Disclaimer: (the first one of the whole fic, I might add.) Do I own Gundam
Wing? I don't think so.
......Chp 7......
The first thing she felt was the jolt of fear. Then the confusion. The responses were like flashes of lighting in her brain speeding along so fast she could barely decipher them before they were gone.
Then she felt cool metal in her hand. She looked down, the white haze clearing from her eyes. Heero had placed the butt of the gun in her hand and had brought the point up to his chest. She looked at him, the confusion winning out against all else.
"Why?" she asked vaguely, feeling overwhelmed with her emotional roller coaster.
In return Heero asked his own question.
"Do you care for him?" he asked, his voice and eyes hard.
"Who are you talking about?" Relena said shaking her head. She had the feeling that she had missed something important, something that was vital in understanding his actions.
"That man...Conner. Do you care for him?"
Suddenly it all clicked in her mind. Heero must have seen the tabloid. She looked hard at his eyes and sure enough, just beyond the curtain of coldness, was a hint of emotion.
"Yes I do...." Relena began. She couldn't be sure but for an instant it seemed to her that Heero had flinched.
"I see." He said interrupting her. He closed his eyes briefly. Relena was fascinated. "Then I want you to pull the trigger."
Relena looked at him. He was crazy! Even if she had been head over heels for Conner she still wouldn't have pulled the trigger. She let the gun fall to the floor. The metallic clunk resounded throughout the room.
Heero stared at the gun on the floor. Relena placed her hands on his shoulders, causing his gaze to return to her.
" I can't do that Heero." She said, "It is true that I care for Conner. But the way I care for Conner is different from the way I care for you."
"The way you care for me?" Heero echoed dumbly. "And what is the way you care for me, Relena?"
Relena felt a soft smile play on her lips. She shook her head slightly, eyes wandering up to the mural on her ceiling before returning to the dark blue orbs that seemed to unlock the secret emotions of the enigma in front of her.
"You ask me a question that I have asked myself many times before. I don't know the answer. Even I cannot comprehend the depths of my emotions concerning you."
Heero's heart lurched his chest and then sped up. A giddy feeling sped through his veins at Relena's words. 'Why am I so relieved?' he wondered.
The realization hit him. Because in someway or another he wanted her to reciprocate similar feelings. Similar to the feeling that he had for her. And that meant that what she said was true of him as well. He couldn't begin to comprehend the depths of his emotions for her.
This should have alarmed him. This should have sent him running to the hills in a mad panic, screaming that the sky was falling. But it didn't. Because he had changed.
An aspect of him he had distanced himself from out of necessity had returned, and in it's wake, emotions, pure and beautiful and filling. Heero Yuy had finally come to reclaim his humanity.
Relena watched his defenses fall one by one. First his eyes. You could always see it coming in his eyes. The curtain dropped. She felt his stiff posture relax. The tension in his shoulders eased under her hands. His facial expression mirrored that of discovery and relief. It seemed to her that a burden had been lifted from him.
"Why did you want me to pull the trigger Heero?" The question had not been meant to pass her lips but it ended up doing so. It seemed to startle him out of his inner trance.
"I'm not completely sure. But I know that if you had loved him, I would rather have had a swift death, than a slow one."
"What are you trying to say?" Relena asked. Of course, she knew what he was trying to say, but was she right?
He just gave her this smile.
"You have very pretty eyes, do you know that? They get all sparkly when you cry. That was the first thing I noticed about you."
Relena felt something move deep inside her. Her eyes started to fill with tears. It was as if with his comment, everything was made right. She hugged him, much to his surprise.
"Good answer." She whispered in his ear. She couldn't see it but he smiled before putting his arms around her.
"Wait for me. I just need some time. To understand this." He whispered in the dark, to her.
"Of course. I will always wait for you. Only for you." She whispered back.
A cloud passed over the moon. The room was plunged into darkness. She felt him pull away. Suddenly his lips were on hers, only for an instant, lingering as if he wanted to stay. It was like bottled lightening. Just as soon as it had started, it ended.
The cloud passed over, freeing the light of the moon to stream into the window once again. Relena sighed. He was gone. Slowly a content smile worked it's way over her face. But this time, she knew he would return.
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AN: Nope this is not the last chapter. I still have quite a few to go, actually. I know Heero is slightly…well heck he IS OOC throughout this whole thing but the idea I'm really trying to convey is that he's loosening up and allowing himself to feel again. Don't get me wrong, no one's complained about it, in fact I've been getting some very positive feedback about this fic, but I just thought I didn't really make my intent very clear. Ok that's it!
......Chp 7......
The first thing she felt was the jolt of fear. Then the confusion. The responses were like flashes of lighting in her brain speeding along so fast she could barely decipher them before they were gone.
Then she felt cool metal in her hand. She looked down, the white haze clearing from her eyes. Heero had placed the butt of the gun in her hand and had brought the point up to his chest. She looked at him, the confusion winning out against all else.
"Why?" she asked vaguely, feeling overwhelmed with her emotional roller coaster.
In return Heero asked his own question.
"Do you care for him?" he asked, his voice and eyes hard.
"Who are you talking about?" Relena said shaking her head. She had the feeling that she had missed something important, something that was vital in understanding his actions.
"That man...Conner. Do you care for him?"
Suddenly it all clicked in her mind. Heero must have seen the tabloid. She looked hard at his eyes and sure enough, just beyond the curtain of coldness, was a hint of emotion.
"Yes I do...." Relena began. She couldn't be sure but for an instant it seemed to her that Heero had flinched.
"I see." He said interrupting her. He closed his eyes briefly. Relena was fascinated. "Then I want you to pull the trigger."
Relena looked at him. He was crazy! Even if she had been head over heels for Conner she still wouldn't have pulled the trigger. She let the gun fall to the floor. The metallic clunk resounded throughout the room.
Heero stared at the gun on the floor. Relena placed her hands on his shoulders, causing his gaze to return to her.
" I can't do that Heero." She said, "It is true that I care for Conner. But the way I care for Conner is different from the way I care for you."
"The way you care for me?" Heero echoed dumbly. "And what is the way you care for me, Relena?"
Relena felt a soft smile play on her lips. She shook her head slightly, eyes wandering up to the mural on her ceiling before returning to the dark blue orbs that seemed to unlock the secret emotions of the enigma in front of her.
"You ask me a question that I have asked myself many times before. I don't know the answer. Even I cannot comprehend the depths of my emotions concerning you."
Heero's heart lurched his chest and then sped up. A giddy feeling sped through his veins at Relena's words. 'Why am I so relieved?' he wondered.
The realization hit him. Because in someway or another he wanted her to reciprocate similar feelings. Similar to the feeling that he had for her. And that meant that what she said was true of him as well. He couldn't begin to comprehend the depths of his emotions for her.
This should have alarmed him. This should have sent him running to the hills in a mad panic, screaming that the sky was falling. But it didn't. Because he had changed.
An aspect of him he had distanced himself from out of necessity had returned, and in it's wake, emotions, pure and beautiful and filling. Heero Yuy had finally come to reclaim his humanity.
Relena watched his defenses fall one by one. First his eyes. You could always see it coming in his eyes. The curtain dropped. She felt his stiff posture relax. The tension in his shoulders eased under her hands. His facial expression mirrored that of discovery and relief. It seemed to her that a burden had been lifted from him.
"Why did you want me to pull the trigger Heero?" The question had not been meant to pass her lips but it ended up doing so. It seemed to startle him out of his inner trance.
"I'm not completely sure. But I know that if you had loved him, I would rather have had a swift death, than a slow one."
"What are you trying to say?" Relena asked. Of course, she knew what he was trying to say, but was she right?
He just gave her this smile.
"You have very pretty eyes, do you know that? They get all sparkly when you cry. That was the first thing I noticed about you."
Relena felt something move deep inside her. Her eyes started to fill with tears. It was as if with his comment, everything was made right. She hugged him, much to his surprise.
"Good answer." She whispered in his ear. She couldn't see it but he smiled before putting his arms around her.
"Wait for me. I just need some time. To understand this." He whispered in the dark, to her.
"Of course. I will always wait for you. Only for you." She whispered back.
A cloud passed over the moon. The room was plunged into darkness. She felt him pull away. Suddenly his lips were on hers, only for an instant, lingering as if he wanted to stay. It was like bottled lightening. Just as soon as it had started, it ended.
The cloud passed over, freeing the light of the moon to stream into the window once again. Relena sighed. He was gone. Slowly a content smile worked it's way over her face. But this time, she knew he would return.
************
AN: Nope this is not the last chapter. I still have quite a few to go, actually. I know Heero is slightly…well heck he IS OOC throughout this whole thing but the idea I'm really trying to convey is that he's loosening up and allowing himself to feel again. Don't get me wrong, no one's complained about it, in fact I've been getting some very positive feedback about this fic, but I just thought I didn't really make my intent very clear. Ok that's it!
