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A/n: I really did not like the last chapter at all, it had something missing in it. I don't know what. . . so anyways I decided I needed to have a change of direction with this! Sorry it took me so long to update U_U . Also I know that Piccolos asexual but it sounds stupid saying it or piccolo all the time. Please review. Please don't flame. Thanks for the anonymous review. Who ever that was. . . ^_^

A Thought held for too long

Piccolo flew through they sky looking out for his old student Gohan he had to tell him this information. Even Dende knew nothing of this, no one did. Where was his student, he had not be able to find him at all by sensing him. So the next best thing was searching by air. He had tried asking Goku, Chi Chi and Videl where he was but he still hadn't been found, he had finally found him. He was meditating under a tree. This was one his favourite tree (you know the one in the cell saga, in Gohan's memories, that one!) it still had the hole in it he had made when he was little and now that had gotten even bigger since Goten accidentally sent a Ki blast into it. He smiled at the memories, those were great times. They had been so happy then, then again, Goku had never been around and Gohan had missed his Father more than anything in the world. Now though life didn't seem as perfect as then, it hadn't been perfect then but it had fallen even further from perfection now.

"Gohan." A familiar voice pulled him out of his memories.

"Oh, Hello Piccolo. How are you?"

"I'm fine, but I haven't come here to talk about me."

"Then who or what have you came to talk about?" Gohan smiled, what had he came to talk about, it wasn't like Piccolo to come down from the Look out.

"Goten." The Namek said quietly.

"What's wrong with him?" The demi sayian said frowning, he had noticed something wrong with Goten for a while perhaps Piccolo knew what he had been doing.

"I don't know how tell you this softly, but Goten's been harming himself. ." Piccolo said looking down at the ground feeling guilty that it had taken him this long to tell Gohan. If it had been any longer Goten may have done something more than just cutting his arms.

"What do you mean by harming him self?"

"I mean he's been cutting his arms."

"How long for?" Gohan's voice was tainted with worry what had his little brother been doing to himself.

"Since we were trapped in the hyperbolic time chamber." Piccolo sighed. He felt so guilty he should have stopped it straight away.

"Since when. Why didn't you tell me sooner?" Gohan shouted angrily, it was not very often he got angry; he had a right to know though this was to with his little brother.

"I didn't know how to put it. I was."

"Look I don' t have time for this now, I'm going to find him now." Gohan said shooting off into the sky, heading for home.

Piccolo looked down at the ground , he was a failure as a sensei to Gohan and as a friend why didn't he tell him what Goten had been doing sooner. He had a bad feeling about today and now Gohan probably hated him. He had to make it up to him.

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Goten hugged his legs, where was Gohan, he had said that both of them would go to the park, it would just be like old times. Now he was over two hours late. He didn't want that was why he hadn't come. He was just some stupid annoying little brat to him. He was a waste of space, some useless little piece of Junk that just hung around for no reason. He was the woolly jumper that an old relative had knitted you but was never used because it didn't fit in with the rest of the clothes. No one wanted him, he'd never be wanted. His brother was needed by loads of people, he was a super hero and then, he was a failure. His family were all hero's or great and he wasn't. he was the black sheep, he stuck out like a sore thumb. He would not fit in anywhere. His family were different to him and if he ran away and found a new family to live with, they may find it a bit weird that he could change his hair colour at will and ate more than any human. People feared what was different and eventually that fear was going to turn into hate and then they would send him away too. He wanted to be alone. To be alone, meant there would be now pain. He could distant himself from everyone else like he did now. He would only have himself to rely on. There would just be him, but he couldn't do that because some one would find him. So what options did he have left? Death or to live life as nothing had ever happened. He could hold that mask of happiness up for only so long, until he broke. He didn't want o hurt the others even more now though, he didn't want them to see him break down crying, he never wanted to hurt anyone. Putting some one in pain was wrong, but then in some cases it was the only thing to do. Death was his only option. He took a piece of paper from his brothers note pad and started writing a note.

Dear everyone, I guess your wondering why I've suddenly decided to take my own life. You guys all have some one now and I don't mom you have Dad, Gohan you have Videl and trunks you have all your new friends from school. You never really realised how Buu affected my life. You never saw your mother killed in front of you and were expected to live with it. I was seven years old and you expected me to save universe. You weren't that old when you had too. I was always some extra not really wanted. So decided to take me away from your lives. You wont have to worry about me anymore. I'll be gone and then you can keep on living. I'm sorry I caused all of you so much pain. Trunks you can have all my action figures, I'm sure you'll enjoy them. Mom the pictures for you and dad and Gohan, you'll find them under my bed. I'm sorry. Lots of Love Goten x x x

His writing joined up just the way his Mom liked it to be. He put the piece of paper down onto his bed, sighing with tears in his eyes. He took the blade from his pencil case and held it to his wrist.

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Gohan flew quickly through the sky what if he was too late, what if Goten had done something drastic. What if he had. no he couldn't think like that. He could finally see his house, his breathed a sigh of relief but the feeling in his stomach had not gone. Was Goten ok?

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