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The full moon was coming soon and Remus knew that he was going to have to tell Lily about him being a werewolf, he had tried once before, that's what he was writing, the night they had started going out. He wanted to tell her, he really did, but he just couldn't bring himself to.

Lily already knew that he was a werewolf but she wanted to know how long it was going to take him to tell her, she also knew that the full moon was coming. The full moon was tomorrow night.

"So.. Remus what are you doing tomorrow night?" When lily mentioned this he physically tensed up. He was going to have to tell her.

"Lily there is something I need to tell you. And please don't freak out when I tell you.. If you don't want to be my friend anymore I will understand." Lily noticed that he was really nervous. She knew what was coming and she was ready.

"There is nothing that could make me want to stop being your friend." Lily smiled.

"Lily I am.. I'm a.." He paused.. "werewolf." when he said the one word lily looked at him..

"I have always known that.." Remus looked at her.. 'how could she have known' he thought. "I wanted to know why you didn't tell me sooner.. I guess I understand you didn't want me to disown you.. right?" Remus nodded. Lily just stood there smiling. "And I also know that tomorrow is the full moon. So what is it like being a werewolf." Remus felt a tad bit uncomfortable in talking about it but it would soon pass.

"Honestly it blows the goat. I will always been seen as just a werewolf and not the person I really am. Jobs are going to be fun to get when I grow up.. I am surprised that I got to come to Hogwarts, I think Dumbledore fell of his rocker but that's just my opinion." Remus sighed a very heavy sigh.

"I know how you feel.. remember in third year when I wanted to try out for the quidittch (I have no idea how to spell that..) and everyone just laughed at me. Saying that I was quote, un-quote to fat.. I was only seen as the fat girl that everyone seemed to want to be mean to. I have never even been kissed, do you know what that is like? No because you have always been gorgeous, you didn't have to do much to get your first kiss. You have girls falling all over you.." Lily looked down at the ground of the common room slightly depressed.

"I have only kissed one girl and it was only because of a dare.. If that makes you feel better.." Lily nodded..

"Why don't you want to kiss me?.. I mean we have been going out now for three weeks and we still haven't kissed.. is that normal.. I don't know.." Lily was blushing.. she didn't know why she had just said that it just sort of popped out.

"I didn't think that you wanted me to kiss you. And I wanted the moment to be right."

"ok." Lily gave Remus a quick kiss on the cheek and went up to bed, only because it was already eleven o'clock and lily did need her beauty sleep.

Remus sat there for a little while thinking about how he was going to kiss her and when he was going to kiss her.

He went to ask for the Marauders advice.

"Hey guys.. How do you go about kissing a girl?" Remus had never asked them a question like this so they were all quite shocked..

"Wow.. I don't know.. what to say.. Our little baby moony has come to ask us out of all people for advice about kissing." Sirius could make anyone laugh when it was an uncomfortable..

"come on guys you have kissed plenty of girls.. Tell me how do you do It.." This statement made James and Sirius start rolling on the floor with laughter.. at the mention of doing it.

"My dear Remus.. you just have to wait for the right time.. it will come naturally and you wont even realize what you are doing.." Out of all the people to say this it was James Potter the one boy who had kissed almost every girl in Hogwarts.. They were all laughing now.

The next day Lily sat idly worrying about Remus when James came and sat next to her on the couch in the common room.. Lily was a little startled when she turned to see the one person she least expected to be sitting there.

"Lily I want to apologize for all the things that I had ever done to you." James looked a little worried as if he was afraid that she was going to hit him. After all he had heard about her beating up Malfoy and Snape.

"Why would you want to do that Potter?" Lily said this so cold that it made James almost turn around and leave. But he knew it was only because she hated him.

"Because I feel that since you are dating one of my best friends we should at least be civil to one another.." She still wasn't convinced that he was serious. "ok you want to get back at me right.. Hit me.." Lily looked at him as though he was crazy..

"Are you nuts? Have you lost all you common sense..! I wouldn't hit you.. I wouldn't even touch you with a ten foot pole.. I despise you.." Lily's emerald green eyes bored into his soft blue eyes.. "you know when we were in first year, I had the hugest crush on you. And you know what you said to me when you first saw me.. you called me fat and that I was a waste of space and that it was a lot of space.. If you want to be my friend your going to do just a little bit more then tell me your sorry.." Lily left him sitting there on the couch.

'Did I hurt her that bad..' James thought

That night Lily decided that she would sleep on one of the little couches in the common room so that she could be there when Remus got back. She got a book, a blanket and found a couch.

At about twelve o'clock James, Sirius and Peter came into the common room. They were going out to play with Remus. Lily looked at them and they waved. 'I wonder what they are up to.. Probably some stupid prank' she thought. James walked over to her.

"You know I am sorry." And with that he left through the portrait hole. Once James was gone.. Lily threw her book across the room.

"AHHH.. I hate him.. Why does he want to be my friend?" When she got up to go get her book she was half way there when she stepped on a piece of glass, and had to stop to pull it out.

She heard something happening above her when she looked up and before she could have done anything a chandelier came crashing down on to her, knocking her out cold.

When James, Sirius, and Peter came back they found an unconscious Lily, Sirius and Peter didn't seem to care. But James took her to the hospital wing and stayed with her.. Holding her hand and talking to himself.. or rather talking to her..





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