A/n: Well, well, well. it's been three months guyz.I haven't updated this story much because of schoolwork and receiving NO REVIEWS. . . That's all I want for this chapter and I guess you could give me a nice review, ne? By the way, I want to thank ELOQUENT-LOTUS for.*sobs* giving me a very- inspirational review. You urged me to continue this stupid story. Thanks! Sana reviewhin mo pa rin ito kahit corny. Un lang naman ang nakakaencourage sakin. Enywayz, I know, you, guys, are still reading this even though you do not even care to leave me a nice review. But you could always e-mail me at kaymordeno@yahoo.com. So, on with the story!

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Chapter 5

Sorrow

@~~~~~

Ring! Ring! Ring!

"Moshi, moshi," Millerna greeted as she answered the phone. Her eyes were tired and different thoughts troubled her much at that moment- and it's because of Van. He was so weird and she just didn't understand him. 'What the damned hell happened to him?'

She held the phone tightly as she listened. Suddenly, tears welled up in her eyes as they widened in shock.

"Mr. Van Fanell had an accident. His car collided with a truck. Both vehicles were caught by fire. He had no burnt wounds but he had very deep and severe wounds. Ms. Millerna, he's in a very critical condition," the nurse spoke.

Tears rushed out from Millerna's eyes as she continued to listen to the nurse's voice. She wanted to hang up now. She just wanted to. She couldn't take anymore. 'This is just a dream. . .' She wanted to wake up and make herself realize that what the nurse was saying was just a mere joke- a lie, a perfect lie. "You're lying!" she cried. "He's not going to die. MY FIANCE' ISN'T GOING TO DIE, DO YOU UNDERSTAND?!" she shouted hysterically.

"But, Ms. Millerna, sadly, HE MIGHT DIE. This is the truth- and we are informing you of it. I know what you are feeling right now and I'm so sorry for what happened. But if he won't fight it.," the nurse stopped.

"W-what?" Millerna said.

"What?!!!"

"He'll surely die. I'm sorry but I have to go now. You just have to go to the hospital. Jan e," she said. The nurse hung up and the line was cut. Millerna put the phone down and was disappointed. She cried so hard and she didn't know what to do. Suddenly, she remembered something. She got the phone and dialed the numbers. "Hello? Hitomi. . .this is- Millerna," she said as she stopped herself from crying.

"Oh, Millerna. Why are you crying?" Hitomi asked on the other line.

"You. . .n-need to go w/ me to the hospital. V-van had an accident. . .and h-he's in critical condition- I don't know. . .w-what to do, Hitomi. P- please, help me." she began to cry again. Hitomi wasn't able to speak. She was shocked at what happened. She could only hear her own breath and Millerna's crying voice.

'She is in pain. Just like me. But this is too much for her.'

She just held the phone and didn't speak.

"Hitomi. . .please. Go," she asked again.

"OK. I'll meet you there," she replied. They hung up on each other and went away.

@~~~~~

They soon arrived at the hospital and went immediately to the E.R.

"Nurse, how's the patient?" Hitomi asked.

The nurse shook her head. "He's not recovering and his condition is getting worse," she said.

"But you need to save him!!!" Millerna suddenly shouted as she cried. "He's my fiancé. Can't you understand?! I can't live without him."

Hitomi and the nurse got shocked. Tears flowed out of her eyes as she looked at them desperately. "I'm very sorry, Millerna. But if he won't fight it, he'll eventually die. We're trying our very best to save someone here...but if he doesn't want to live anymore- he'll give up that easily," the nurse explained. Then she went inside when the doctor called her.

Millerna wailed as she embraced Hitomi- her friend. They sat on a bench. She laid her head on her chest and cried painfully.

"He's going to be fine, Millerna. He wouldn't want to leave you," Hitomi comforted her. But she just cried harder.

"He is not going to make it. . ." she said.

@~~~~~

I face against my death

Holding my head up

And eyeing him

I fight him with my courage

With all my strength

I don't care the pain it caused me

I need to live

Not to die

Not to give up

If I die,

I won't see my loved one's again

Especially. . .

Hitomi. . .

That I can't take

I've lost mother

I can't lose Hitomi now

Just because I'm going to die

I want live

Help me

I want to win against death. . .

@~~~~~

"Doctor, he's not responding."

"Try again. We need to save him."

"Okay, charging. . ."

"250. . .300. . .350. . , NOW!"

"Okay, his heartbeat is- Damn no! Not again.Try it, repeat it!"

"Charging. . .250. . .300. . .350. . .400.., now!"

"Heartbeat slowed more, breathing is abnormal. . .Doctor, he's not really responding."

"If he doesn't make it for the last two attempts, after four minutes, he'll die. . ."

"Okay, repeat it. 250. . .300. . .350. . .400.., now!"

"Heartbeat slowed more, he's catching his breath. Condition is fatal."

Silence.

The nurses and the doctors looked at their patient and almost lost hope. They had made five attempts, but he didn't respond.

"Looks like we're going to lose a patient now."

"I'm sorry. . .now, let's do it for the last time."

"Charging. . .250. . .300. . .350. . .400. . .450. . , now!"

"Stay it on longer!"

"Stop. . .wait. . ."

The doctors and nurses looked at his condition. He was regaining his heartbeat.

"Condition is climbing up to normal level. Heartbeat regaining. Breathing is fine."

After some moments. . .

"We made it, people! We saved him."

The medics soon smiled. They all congratulated each other.

"I thought, we'll lose him. But then, God has been kind to us once again."

@~~~~~

Her tears rolled down on her cheeks as she mourned beside her. She kept on worrying about him- about his condition. Two days have passed yet there wasn't any news about him. It hurt her so much and all she could do was cry beside Hitomi. Though it never really made her feel better, she kept on doing it.

"He'll be fine, Millerna. Trust me. . ." Hitomi would always tell her. But it would just make her worry more. Everything was so hard for her and nothing would make things easy unless, he was saved from his worsening condition.

"Hitomi. . ."

Hitomi looked down on her and saw her tear-stricken red eyes. She could barely make out her feelings just by looking at her face.

"Nani?"

She sighed then sat up straight.

"I'm tired-"

Millerna stood up then wiped her tears.

"I'm exhausted. I have no more tears to shed for Van. This is enough. . ."

Hitomi was stupefied at what she has just said. She tried to stare at her but she could see nothing but a vast void and nothing beyond that.

"W-what're you saying?"

She exhaled. Her chest hurt as the air rushed out from her mouth and nose.

"I can't keep on mourning for him . . . I've had enough. I know he won't-"
"Ms. Millerna, he made it!" a nurse exclaimed happily as she came out of the room. They all looked at her.

"Ms. Millerna," she told held her arms. "We saved him."

Tears burst from her eyes as she heard the nurse's words. 'I thought. . .I thought- Van will d-die! Oh, my God! Thank y-you. . .' she thought happily. She embraced Hitomi as she cried. "Hitomi, he's a-alive!" she shouted as she hugged her. Hitomi embraced her too as she smiled sadly.

'I'm glad. Now, you're complete again. But for me, my world has stopped moving since I broke up with Allen. My dreams crushed and I feel lifeless right at this moment.'

@~~~~~

"I heard that Van Venera had an ccident and right now, Hitomi is in the hospital with Ms. Millerna," Ucari spoke as she looked at Allen coldly. She was angry with him though she had to be kind to him since he was her boss. Hitomi had told her all the events and the things that caused their relationship to be destroyed. And that made her temper to rise higher.

"Yeah. But I don't care. He's nobody. Just a waiter and an accidental roommate of my ex- " he replied abruptly with that tone in his low voice.

"But he's a kind man and a good friend of YOUR EX-" Ucari sarcastically said as she continued scanning the files she's holding.

"Still, I don't care whether he's a stupid waiter in a cheap restaurant or a half-angel moron friend of my EXGIRLFRIEND," he exclaimed. His tone of voice rose with such anger and insult. But it was hurt that made his voice cold and sad.

Finally, Ucari stood and confronted him. "Why are you so selfish?! The man is innocent and his life is in danger. Don't you even care?!" she cried.

He didn't reply.

Suddenly. . .

"Why would I care? Do I know him? Besides, he's not even my friend. And maybe, we don't know, he'll be the future boyfriend of Hitomi. So why would I pity a man that will steal the heart of my woman?!" he cried angrily.

Surprisingly, Ucari's hand landed on his cheek and slapped him hard right there. "Hitomi's not your woman anymore. And I don't care if Van will be her next boyfriend. But at least I know that she is in GOOD HANDS- a man with a faithful heart. And I'm afraid you're not like that!" She grabbed her bag and threw the files onto him. She then walked out of the door angrily and slammed the door on his face.

Allen cupped his face then cursed himself under his breath.

@~~~~~

She held his hand and whispered sweet words to his ear. Tears fell slowly on her cheeks as she looked at him.

"I love you, Van. . .and I'm happy that you're back," she spoke.

The door opened and Hitomi came in. she went to her. "You rest first, Millerna. I'll just look after Van," she said. Millerna nodded her head then stood up. She went outside and left them there.

Hitomi sat on the chair beside the bed. She looked at Van's face and noticed its pale color.

"Van. . .wake up," she said softly. She held his hand and brushed his bangs away from his tightly closed eyes. "Millerna is so worried for you. And she'll be glad if you'll wake up and just look at her, won't she?" she spoke. Suddenly, his fingers moved. She felt it against her skin and saw the movement of his eyes.

"Van?" she called. She held his face then brushed her fingers on his cheeks.

Soon he opened his eyes and looked at the woman in front of him. His heart skipped a beat and his lips curved into a smile.

"Hi. . .to- mi," he said happily. She was surprised to see him awake. She smiled then held his cheek.

"Van, I'm glad you're awake," she said.

He cheerfully smiled as he looked at her. "I- I. . .w-was dreaming of you- earlier. I dreamt that I. . .I was going to lose you then. . .I just heard your voice," he told her. She smiled as she held his face.

"I'll call Millerna," she said as she stood up but suddenly, Van grabbed her hand and pulled her down.

She was shocked.

"D-don't. . ." he whispered.

"Van?"

"No, don't call her," he said. She slowly removed his hand on hers and she looked at him sadly.

"Don't hurt her, Van. I beg you. She loves you very much. It's a mistake to let her go," she spoke.

He closed his eyes tightly as he breathed in deeply.

"But you know I tried. . .and I can't- In fact, she is not loving me. She is loving her dead fiancé," he explained sadly.

Hitomi held his hand then smiled before him. She touched his cheek and sighed.

"Well then, let her love you."

Van opened his eyes and gazed into her deep brown eyes.

"Let me love you, too, Hitomi. . ."

@~~~~~

My heart suffering from pain

It is wounded fatally from a past

Love that I thought won't end

And now I'm hurting

But then you came

Yet someone is loving you-

I'm so confused

I just can't think of what'll I do

If I'll love you,

She'll be hurt and pained

And I know how it feels to be pained

And I know how it feels to be wounded

But if I won't love you

I know in my heart that I'll regret it forever. . .

@~~~~~

"Ohayou gozaimasu, Hitomi!" Millerna greeted happily. She hopped towards her with that certain sparkle in her eyes. But as she reached her, she quickly noticed her sadness in her brown eyes. She wondered why as she looked at her troubled face.

"Hitomi? Are you alright?" she asked as she knelt down infront of her. Hitomi looked at her slowly then cupped her face with both hands.

"V-van's awake, Millerna."

"I know- I visited him earlier. He was fine."

"Why did you leave him there?"

"He said he wanted to rest. Well, why do you ask?"

She removed her hands from her face and stared at her. "It's just that- I'm concerned."

Millerna didn't understand her. She just stood and went to the door. "I'll go now, Hitomi. You need to rest for a while," she spoke. She opened the door then left.

@~~~~~

He fell in a deep trance. His eyes were closed and his imagination floated in his dreams. Though they weren't even true, he felt alive in that world and so happy.

A garden was there and a road was in the middle. At the end of the path was a light that streaked out and spread everywhere. He stood in front of everything and watched the serenity floating in the air. He took a step forward and as soon as his foot touched the ground, images appeared beside him.

TBC...

A/n: Please review, everyone! And thanks a lot for appreciating this stupid story of mine. Hope you'll like it! ^__^