** Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters of Gilmore Girls. If I were that all powerful then Jess would be staying put! So, in summation... Please don't sue me!**
Rory and Jess sat on a bench at the bus station.
"I'll e-mail you when I get home." She said, looking at the ground.
"Good." He tried to smile, but he didn't feel there was much to smile
about.
They sat and watched people boarding buses. No one seemed to be having any
trouble doing it. But Rory was pretty sure she was going to.
"I…don't want to go." She said. He smiled slightly.
"I don't want you to go."
"I have to go." She sighed and his smile faded.
"I know."
He looked down at her hand and gently took it in his. She looked at him and
smiled slightly.
"It's strange. There are people in my life that I have known since I was
little. And I don't know them as well as I know you."
"Well, the amount of things we've told each other…" He said, thinking
about all the e-mails they'd sent and received.
"I know. You know things about me that I can't tell anyone else." She
smiled slightly.
Jess looked at her. He still wanted to kiss her. He didn't know how he'd
managed not to when they'd said 'I love you' earlier.
He heard them announce the her bus was going to depart in 5 minutes.
"Come on, we should… at least make our way over to the bus." He sighed,
standing up.
She stood up and they started walking over to the bus. She thought she might
cry. She'd felt so safe and she was worried that leaving him was going to ruin
that feeling.
"Jess… nothing's changed, has it?" She asked.
"What do you mean?" He frowned. They stopped and faced each other.
"I mean… what we said, it's no different from the last time is it?" She
said.
"Oh." He looked at the ground. He felt so guilty, he hadn't wanted to hurt
her all over again, but it seemed he was anyway.
"It's ok. I didn't expect anything to change."
"Ok." He nodded. "It's not that I don't want anything to change." He
sighed. "It's just that… I'm here and you're…"
"Not." She said, nodding to show she understood.
"I'm sorry."
"Don't be. It's not your fault. It's just… how it is." She said as
she continued walking towards the bus.
He watched her for a moment and then he followed.
They stopped again when they reached the bus she needed to take. They stood to
the side of the door so other people could get by.
"So…" She sighed, looking down at the ground.
"I guess… I'll talk to you soon?" He said and she nodded.
Rory looked at him. She wasn't sure what had happened between them. She
wasn't sure what she'd thought would happen between them. But she knew she
was disappointed that nothing seemed to have changed.
"Goodbye, Jess." She said, her expression was sad.
He looked at her, he felt the way she looked. He moved forward, part of him was
about to kiss her, but instead he hugged her. She hugged him back.
"Bye Rory." He said softly, letting her go.
Rory got on the bus and found a seat near the back. She leaned her head against
the headrest and looked out of the window.
She felt the urge to get off of the bus and stay with him longer. She was
already feeling alone again. It was like everything was closing in on her. She
started to cry.
Jess watched the bus pull away. He couldn't believe he'd let her go with so
much unsaid. But at the same time, he didn't know how he would have been able
to say any of what he was feeling without hurting her or leaving them both more
confused.
