A/N: For all those people that read my phanphic.. thx.. hehe.. aww thx for
the review of Ash.. hmm who r u? an anonymous user.. lol.. and also
Juliette. n Tinity.. To answer Juliette's question, well I have no time to
find out what Raoul will react. Personally, I don't think I really care :X
Once again I don't own this.. the characters do not belong to me..
Now Let's concentrate on beloved Erik :D !! ^_~
Chapter 3 - The depression
Erik's point of view
I have let Christine and Raoul leave my house, they are gone forever. I believed I was in my worst state ever! I fall on m knees, putting my hands to my cheek sobbing endlessly. I know that I have to cry myself out or I will just buried it inside. My head jerked up when I heard the mob screaming and demanding to find the Phantom. I sobbed back few tears and get my last strength to stand up.
I don't have the mind or body to fight back the mob, I escaped from them through a secret passage I have built earlier that lead up to the roof of the Opera House. The stairs seems like forever as I looked up, but I yearn to have some fresh air in order to clear my mind. I run up to the stairs to my destination : The roof of the House
It was very chilly at night, the sky was clear fill with trillion of bright glimmering stars. But the moon could not be seen. I walked to the edge and look down. It was such a stunning sight. But it is not the time to admire the sight now.
Christine. Christine. I whisper slowly of her beautiful name, how I love that name! Christine.. Christine.. I have nothing now, my music is ruined, my life is ruined, my house is wrecked, and the worst of all Christine left me. Christine.. I love you dearly.. That kiss. My chilling fingers are touching my lips. I closed my eyes treasuring the first intense kiss I ever have. Oh Christine . I can't . I looked up at the stars and I felt the tears ran down my deformed face. I feel so weak as if my body has just shattered into parts.
"Christine.. I .. LOVE you.. .. I love you. "
I cried out loud, I am sure if anyone is near the roof will hear me crying. My tears stream downs like water out of my eyes down to my face again and my hand stretch outward as if I am grabbing for something. I fall on my knees helplessly raised my hand up to my eye level and desperately trying to sob back the tears. The tears ran down to my lips as I lick them away tasting the saltiness.
Christine.. I gave you everything.. I worship you like a goddess yet you denied me. I made you famous throughout Paris. I let you triumph in just one single night. And mostly I wasted my energy on you every time I gave you my music lessons. You were a bright students, Christine. I have thought that If I gave you the things you want that you would accept me. to get to know more about me.. But I was wrong.. Oh terribly wrong. Your childish curiosity grew as I see you every time, you want to know what is the face of you Angel of Music. If only you. know me inside Christine. I am very gentle, I am a kind person once you know me inside. If you could only trust me and get to know me more, I have told you not to touch my mask. Why have ignored my warning? Why? That thought had exhausted me.
I collapsed on the floor, my bodies shaking terribly as I sob. I have never felt that way before, when I see you through the mirror in your dressing room. It was the happiest moment in my life! How your eyes would shines as you look at the mirror, how you smile timidly when I compliment you on your singing. Christine.. Christine.. I try to get up using my arms, but I have failed. The great emotion has overwhelmed me that my arms shakes when trying to get up.
After about an hour, I have finally control myself to in a calm state. My tears on my face dried and I was able to sit up on the floor. It was the first time I have cry over like this, I was not like this. I have learned to hate the world but surely I could not hate Christine. I love you.
But this time, It is all over, Christine is gone and nothing is left.. Absolutely nothing.things that are most important to me just slipped away in one night.
I stood up eventually, sighed heavily as I head toward the passage back to my domain. I wanted to check on the mob to see if they have left yet or not. As I walked down the stairs, I did not hear any screaming from anyone. My guess was that they have gone and give up the search of me. I slowly carefully opened the passage door, my eyes grew wild in amazement. My house, my only house that I built for myself, is all gone.. just in one night.. all is destroyed. I walked to my room, the first thing that caught my eyes was my coffin. The coffin was splintered in half. The candles were all died out and the wax was all over the floor. One thing instantly caught in my mind.
Christine's room! I ran quickly to her room and opened the door, I dropped on my knees again as I watched my most favorite room turned into a dumpster. All dresses inside Christine's closet were all stolen, one of the closet door was even broken in half. My mother's bed that I have bought down here with all my might is destroyed. They had also teared the pillow and the feathers were all laid on the floor and the bed. All is ruined! My life is ruined, I have nothing to live for! I couldn't bare to look at the sight.
I ran to my room and closed the door behind me. I went to the farthest and darkest corner and dropped on the floor. I bended my legs and put my arms around them. I put my wet on my knees, rocking back and forth in despair as I cried out openly again. My body shakes along with it when the tears streams down to my black trousers.
Just right this moment, I heard a person walking outside, approaching near my room.
A/N: 1-2-03
It is 2:25am in the morning. I am sorry I did not look through the errors.. :*[ . review appreciated!!!
1-3-03
ff.net was down yesterday. hmmm. that gib me more time.. Thank you for reading my Phanphic and please review !!
Yes click on the review link on the bottom Click on it . ^_~ . hehehe.
Once again I don't own this.. the characters do not belong to me..
Now Let's concentrate on beloved Erik :D !! ^_~
Chapter 3 - The depression
Erik's point of view
I have let Christine and Raoul leave my house, they are gone forever. I believed I was in my worst state ever! I fall on m knees, putting my hands to my cheek sobbing endlessly. I know that I have to cry myself out or I will just buried it inside. My head jerked up when I heard the mob screaming and demanding to find the Phantom. I sobbed back few tears and get my last strength to stand up.
I don't have the mind or body to fight back the mob, I escaped from them through a secret passage I have built earlier that lead up to the roof of the Opera House. The stairs seems like forever as I looked up, but I yearn to have some fresh air in order to clear my mind. I run up to the stairs to my destination : The roof of the House
It was very chilly at night, the sky was clear fill with trillion of bright glimmering stars. But the moon could not be seen. I walked to the edge and look down. It was such a stunning sight. But it is not the time to admire the sight now.
Christine. Christine. I whisper slowly of her beautiful name, how I love that name! Christine.. Christine.. I have nothing now, my music is ruined, my life is ruined, my house is wrecked, and the worst of all Christine left me. Christine.. I love you dearly.. That kiss. My chilling fingers are touching my lips. I closed my eyes treasuring the first intense kiss I ever have. Oh Christine . I can't . I looked up at the stars and I felt the tears ran down my deformed face. I feel so weak as if my body has just shattered into parts.
"Christine.. I .. LOVE you.. .. I love you. "
I cried out loud, I am sure if anyone is near the roof will hear me crying. My tears stream downs like water out of my eyes down to my face again and my hand stretch outward as if I am grabbing for something. I fall on my knees helplessly raised my hand up to my eye level and desperately trying to sob back the tears. The tears ran down to my lips as I lick them away tasting the saltiness.
Christine.. I gave you everything.. I worship you like a goddess yet you denied me. I made you famous throughout Paris. I let you triumph in just one single night. And mostly I wasted my energy on you every time I gave you my music lessons. You were a bright students, Christine. I have thought that If I gave you the things you want that you would accept me. to get to know more about me.. But I was wrong.. Oh terribly wrong. Your childish curiosity grew as I see you every time, you want to know what is the face of you Angel of Music. If only you. know me inside Christine. I am very gentle, I am a kind person once you know me inside. If you could only trust me and get to know me more, I have told you not to touch my mask. Why have ignored my warning? Why? That thought had exhausted me.
I collapsed on the floor, my bodies shaking terribly as I sob. I have never felt that way before, when I see you through the mirror in your dressing room. It was the happiest moment in my life! How your eyes would shines as you look at the mirror, how you smile timidly when I compliment you on your singing. Christine.. Christine.. I try to get up using my arms, but I have failed. The great emotion has overwhelmed me that my arms shakes when trying to get up.
After about an hour, I have finally control myself to in a calm state. My tears on my face dried and I was able to sit up on the floor. It was the first time I have cry over like this, I was not like this. I have learned to hate the world but surely I could not hate Christine. I love you.
But this time, It is all over, Christine is gone and nothing is left.. Absolutely nothing.things that are most important to me just slipped away in one night.
I stood up eventually, sighed heavily as I head toward the passage back to my domain. I wanted to check on the mob to see if they have left yet or not. As I walked down the stairs, I did not hear any screaming from anyone. My guess was that they have gone and give up the search of me. I slowly carefully opened the passage door, my eyes grew wild in amazement. My house, my only house that I built for myself, is all gone.. just in one night.. all is destroyed. I walked to my room, the first thing that caught my eyes was my coffin. The coffin was splintered in half. The candles were all died out and the wax was all over the floor. One thing instantly caught in my mind.
Christine's room! I ran quickly to her room and opened the door, I dropped on my knees again as I watched my most favorite room turned into a dumpster. All dresses inside Christine's closet were all stolen, one of the closet door was even broken in half. My mother's bed that I have bought down here with all my might is destroyed. They had also teared the pillow and the feathers were all laid on the floor and the bed. All is ruined! My life is ruined, I have nothing to live for! I couldn't bare to look at the sight.
I ran to my room and closed the door behind me. I went to the farthest and darkest corner and dropped on the floor. I bended my legs and put my arms around them. I put my wet on my knees, rocking back and forth in despair as I cried out openly again. My body shakes along with it when the tears streams down to my black trousers.
Just right this moment, I heard a person walking outside, approaching near my room.
A/N: 1-2-03
It is 2:25am in the morning. I am sorry I did not look through the errors.. :*[ . review appreciated!!!
1-3-03
ff.net was down yesterday. hmmm. that gib me more time.. Thank you for reading my Phanphic and please review !!
Yes click on the review link on the bottom Click on it . ^_~ . hehehe.
