!" I hit him hard and waited for him to hit me back. He stood there for a moment and then he did, he hit me.
I fell to the ground, cussing to myself. "Asshole!" I yelled. By this time the rest of the gang was in there. They looked to Darry and then to me.
"You guys…" It was Two-Bit and he trailed off after I just shook my head and stood up.
"Are you ok?" Carmen ran to my aid and looked at my face where Darry had hit me. It hurt like hell but I just muttered to Carmen that I was fine.
"Damnit Darry, I needed your fuckin support and you fuckin hurt me. You had no right to do this!" Darry shook his head and cussed me out before walking out of the bedroom and slamming the door behind him, leaving me, Carmen, Steve, Dally, Two-Bit, Pony, and Johnny standing there.
A/N~ Sorry so short!! Umm..ok just review and please don't flame it!!! Ok…bye now!!!
