disclaimers: I OWN IT ALL!!! HAHAHAHA!! ..not really.

This is Yaoi, boyxboy love. Dont like, bye bye!

Yami B: yes, bye bye!

Yami M: Ja ne!

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I NEVER GOT TO SAY I LOVE YOU

We all knew you were dieing. It was evident from the beginning. The second you were found unconcious by your aibou, we knew it then. How stupid were we? We disregarded it though and figured it was a passing phase but it wasn't. I close my eyes, ignoring the rain that pelts onto my hair. I ignore the people whom we deemed enemies so many years ago. They have offered what little condolences I'll accept. I'm not strong without you! I know your probably laughing your head off right now, seeing us mourn you. The image brings a smile to my lips. I wonder how much trouble your causing? I feel sorry for Osiris.

Gods, why did you have to die? I never figured I'd miss you this much, even after the few days you've been gone has been like hell. We constantly argued, fought, and yet we always stayed together. We balanced each other well. We were the missing halves of two souls. Not once did I tell you how I feel. I never told you I loved you. Was it because I was scared of rejection? Was it because of my own selfish pride? I'd like to think the latter. Thats one thing both of us had plenty to spare of.

You were too young to die. Only twenty five. Well, maybe not that young. You were 5025, when counting our years in Egypt. Egypt...the place where we first met. I'll never forget those times. We were always getting into trouble with Pharoah Yugioh. I glance at him, his arms around his hikari. Both appear to be crying over the loss of you. My vision strays to your aibou. Tears have caused his eyes to be bloodshot, dark rings are underneath his lower lids. The resembelance between you two is uncanny. It brings back a feeling of nostalgia. Whats this? I'm crying? Now I know your laughing. Your aibou gives me a sad smile and I turn back to the headstone. They buried you yesterday. I had to come today and make sure I wasn't dreaming. I haven't been back to our house yet. I don't think I can. Your aibou has allowed me to stay with him until I summon the rest of what little strength I have left. I skim my fingers across your name. I chuckle at the angel perched on top. So unlike you. We should have got one with both characteristics of an angel and a devil; yami and hikari. I sigh, the rains coming in torrents now. The others are returning to the cars, black clothes sodden. I don't want to leave. Just being here makes me think that one day, we'll meet again.

I thought you would like to be buried here, the place where we first joined our bodies as one. The sakura tree is blooming, as it was that night. Eventually, it will whither away and die like you did but my love for you won't. Love. I never wanted it, never needed it, thought it was a curse. Was I wrong. To know I had you for myself was the greatest thrill. I can sense my aibou's concern wash over me. I send him a mental nod that I'll be coming along shortly. I reach into my pocket and withdraw a rose. The flower is so much like you. I place it on the grass, bring my fingers to my lips and touch your engraved name once again. I turn on my heel and head for the car. I don't bother to hide the tears, don't bother to hide my pain.

Your aibou pats my shoulder awkwardly, not used to seeing me in such a pitiful state. I flinch and he removes his hand. He looks too much like you. The woman, I can't remember her name, hands me a tissue, a smile on her face. I nod my thanks and turn to stare out of the window. The passing trees, the passing houses, the passing of...life. Is this the reason we are even born? To die? No....I believe it is to find love. Whether you do or don't depends on how hard you try. I've become soft, but only in private musings. I never even acted tenderly to you while you were alive and how I regret it.

Meninigitis Septicaemia . Its a type of blood poisoning. It releases toxins in the blood which break down the walls of the blood vessles. Its what killed you because we didn't know. The doctors told us that it was a rare case in that your skin didn't become spotted, or bruised. It directly attacked your body. I'm sorry, koi. If only you hadn't acted so tough. We figured nothing could touch you. Even me. Bakura.....you are truly missed. I have to piece myself together again...just like I did all of those years ago in Egypt. Your were who I leaned on, my lifeline. You were the rock that was strong for me. I was the weak one back then. You were the pair of arms that held me when I was scared. When nobody else was around, you were there. Gods Bakura, if only I could change our past but I can't. All I can do is reminensce. Perhaps, if I remember enough of those memories, I can find the will to move forwards. In our past...I did tell you I loved you and I'd like to think you still remembered when you returned to this time. Bakura.......

* * * Was it good, bad? Let me know! ^_^ This is NOT the end! I'm going to have their past, how they met, etc. SONG FOR THIS STORY/CHAPTER: do you remember me?

Right now, I hear your voice

saying "Come here to me."

Just when it seemed loneliness had beaten me.

Right now, I see you

walking over to me.

I close my eyes and wait for you to come.

Till yesterday, it seemed filled only with tears.

But now my heart is

* Do you remember? The time when our eyes first met?

Do you remember? The time when our hands first touched?

That was the very first time I set out on the journey of love.

I love you so.

Right now, I can feel your gaze

though you're not here with me.

And in my body a warmth begins to glow.

Right now, I believe in your love,

so won't you please

watch over me from so far away?

Till yesterday it seemed filled only with tears.

Now the world is...