Moving On, Love Vaughn

By Dark Angel

Disclaimer: I own them all! listens to the lawyers Ok, fine! I just own Vaughn. listens to more lawyers What? You mean I don't even own him??? Noooooo!! (in case you didn't get that…I don't own Alias or the people from it) Dark Angel goes off to drown her sorrows in a mocha frappuccino…hehehe…mocha

A/N: Pleeeeease review! Anyone who does gets a chocolate covered Vaughn! (no, neva mind, I don't feel like sharing) : )

Another A/N: this is my first Alias fic! Ok, so I like my Andromeda fic better. That's called Impossible Possibilities and can be found in the Andromeda section of this site (hint, hint, hint). Anyway, I'm kinda freaked about writing this cause not only is this my first alias fic, but this is also the first fic I've written knowing that there's a pretty good chance that someone I know will read this.

I've been wanting to write this for a while and I finally got a chance to! Well, y'all probably want me to shut up now, so, here's my fic…

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It all started with Taipei.

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For a few long, agonizing hours, Sydney Bristow thought she had lost another love. Another man dead because of her. She never even got a chance to tell this one how she felt, how she longed for him every minute of every day. How the only thing that got her through all those meetings with Slone was the knowledge that another mission for SD-6 would mean another meeting with (sigh) him. The thought of Vaughn being gone forever plagued her mind as she was held captive by her mother. In years to come when she looked back on this day, Sydney would never really be sure how she'd managed to escape 'the man' in the first place. The entire time, she was a zombie, doing what she had to do, yet not fully conscious of what was going on. When she was free, she made up her mind that she would not leave unless Vaughn was with her. She knew the chances of him being alive were extremely slim, but by that point, she'd rather die than have to go back and face life without him. And they had never even done so much as kissed! Now all she wanted was to be able to tell him how she felt. She prayed she would find him. She wished with all her heart for just one moment with him to tell him she loved him. That's when she found him. She had been sneaking around trying to find any sign of him without getting caught. (a/n: I know this part's pretty vague, but I don't feel like giving anything away (thank God for spoilers!) and I don't really feel like making anything up (so there!))Relief surged through her. He wasn't dead! She had been given a second chance. He was hurt, but alive, and that was all that mattered.

~~~A few days later in LA~~~

"Vaughn, I think we need to talk."

Sydney's voice echoed throughout the warehouse. It was the first time the agent and handler had been alone together since they had gotten back to LA. It was also time, they both decided, to get everything out in the open.

"Sydney, I-"

"No, just let me say this." Sydney cut him off, "I know we're supposed to keep our relationship strictly 'professional', but what I feel for you goes beyond what a CIA agent should feel for her handler. When I thought you were dead, I realized that you'd become such a big part of my life. I was so scared that I would never get to say this. I can't go back to pretending there's nothing between us, because there is. Or, at least, I think so. There is, isn't there? Although, I could be way off here, I mean just because I-"

Sydney's had begun to ramble, but soon shut up. No, it wasn't because she realized she was probably making a complete fool out of herself, but because she became a bit preoccupied by Vaughn suddenly grabbing her and pressing his lips against hers. It was something they had both dreamed of for so long. One forbidden kiss that held so much meaning. For one moment in time, just one short moment, all the horrors of real life were gone. They had made their escape from reality and for a few seconds, it was just Sydney and Vaughn. No CIA, no SD-6, no secrets and lies. It was just Sydney and Vaughn.

But it was only for a moment, and even the most precious moments end.

"Syd, I love you. I need for you to know that. But I also need you to know that we can't have that kind of relationship. Everybody has noticed something between us, and after our last mission, they won't sit by and watch this anymore. I've been transferred. I leave for Langley next week."

"What? No! They can't do that!" All the hopes and feelings that had been awakened in Sydney during that kiss were all suddenly shattered.

"They can and they did."

"No! You can't go!"

"I have to."

"You can't leave me."

"I wish I didn't have to."

"No! You can't just kiss me like that and tell me you love me and leave!"

"Do you think this is what I wanted? If I could, I'd take you away from here. Go somewhere where there's none of this spy crap. Somewhere where we could lead a normal life and be happy. It's just not that simple."

"Maybe it is."

"I'm sorry Syd. Goodbye."

Vaughn turned and left the warehouse. Sydney struggled to hold back the tears that threatened to fall. One perfect moment had turned into a fight. He was leaving her. She knew he had no choice but she hated him for doing this to her. One perfect moment was gone.