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Unhappy
By Chibinaoka

Each day passes like the one before. I sit in this cage all by myself. Technically, I'm not by myself. There's the auto-dolls who somewhat keep me company but there just here to watch over me. I can't really have a conversation with them or tell them how I feel. I'm all alone. Locked up in this gilded cage, never knowing what goes on in the world. I had once lived in that world, but it was so long ago that I bearly remember it. I've never wanted anything. I could never have anything even if I wanted it. I'm a four-leaf clover, blessed with powers that many don't understand. Blessed or cursed? Sometimes I wonder. Ever since I discovered these powers, my life has been full of solitude, full of loneliness. I'm destined for loneliness. I can't even remember the last time I touched another human being's hand.

But then one day I discovered a voice. It sang with such beauty. Ora. I soon as I heard her sing, it lifted my heart. I no longer knew what it meant to be alone. Her lyrics were my companions and I sang them with all my heart. I discovered my own voice. And we sang. Two lonely birds who found happiness within each other. And we wrote our own cry together. We poured our hearts into it, our sorrows into it. We sang together. A secret duet. I was no longer a lonely bird locked up in a cage.

birds sing a song
of unknown tongue
though winged,
they still fail to reach the sky

But now...Now I know what it means to lose someone and it's the biggest hurt of all. I feel like my heart is about to shatter into millions of pieces. Ora is gone. My one true friend. All I have now are the memories and the lyrics. All I have is my loneliness once again. It is a pain that no one can understand. Wanting to be set free like a bird but being locked up just because your different. I've never wanted anything in my life. I though I could get use to it. Get use to being lonely. Ora once told me that no one could get use to being alone. I'm beginning to wonder if she was right and too dough my own words. The loneliness is too great. My wings want to spread themselves and fly high in the sky. To reach that unperishable bliss. I don't want to be alone anymore. I don't want to be locked up anymore. I want to fly. I've realized now that I am truly unhappy. This gilded cage is my prison. These powers are my curse. My unhappiness. I want to be happy. I wish I could no longer be unhappy. I wish I could be happy.

a bird in a gilded cage,
a bird bereft of flight,
a bird that cannot fly,
a bird all by itself.

so take me
i want happiness

The End