A/N Sorry this took a while.. I am getting way to much homework to write a chapter everyday. Hope you don't hate me. I don't own anything Please don't sue me.. thanks..







The next few days, which classes had started back up, Lily kept to herself. She hadn't talked to anyone since she had come back from the hospital wing. Debbie said that she was in the library but Sirius swore up and down that he looked there.

Lily wasn't sleeping at all, she didn't eat much either. How she could stay awake was beyond explanation.

When Lily did sleep, which didn't happen often, she kept having the same dream all over again. The one she had in the hospital wing were she got to watch her mother and sister be murdered by a monster under a black hood. And she would wake up screaming.. She didn't ever want to see those things again and to her the way of doing that was not sleeping.

The Marauders and Debbie weren't quite sure as to how to cheer Lily up. When they did talk to her, one of them would say the wrong thing and she would run off crying, they didn't want to make her cry.

"James.. She is your girlfriend, maybe you could talk to her. Tell her that were here and that were her family." Sirius was being more serious then anyone of them had ever seen him. James looked at him for a moment and got up to go find Lily, he was tired of her not being able to talk to them.

He didn't want to hurt her anymore then she had already been hurt, he wasn't sure how to go about doing this but he was sure going to try.

When he found her she was sitting under a tree out by the Lake, just staring off into space.

'You must stop doing this to yourself, you need to talk to someone. And what have them say something that reminds me of Mom and start crying all over again. You need to tell yourself that they aren't coming back and that you need to move on with your life. Make some new friends, maybe your room mates.' Lily was talking to herself, but inside her head.. Her glassy look whipped off her face when she saw James standing over her. Why she didn't notice him standing there before was beyond her.

"Will you talk to me now.." Lily just nodded. There were things that she wanted to tell James.

"You are going to be ok, you do believe that don't you." Lily looked at him for a moment. James sat next to her. "I know that you think that you want to die right now, so you can be with your family, but listen.. You don't want to do that to yourself. Think how Debbie, Sirius, Remus and I would feel.. Would you want to put us all through the pain that your going through. I want to tell you something."

Lily just kept looking at him as though she couldn't talk, all she had left were her eyes and she could see everything that was happening around her, sometimes she liked what she saw and sometimes she didn't.

"My dad died when I was thirteen.. I watched it happen, there was nothing I could have done to have stopped it, but look at me now.. I'm fine and I'm telling you that you need to talk to someone." Lily met his eyes, she hadn't used her voice for a few days.

"I miss them.. so.. much.." she started to cry and she bent into James and he put his arms around her. "They were everything to me, my whole life.. Everything I ever did I did it for them." Barely audible, being that Lily's face was stuffed into James' shoulder.

"Don't you still have an older sister and your father." James asked.

"Honestly if it would have been them that died I wouldn't be sitting her crying I wouldn't be so heartbroken. Petunia never really liked me and well. My father was never around, so I didn't know him very well." Lily was now looking out towards the lake, how it seemed to just sit there waiting for something, the water wasn't even moving nothing was making it stir at the top, no bugs, no fish, no algae.. nothing.. was moving..

Lily looked down at the grass then to the lake and then to James. He looked so sacred, even with his messy hair, almost as though he was sent to earth to make Lily love him. She didn't know why she liked him before and now she knew, he was the one for her. Even if they hadn't been dating for that long, she knew that she was going to be with him for quite a while.

James smiled at her, he didn't know why she was just staring at him, but he did know that it was a good stair and not the stair that you give a person right before you dump them.

Lily, for the second time, kissed him. To her it was the most relieving thing in the world for a brief second it took her pain away, and everything was how it should be. To James he knew that her kisses were as unique as any crystal or gem you might find on the ground or river or cave. She was the most wonderful person in the world to him.

When they split apart from their two second kiss. Both were completely happy. Lily sat there leaning on James and James was holding her to him. If you were to look out the window you would only see what looked like a rock. They sat there in silence watching the un-moving lake and just being with each other.

Lily was now feeling stupid for not talking to anyone. James almost sensing this said..

"I know that you think that your stupid for not talking to anyone but this is a really traumatic experience that you went through and I don't think your stupid. I think your great.."

That night Lily fell asleep on James and he carried her back to her dorm and tucked her in to bed, still clothed, kissed her on the forehead and left her in slumber land.

Lily didn't have nightmares anymore after that, she actually felt much better about everything.





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