I don't own the sexy bishos of Saiyuki.
This is basically a fic about Goku having desires to be a human, and to lead a normal life. And the consequences that would come of it. Ahhhh! Don stop reading yet! O_O!
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Sudden Desire
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"Stupid Monkey!"
"We hate you! Get out of here!"
A group of boys were in pursuit of a young youkai wearing a golden tiara on his head. The small child ran away from the larger children, bearing rocks and sticks. He rounded a turn and found a large tree for him to climb in. He latched himself to the trunk and pulled himself to a high branch where he curled up against the splintery wood. He held his knees to his chest and held back tears of anger. The boys ran under the tree and saw the youkai taking shelter in the tree.
"We knew we'd find the monkey hiding in a tree!" They teased him and threw rocks at him, some not reaching him at all, and some scratching his face. He could easily beat them up, but he was lectured that he would be in big trouble if he messed with the human children. He pulled himself tighter into his ball and hoped they'd go away soon. Instead, the children started shaking the tree fiercely, causing him to lose balance and crash down from his safe haven. He looked up at the group of boys, blood trickling from his lip because of fall, as they began to surround him. They sneered at him and patted their sticks in their hands.
"Look guys, monsters feel pain after all!" One said.
"I don't know boys." Snickered Another, "I don't think he's suffered enough. He DID eat a week's supply of food in one day, so it's only fair we make him pay for it right?"
The boys all looked at each other, then at the small boy bearing devious grins at him. The boy pulled himself up and started to back away from them, but they started bringing their wooden sticks down on him, ignoring his pleas. The boys didn't stop, enjoying the sight of the youkai bleeding and crying out in pain. They didn't stop until they heard foot steps approaching when they all ran. The youkai pulled himself to his feet and slumped away, a small trail of blood following him.
He didn't stop walking, ignoring the looks on everyone's faces, the comments they made behind his back.
"Looks like the little monster got into a fight again."
"What can you expect? I can't believe we have to look after him"
"You'd never see one of our boys looking like trash. It's quite pitiful, isn't it?"
He finally reached the shrine where his guardian was, opening the door with a quivering hand. A teenaged, blonde monk looked up at the bloodied figure in his doorway, his expression indifferent. "Saru?"
The boy looked at him, his gaze looking half dead as he only muttered, "Sanzo.I.didn't.cry." At this point he allowed himself to fall to the carpeted floor, his crimson blood smearing into the upholstery.
Sanzo pushed away from his desk where he'd been doing paper work and walked over to the small boy. He nudged him with his foot to make sure he was still alive. The little 'saru' gasped out as a sign he wasn't dead. "Oi, you're getting my carpet dirty."
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Goku shot up in the middle of the night, sweat dripping down his forehead as he started feeling for blood on his face. Realizing he was only dreaming, he sighed and plopped back down on the bed. He stared at the ceiling fan, swirling above him. It wobbled slightly, he had noted. He even pointed it out to Sanzo.
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"Ne, Sanzo, that doesn't look very safe to sleep under."
"That's why you're sleeping in this room, baka saru."
"Ehhhhhh?! I don't want to be smashed by a fan!"
"Not my fault." Sanzo lit a cigarette and that ended the conversation.
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Goku thought about the conversation, then his dream. "Sanzo.doesn't seem to care about me much." He bit his lips and uttered words he thought he'd never say. "Would he like me more if I wasn't a youkai." Goku shook his head quickly. "No way. Sanzo isn't like that." He pulled raggedy covers over his small frame and tried to go to sleep, willing his mind to stop thinking about the question.
What if I was normal.?
What if I was a human.?
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Dawn came too soon for the young boy as Gojyo tried to drag his body from under his covers. "Get up, you stupid monkey" The red hair man demanded as Goku just rolled over, muttering about food as usual. Gojyo grabbed the earth child by the collar of his pajamas and pulled him to the side of the bed, dropping him to the hard wood floor. Goku shot up from the ground and immediately started screaming at him.
"What was that for ya perverted kappa!?"
"Just shut up and get ready. Lazy ass, saru. We were all packed to leave hours ago."
Goku glared at Gojyo with his golden eyes as he sighed and grabbed his usual garb, throwing it on quickly. He gathered his things, pretty much all he had was some food and his Nyoi Bo. Goku rushed outside the inn where the other already stood, waiting for him. Sanzo was finishing one of his cigarettes as he pulled it from his lips and tossed it to the ground. Hakkai and Gojyo had already jumped in the jeep, taking their usual places. Goku hopped in the back of the vehicle and laid back against the side. The previous day they had gotten into a fight with a band of rouge youkai that was causing terror among the village. It wasn't hard to defeat them, but the Sanzo party was tired and hungry from traveling.
The villagers weren't much help. After seeing the kind of power the men had, they were afraid to come near them. As the party got into their jeep, the commoners started heading inside their homes in fear. Children were pulled off the street by scared mothers. Even the animals seemed scared of them. Goku slightly noticed but shrugged it off. It wasn't until he heard a conversation between a young boy and his father that he felt a twinge of pain in his chest.
"Daddy? Why can't I play with Lily today?"
"You can go see her after the monsters leave."
Goku was ready to retort but Gojyo just pulled on his orange cape, shaking his head. Goku looked down at the floor of the jeep and sighed to himself. "Why can't they understand?"
"What's wrong with you Saru?"
"I was just thinkin'."
"That's rare for a little monkey like you." Gojyo taunted.
"Ha ha." and that was the end of the conversation to the Halfling's surprise.
The car lurched forward and they headed west. Goku was quieter than usual, Sanzo noticed this because he and the older youkai weren't causing head ache inducing quarrels. He was almost worried, but brushed it off. He'll start complaining for food any minute now, the monk thought. About an hour passed as the group drove into a thick forest.
"The next town is about 5 miles away," Hakkai announced in his cheery tone. "We just need to get through this forest-"
"Which you won't."
A voice was heard from the tree tops as the four men looked around. "Who the hell?" questioned Sanzo. "I don't want to deal with another moronic youkai." Goku looked up at hearing Sanzo say the word "Youkai" and felt very small. An annoying laughed filled their ears as several average youkai came out from the shadows of the tree tops.
"Hello Sanzo party. We were sent by Homura Sama to steal the sutra from you." One of them said with a toothy smirk.
Gojyo grinned at the average looking youkai. "I was starting to get bored." He stated as he pulled out his weapon (I forgot the name). Gojyo sliced away at the tree the demon was in and it crashed to the ground, but he had already escaped to another tree.
"Too slow!" they taunted the red haired half demon and threw a few smoke bombs at the group, causing them to scatter. They struggled to see through the fog but couldn't see anything. The jeep reverted into its dragon form, Hakaryuu, and perched on Hakkai's shoulder trilling softly.
"I know, Hakaryuu, I can't see anything either.we'll just have to be really careful wont we?"
"Kyu?"
"Gojyo? Goku? Sanzo?" Hakkai tried to search for his friends as smoke bombs kept blowing up around him.
Goku and Gojyo had both run after separate youkai while Sanzo was evading explosions. Goku caught up with one of them, and summoned his Nyoi Bo. He extended it out far so that the youkai would get tripped up while jumping from tree to tree. Goku's plan succeeded as the monster tumbled in front of him. The young boy grinned childishly and poked his Bo stick at the youkai's face.
"Not very smart to mess with us!"
The youkai looked horrified and shielded himself on the ground. "Please don't hurt me!" He begged. Goku pulled away his Bo stick, getting a slight flash back of the dream he had and stepped back feeling ashamed for a moment. He shook his head quickly and pointed the Nyoi Bo accusingly.
"You guys planned on killing us! Why should I?"
"We're no different from you! You're a youkai like us right?! I can sense it!"
Goku gritted his teeth. "I'M NOTHING LIKE YOU!" he yelled, driving his weapon through the monster's chest. The monster cried out before disintegrating into the earth, leaving behind an unused smoke bomb. Goku picked up the bomb looking at it curiously when suddenly he heard a familiar voice.
"Fucking youkai."
The next thing he heard was the sound of a trigger clicking, and a gun being fired. All he could see was blackness.
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He didn't know how. He didn't know when. But the next thing Goku was doing was running. His mind was racing a mile a minute. Was Sanzo trying to kill me? .NO! That's not something Sanzo would do.is it? He could feel a slight pain in his cheek where the bullet grazed him. He could feel his eyes burning with tears, thinking that Sanzo had betrayed him. He kept running no where in particular, he just needed to get as far away as he could. The words Sanzo said rang in his ears.
'Fucking youkai..'
He kept running until he reached a lake. He plopped down on hands and knees staring at his breathless form in the clear water. He examined himself, he looked like a human, he acted human, but why was he treated so badly? Goku dug his fingers into the ground as a tear rolled off his cheek and into the water.
"If I could have one wish.I'd wish I was human like everyone else."
A bright light shone above him followed by the sound of a deep woman's voice. "Son Goku, is that what you really want?"
Goku stood to his feet and looked up quickly, seeing a woman float down from the heavens, none other than the goddess of mercy, Kanseon Bosatsu. He took a step back. "It's you." he said rather flatly.
Kanseon winked at the small boy. "Sou, I've come to ask you a question, Son." She stood on the water and faced Goku, smirking lightly. "I heard your cry from heaven. Is that what you really want?"
Goku looked befuddled. "What are you talking about?"
"Do you want to be a weak, ordinary human, Son Goku?"
Goku couldn't believe she was asking him this. "Can.you do that?"
Kanseon made a shrilled laugh. "I am the goddess of mercy, I can do anything!" Goku looked at the ground as she walked forward to him, her feet still floating above the surface. She held his chin and made eye contact with him. "Son Goku, I am asking you one more time. Do you want to be human?"
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Yeah, sort of a cliff hanger. But I think you know what he'll say. I felt like trying something different, I saw a lot of 'Goku looses Memory fics' and decided that I wanted to be original. Oh yeah, there's not gonna be much yaoi (sorry fans!) Hopefully I'll actually FINISH this fic.it's only gonna have one more chapter maybe.
This is basically a fic about Goku having desires to be a human, and to lead a normal life. And the consequences that would come of it. Ahhhh! Don stop reading yet! O_O!
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Sudden Desire
* * * * * *
"Stupid Monkey!"
"We hate you! Get out of here!"
A group of boys were in pursuit of a young youkai wearing a golden tiara on his head. The small child ran away from the larger children, bearing rocks and sticks. He rounded a turn and found a large tree for him to climb in. He latched himself to the trunk and pulled himself to a high branch where he curled up against the splintery wood. He held his knees to his chest and held back tears of anger. The boys ran under the tree and saw the youkai taking shelter in the tree.
"We knew we'd find the monkey hiding in a tree!" They teased him and threw rocks at him, some not reaching him at all, and some scratching his face. He could easily beat them up, but he was lectured that he would be in big trouble if he messed with the human children. He pulled himself tighter into his ball and hoped they'd go away soon. Instead, the children started shaking the tree fiercely, causing him to lose balance and crash down from his safe haven. He looked up at the group of boys, blood trickling from his lip because of fall, as they began to surround him. They sneered at him and patted their sticks in their hands.
"Look guys, monsters feel pain after all!" One said.
"I don't know boys." Snickered Another, "I don't think he's suffered enough. He DID eat a week's supply of food in one day, so it's only fair we make him pay for it right?"
The boys all looked at each other, then at the small boy bearing devious grins at him. The boy pulled himself up and started to back away from them, but they started bringing their wooden sticks down on him, ignoring his pleas. The boys didn't stop, enjoying the sight of the youkai bleeding and crying out in pain. They didn't stop until they heard foot steps approaching when they all ran. The youkai pulled himself to his feet and slumped away, a small trail of blood following him.
He didn't stop walking, ignoring the looks on everyone's faces, the comments they made behind his back.
"Looks like the little monster got into a fight again."
"What can you expect? I can't believe we have to look after him"
"You'd never see one of our boys looking like trash. It's quite pitiful, isn't it?"
He finally reached the shrine where his guardian was, opening the door with a quivering hand. A teenaged, blonde monk looked up at the bloodied figure in his doorway, his expression indifferent. "Saru?"
The boy looked at him, his gaze looking half dead as he only muttered, "Sanzo.I.didn't.cry." At this point he allowed himself to fall to the carpeted floor, his crimson blood smearing into the upholstery.
Sanzo pushed away from his desk where he'd been doing paper work and walked over to the small boy. He nudged him with his foot to make sure he was still alive. The little 'saru' gasped out as a sign he wasn't dead. "Oi, you're getting my carpet dirty."
* * * * * * *
Goku shot up in the middle of the night, sweat dripping down his forehead as he started feeling for blood on his face. Realizing he was only dreaming, he sighed and plopped back down on the bed. He stared at the ceiling fan, swirling above him. It wobbled slightly, he had noted. He even pointed it out to Sanzo.
- -
"Ne, Sanzo, that doesn't look very safe to sleep under."
"That's why you're sleeping in this room, baka saru."
"Ehhhhhh?! I don't want to be smashed by a fan!"
"Not my fault." Sanzo lit a cigarette and that ended the conversation.
_ -
Goku thought about the conversation, then his dream. "Sanzo.doesn't seem to care about me much." He bit his lips and uttered words he thought he'd never say. "Would he like me more if I wasn't a youkai." Goku shook his head quickly. "No way. Sanzo isn't like that." He pulled raggedy covers over his small frame and tried to go to sleep, willing his mind to stop thinking about the question.
What if I was normal.?
What if I was a human.?
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Dawn came too soon for the young boy as Gojyo tried to drag his body from under his covers. "Get up, you stupid monkey" The red hair man demanded as Goku just rolled over, muttering about food as usual. Gojyo grabbed the earth child by the collar of his pajamas and pulled him to the side of the bed, dropping him to the hard wood floor. Goku shot up from the ground and immediately started screaming at him.
"What was that for ya perverted kappa!?"
"Just shut up and get ready. Lazy ass, saru. We were all packed to leave hours ago."
Goku glared at Gojyo with his golden eyes as he sighed and grabbed his usual garb, throwing it on quickly. He gathered his things, pretty much all he had was some food and his Nyoi Bo. Goku rushed outside the inn where the other already stood, waiting for him. Sanzo was finishing one of his cigarettes as he pulled it from his lips and tossed it to the ground. Hakkai and Gojyo had already jumped in the jeep, taking their usual places. Goku hopped in the back of the vehicle and laid back against the side. The previous day they had gotten into a fight with a band of rouge youkai that was causing terror among the village. It wasn't hard to defeat them, but the Sanzo party was tired and hungry from traveling.
The villagers weren't much help. After seeing the kind of power the men had, they were afraid to come near them. As the party got into their jeep, the commoners started heading inside their homes in fear. Children were pulled off the street by scared mothers. Even the animals seemed scared of them. Goku slightly noticed but shrugged it off. It wasn't until he heard a conversation between a young boy and his father that he felt a twinge of pain in his chest.
"Daddy? Why can't I play with Lily today?"
"You can go see her after the monsters leave."
Goku was ready to retort but Gojyo just pulled on his orange cape, shaking his head. Goku looked down at the floor of the jeep and sighed to himself. "Why can't they understand?"
"What's wrong with you Saru?"
"I was just thinkin'."
"That's rare for a little monkey like you." Gojyo taunted.
"Ha ha." and that was the end of the conversation to the Halfling's surprise.
The car lurched forward and they headed west. Goku was quieter than usual, Sanzo noticed this because he and the older youkai weren't causing head ache inducing quarrels. He was almost worried, but brushed it off. He'll start complaining for food any minute now, the monk thought. About an hour passed as the group drove into a thick forest.
"The next town is about 5 miles away," Hakkai announced in his cheery tone. "We just need to get through this forest-"
"Which you won't."
A voice was heard from the tree tops as the four men looked around. "Who the hell?" questioned Sanzo. "I don't want to deal with another moronic youkai." Goku looked up at hearing Sanzo say the word "Youkai" and felt very small. An annoying laughed filled their ears as several average youkai came out from the shadows of the tree tops.
"Hello Sanzo party. We were sent by Homura Sama to steal the sutra from you." One of them said with a toothy smirk.
Gojyo grinned at the average looking youkai. "I was starting to get bored." He stated as he pulled out his weapon (I forgot the name). Gojyo sliced away at the tree the demon was in and it crashed to the ground, but he had already escaped to another tree.
"Too slow!" they taunted the red haired half demon and threw a few smoke bombs at the group, causing them to scatter. They struggled to see through the fog but couldn't see anything. The jeep reverted into its dragon form, Hakaryuu, and perched on Hakkai's shoulder trilling softly.
"I know, Hakaryuu, I can't see anything either.we'll just have to be really careful wont we?"
"Kyu?"
"Gojyo? Goku? Sanzo?" Hakkai tried to search for his friends as smoke bombs kept blowing up around him.
Goku and Gojyo had both run after separate youkai while Sanzo was evading explosions. Goku caught up with one of them, and summoned his Nyoi Bo. He extended it out far so that the youkai would get tripped up while jumping from tree to tree. Goku's plan succeeded as the monster tumbled in front of him. The young boy grinned childishly and poked his Bo stick at the youkai's face.
"Not very smart to mess with us!"
The youkai looked horrified and shielded himself on the ground. "Please don't hurt me!" He begged. Goku pulled away his Bo stick, getting a slight flash back of the dream he had and stepped back feeling ashamed for a moment. He shook his head quickly and pointed the Nyoi Bo accusingly.
"You guys planned on killing us! Why should I?"
"We're no different from you! You're a youkai like us right?! I can sense it!"
Goku gritted his teeth. "I'M NOTHING LIKE YOU!" he yelled, driving his weapon through the monster's chest. The monster cried out before disintegrating into the earth, leaving behind an unused smoke bomb. Goku picked up the bomb looking at it curiously when suddenly he heard a familiar voice.
"Fucking youkai."
The next thing he heard was the sound of a trigger clicking, and a gun being fired. All he could see was blackness.
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He didn't know how. He didn't know when. But the next thing Goku was doing was running. His mind was racing a mile a minute. Was Sanzo trying to kill me? .NO! That's not something Sanzo would do.is it? He could feel a slight pain in his cheek where the bullet grazed him. He could feel his eyes burning with tears, thinking that Sanzo had betrayed him. He kept running no where in particular, he just needed to get as far away as he could. The words Sanzo said rang in his ears.
'Fucking youkai..'
He kept running until he reached a lake. He plopped down on hands and knees staring at his breathless form in the clear water. He examined himself, he looked like a human, he acted human, but why was he treated so badly? Goku dug his fingers into the ground as a tear rolled off his cheek and into the water.
"If I could have one wish.I'd wish I was human like everyone else."
A bright light shone above him followed by the sound of a deep woman's voice. "Son Goku, is that what you really want?"
Goku stood to his feet and looked up quickly, seeing a woman float down from the heavens, none other than the goddess of mercy, Kanseon Bosatsu. He took a step back. "It's you." he said rather flatly.
Kanseon winked at the small boy. "Sou, I've come to ask you a question, Son." She stood on the water and faced Goku, smirking lightly. "I heard your cry from heaven. Is that what you really want?"
Goku looked befuddled. "What are you talking about?"
"Do you want to be a weak, ordinary human, Son Goku?"
Goku couldn't believe she was asking him this. "Can.you do that?"
Kanseon made a shrilled laugh. "I am the goddess of mercy, I can do anything!" Goku looked at the ground as she walked forward to him, her feet still floating above the surface. She held his chin and made eye contact with him. "Son Goku, I am asking you one more time. Do you want to be human?"
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Yeah, sort of a cliff hanger. But I think you know what he'll say. I felt like trying something different, I saw a lot of 'Goku looses Memory fics' and decided that I wanted to be original. Oh yeah, there's not gonna be much yaoi (sorry fans!) Hopefully I'll actually FINISH this fic.it's only gonna have one more chapter maybe.
