Disclaimer: I don't own DBZ or Jimmy eat worlds song sweetness (I love that song! I know the lyrics aren't that particularly dark but they kind of tell his story.) but I own my mind, I think. . .

A/n: Sorry it took me so long to update. . . Thank you to Chibi-Gotens-gurl and Master Vegeta for reviewing they meant the world to me! *smiles insanely* And thanks to my best friend Em for coming up with the chapter title and for always being there! R & R!

Feelings that were Pushed Aside

Goten sat in his and Gohan's room, the only light from the stars made it any brighter, but barely. He had sat in his bedroom every evening, in the dark , for weeks now. Punk music blaring out of his headphones, the lyrics he could understand, they made sense to him. As the tears ran down his face, he softly sang along. In a way it released his pain, it was vent.

"and the sweetness will not be concerned with me. Yeah." That was true nobody would want to be concerned with him, nobody wanted a failure as a son or as a friend. " Stumble to you cry." Well that was what he had done, that was what he was doing now. Perhaps tears were weak. . . He switched off the walkman and wiped the tears from his dark eyes with his sleeve. His thoughts moved to what had happened this afternoon.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~Flask Back~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ "Let me watch my program, Gohan!" Goten pouted fed up of watching the news.

"No, it's stupid!" Gohan said knowing exactly what Goten was going to watch, cartoons. Namely Other world Adventures. (A/n: not v. interesting, but I'm tired!)

"Is not!"

"Is too."

"Is not!"

"Is too!"

"Will you two shut up. I've had enough of this. Both of you go sit in your room and think about what's happened." Chi Chi yelled, she was in no mood for arguments today.

"Fine!" Goten snapped, storming off to his room.

"Gohan you better go sit in mine and your fathers."

"Yeah mom." He bowed his head in shame, he felt a little guilty, perhaps he should of let his little brother have the TV. Something was still wrong. It was to late for Goten to see the guilt in his siblings eyes.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*End of Flash Back*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Even Gohan had turned on him now , no one loved him , no one even liked him, he was just a weakling.

A knock came at the door, tearing him out of the vortex of depressive thoughts he was swirling in.

"Can I come in Goten?" It was his father, he was possibly the worlds maybe even the universes greatest hero.

"Its not like I can stop you." Goten sighed. Goku walked in to the dark room, only just being able to make out hit sons outline.

"Why you sitting in the dark?" Goku said flipping on light switch.

" I wanna sit in the dark." He said shielding his eyes so they could readjust to the light, then he decided he still did want to sit the dark,. So once he had switched the lights off he returned to his bed and brought his knees up to his chin. An uneasy silence followed, Goten had never seen why his father was always so happy all the time. He had heard of many of the battle his father had fought, he knew he had seen people die in front of him, but how was he so unaffected? Goten could not remember when he had been like that. He couldn't remember that he had been like that only a few years ago.

Goku couldn't take this silence, so he broke instead of Goten doing like he had wanted him too.

"Son, what's wrong?"

". . . life . . ." Goten replied in a hushed whisper barely audible to Goku.

"How can life be wrong?" He asked puzzled.

"My life is wrong."

"No it isn't." You got your mother though Goku added silently in his head.

"You don't understand, your not on the edge!" He yelled.

"On the edge?" Goku face was once again confused.

"You don't get it! You won't, your not me."

"You don't mean your going to?" Goku couldn't finish that sentence he didn't want to lose his son like that, that was way that no one should die.

"No, not yet. I have things to do first." Goten lied, he had never thought of that, but now thinking of it . . . no, that had no honour, but then again did he have honour left?

"Are you sure?" Goku questioned, he loved his son, even though he hadn't been there for most of his life, in fact he had felt guilty about not being there for Goten in the first place.

"Do I really look suicidal?"

"No, I'll just go see if dinners ready." Goku said frightened of his son. He was more scared of what his son might do now, than if he had to face all his enemies at once.

"You saw Gohan first, didn't you!" He said calmly, no emotion hidden in his voice.

" Well, I went in their to get something and Gohan was sitting on the bed meditating. So I asked him what was wrong and he said that you two had gotten into an argument and Chichi had sent you up here. He looked pretty sorry though."

"He's always comes first. He always gets his way." Goten pouted jealousy revealed in his voice.

"Son, you no that is not true." Goku frowned shaking his head.

"It is, it is." The calm voice returning. That calm voice was scaring Goku even more. Did he only have emotions that brought sorrow and despair?

"Goten, are you ok? I mean I met you before Buu. You were happy then, but you've changed now."

"Buu killed mom in front of me and I was stuck in side that white walled prison when he ate the others. You expect me not to be affected?" 'All I had was Trunks and Piccolo and neither of them were of any help.'

"Goten, stop hiding where you fell!"

"I'm sorry Goten!" Goku said sombrely, not fully understanding his youngest son's plea. He left the room quietly, while try to contemplate what his son had said.

Goten looked back down at the ground he still felt the hole inside him, but it had shrunk, he did not know why but it had. The feeling that preoccupied him now was jealousy, his brother was the one that was loved not him, he had to find a way for his parent to love him too . . .