AN: Ahahaha, now I couldn't leave the story just there, could I? Or else you guys would still be seething on the ground!!! Anyway, did I ever say this story was going to be Sess/kag? Ahahahahaha *scampers off*
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Kagome's eyes widened in shock as Sesshoumaru continued to deepen the kiss. Truthfully, she didn't know what to do, but she knew how she felt, and she also knew that Sesshoumaru was not going to like it. She felt partially guilty as the man in front of her closed his eyes and tried to embrace her. She didn't know why, but there was just something wrong in the way he held her, something not quite right in the way he kissed her…it was as if he were a mere thing of the past of which she had dwelt upon beforehand, but did not need now. Before the situation would get even more hectic, Kagome pressed her hands on Sesshoumaru's chest and drew him apart from her. Her solidatory eyes preyed upon him, hoping that he would not be too disappointed. She waited for a second, and slowly, a minute passed by. Tired of waiting for an answer, she finally spoke herself.
"Sorry, but, I just can't," were the only words she could splutter out of her mouth. She knew they were pretty indecent, for here she was, facing the man that had both saved her life and had metaphorically tried to ask for her hand in marriage. Kagome didn't dare to look into his eyes, they seemed as though they were burning through her own, trying to search for something different in her body language rather than what she had just said. Quite ironically, the only thing she got from Sesshoumaru was an ignorant 'huff.'
"No, I should be the one saying that," he said quietly, his hand roaming through his silver hair, "let's go back, I'll drive you home." Gently, Sesshoumaru pulled the 'parking' gear into driver's mode and was about to reverse the car, when Kagome made it for the door.
"I think I'll be walking home now," she said, trying to make it sound more polite than agitated.
"It's alright."
"And, umm, I don't think I should be keeping this either," Kagome added, handing over the black box to Sesshoumaru. She quickly walked away, not bearing to see whatever kind of expression would be plastered on the man's face.
"So I guess it's that way, huh?" Sesshoumaru grimaced, a hint of apprehension inside his tone. He lowered the car's window and threw the black box over to the left of the car where it landed near a garbage bin. "I guess some homeless guy's going to get lucky," he added, before shutting the window and driving away.
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Kagome did not know what was wrong with herself. A while back, she had still thought that Sesshoumaru was her 'one and only,' and that she would always vest in the belief that one day, she would be with him. And now her plans were screwed up. And she didn't even know why. There was that nagging presence in the back of her mind that wiredly screamed out a word or two that she couldn't make out. What was it talking about? Who was the nagging voice? Her conscience? Her inner-self? Her utmost destiny? She didn't know, but she felt right now, that it was the only that held the answer to her problem.
Kagome rubbed her hands in anticipation as the imaginative cold got to her. She passed by a couple of strangers, of which she bumped into and failed to apologize. She stood out in the middle of the crowd, with her back hunched over and her eyes deep in thought, she was the exact opposite of the prominent young business men and women walking to and fro.
She let her body go wherever it please, to the right, to the left, forwards, or backwards, her feet controlled her movements, and not her brain. Eventually, though, without her notice, she landed right in front of the place she dreaded to come to most; the hospital. Whatever lead her to here was cruel, evil, and ultimately, stupid; for some reason, she could not bear to see Inu-yasha again. There was something about his eyes that told her not to come to work anytime soon, but what she saw in him wasn't a speck of anger, yet of deceit and hurt. Kagome wondered as to why this was so, but her brain hurt from thinking too much and she decided to let go of the matter. Sighing, she walked inside the building and rushed towards patient 52's room.
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With a patient that had broken bones everywhere in his body, it was actually amazing that Inu-yasha could stand up, let alone pace hobbitly alongside the perimeter of the room while rubbing his chin. His hair swished from side to side as a growing mount of both annoyance and fear started to envelope him. He hadn't felt this way in a long time, sick the stomach and anxious to death. It was this mixture of emotions, that brought him to lash out in shock when Kagome came tumulting back into the room.
"Oh Inu-yasha! What are you doing?" she asked him, trying to get him back into his bed.
"I-I-I don't know! What am I doing? You tell me, huh?!" he cried out, his amber eyes searched drastically for some place to hide in the room while his voice shook.
"Well, from what I see, you're walking around the room with your IV unhooked again. Now let's get you back where you belong because I don't want to lose my job."
"That's all I am to you, right? Just a job? Your big cut? Right?!"
"Inu-yasha!"
"Tell me!"
Kagome could see Inu-yasha breathing heavily with his fist set in gear of anticipation. She knew he was stressed out, she could see that by just looking at him, and like the event with Sesshoumaru, she had no idea why.
"Inu-yasha, come on, obviously you're not feeling well, I can get you a couple of pills or something if you want them," Kagome said, trying to calm him down.
"I don't want any frigging pills! God! Just, just leave me alone, OK?"
Kagome scowled as Inu-yasha lashed out at her, she hated it when he did that, it always made her feel so inferior, but also, somehow angry.
"First of all, you have no right to say that to me and second of all--…"
Kagome was interrupted by two strong arms embracing her petite frame, her eyes widened when she realized what had happened. Inu-yasha was hugging her. Inu-yasha was hugging her. Now that was something different, something she did not expect in any situation. But, it was a good different, she liked the way he felt around her, it was like they fit for each other, his head rested on her own as she hooked her chin onto his shoulder.
"Please stay with me…" she heard Inu-yasha say, interrupting the silence between them.
"What do you mean?"
"Just-just…" Inu-yasha broke off the embrace and took a few startled steps back. His tremored breathing complimented the way he bit his lip when he was nervous. Slowly, he pointed towards the door and stooped his head down lowly.
"What, so you're asking me to leave now?"
"…"
"You know, there seriously is something wrong with you. I thought for a moment there that you were different than what I had expected you to be. But I guess that you were just doing that cause you wanted to hold someone so badly and I was just within your reach. It makes sense. Espescially for a guy that was dumped by his ex only to find out that she broke it off with him because of his long-time rival. It makes perfect, perfect sense. And I don't blame you either. You're also a sick bastard, you know that? Now have a nice day, and make sure to call the nurses if there's a problem," Kagome spat out cynically. If previously she had disliked Inu-yasha, now she despised him. What was he doing back then? Was he just toying with her? That was probably the answer, but too bad he didn't succeed in doing so. But what if she really was manipulated by his games? Then the situation would have gotten much worse than now; instead of her mocking him, he would probably be the one mocking her. When she heard no reply from Inu-yasha, she took it as a sign of confirmation of her thoughts, she gently opened the door and slammed it so that his sensitive ears would hurt from the banging noise it made. Kagome rolled her eyes and gritted her teeth, trying not to strangle every other person that came up to her…
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Inu-yasha stood near his bed and felt cold perspiration break out on his forehead, his heart beat in rapid, unsystematic beats as he opened his mouth to say something. He knew it was already probably to late for him to go apologize to Kagome, knowing her, she'd probably come back the next day and try to jab a huge needle in his throat or something. He laughed at the thought that he would rather have her do that to him instead of facing the reality that Kagome might never forgive him. Inu-yash flopped on his bed as he closed his eyes, he felt immensely guilty for sending Kagome out, but he never usually showed emotions like that to even his own family, let alone a girl he'd only known for a couple of days. He didn't like the fact that Kagome had such unknown power over him. Whenever he felt angry or sad, her face and words would pop right into his head. Whenever he wanted to hold someone, he envisioned holding her. But now that he'd ruined it all, he didn't know what action to undertake; it was simply, catastrophe.
Inu-yasha slowly rubbed his temples, his fingers undergoing the same routine over and over again, up and down, up and down, until the point where he could stand it no longer and decided to get up and do something. He tried turning on the TV for starters, but could only think about how good her hair smelled when he was holding her. Then he tried reading a book, but after a few attempts of trying to read a sentence, he realized the book was upside down. Finally, he tried playing a couple of games on the PlayStation but was caught off guard when he noticed how much the main character looked like Kagome. So after a few hours of jolting about and cursing himself, Inu-yasha finally gave up hope and plopped back on his couch.
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"Kagome, so how's the demon patient?" the head nurse asked her, petting the nurse's hat on her head.
"Argh, don't even ask!"
"Is it that bad?"
"Yes, even worse, actually, I can't tell you the full details or I'll make myself throw up."
"Inu-yasha's a full handful, isn't he?"
"Oh, and mention of his name also makes me want to throw up. Please, just call him 'it' for now."
"OK then, wow, you and it must really not hit it off well."
"You think! God, I just hate the way he acts so high and mighty!"
"Hah, I had him for two days in ICU and I nearly quit my job! Thank God they transferred me over here," interrupted a young nurse from behind Kagome.
"Ooh, that's really bad! I couldn't even stand him for one day!" said another girl.
"Bah, that's nothing, I had to take him into the sedate room for his operation and all he said to me was how 'unprofessional' I was."
"Oh! And don't forget me! He told me that his daddy was going to "fire" me, Goddamned daddy's boy doesn't know a thing about how hospitals work," cried out a small girl from across the room. Soon the room began debating about what extremeties Inu-yasha had put them through, and to Kagome's own surprise, she started to laugh along with them.
"Hey! I've got a story for you!" Kagome suddenly screamed, her arm waving in the air excitedly. "You know, just today, he was just asking me, 'am I just a job?'" Kagome imitated Inu-yasha in a high voice, she waited for the laughs to die down, "well, what do you all think? Well of course he's just a job! Damn! The only reason I've managed to stay alive is because I want to get promoted fast and good! I can't stand the damned bastard! What was he expecting me to say? 'No, you're not, I love you?' Hah, then he can think again! We all hate him, don't we?" Kagome lifted her fist into the air. An air of cheering blasted inside the nurses' office with a few people even clapping for Kagome.
"Now, now, calm down, or else poppa's little boy might get mad and 'fire' us all," kagome said, whispering the word 'fire' as if it were poison. The nurses got back to their daily jobs and continued on with their break, smiling and snickering a little at Kagome's point.
"You hate me that much, don't you?" Inu-yasha whispered from outside, his ear pressed on the door. A small tear trickled down his face as he cowered over towards the oblivion of his room.
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AN: *tries to dodge the rotten tomatoes* don't worry, next chapter is going to be up soon! Please review!
