I have spent the rest of my life trying to make up for my earlier life and
even try to make amends within myself.. Nothing has been harder for me in
my life. for I know deep down I will never be able to atone for what I did.
I hope no one will ever be faced with a gift as powerful as mine, or the hardships I have experienced. I blame nothing on any one but myself. I have learnt now that with great powers comes great responsibilities, even though I came to this realization to late in my life I hope others will learn and understand this with out the hardships.
Some one I once knew who was though of as a legend once made the quote of. If we are such great legends and people want to be involved with use, then why are we so alone.
There are many things that people might feel that I did wrong or things that I should have done that I didn't do.
There is so much I wish I could write or do but I can't not now or ever, for even now I feel that my life is coming closer to it's end.. Before I would have welcomed it but now I have so much I wish to pass on and tell others of that I won' t be able to now. I find it funny how when I was young and had my gift I wish for peace and even death but now in my final hours of living it doesn't concern me what does concern me is finishing these journal entries in hope that some one will find them so others can learn from my mistakes.
Here I end my story but I end with these few sayings that I have heard and thought of greatly in my years of enclosure and solitude.
The people who usually are remembered and though of as legends are those who don't think or try for it. Those who search it out.. often find not it. but disappointment
In the end I accept what people claimed, that I played god with my gift, and no matter how much I or someone else says it was all in the end for the greater good, I still in the end took many lives. Because of my actions many are dead not by my hand but easily enough as if it was by my own hand.
I have done my best to try and make it up to those still alive and left by the ones who died.
I have lived my live how ultimately I chose to, I stand by how I lived now and I am prepared to pay for my actions after death.
But this message I hope to pass onto future generations.
Live you life as you see fit, go to the grave with no regrets for in the end we stand and receive judgement on ourselves for what we have done and not what we didn't do or who didn't agree with it. In the end we are judged on ones self and not others.
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And so be the end of the journal entries and then end of what I believe to be one of the tragic stories that the life of heralds can live and unfortunately do experience.
I write this story into the history book for those to come to read and learn. In this year of 1634 AF
Herald Chronicler
Yheusb
I hope no one will ever be faced with a gift as powerful as mine, or the hardships I have experienced. I blame nothing on any one but myself. I have learnt now that with great powers comes great responsibilities, even though I came to this realization to late in my life I hope others will learn and understand this with out the hardships.
Some one I once knew who was though of as a legend once made the quote of. If we are such great legends and people want to be involved with use, then why are we so alone.
There are many things that people might feel that I did wrong or things that I should have done that I didn't do.
There is so much I wish I could write or do but I can't not now or ever, for even now I feel that my life is coming closer to it's end.. Before I would have welcomed it but now I have so much I wish to pass on and tell others of that I won' t be able to now. I find it funny how when I was young and had my gift I wish for peace and even death but now in my final hours of living it doesn't concern me what does concern me is finishing these journal entries in hope that some one will find them so others can learn from my mistakes.
Here I end my story but I end with these few sayings that I have heard and thought of greatly in my years of enclosure and solitude.
The people who usually are remembered and though of as legends are those who don't think or try for it. Those who search it out.. often find not it. but disappointment
In the end I accept what people claimed, that I played god with my gift, and no matter how much I or someone else says it was all in the end for the greater good, I still in the end took many lives. Because of my actions many are dead not by my hand but easily enough as if it was by my own hand.
I have done my best to try and make it up to those still alive and left by the ones who died.
I have lived my live how ultimately I chose to, I stand by how I lived now and I am prepared to pay for my actions after death.
But this message I hope to pass onto future generations.
Live you life as you see fit, go to the grave with no regrets for in the end we stand and receive judgement on ourselves for what we have done and not what we didn't do or who didn't agree with it. In the end we are judged on ones self and not others.
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And so be the end of the journal entries and then end of what I believe to be one of the tragic stories that the life of heralds can live and unfortunately do experience.
I write this story into the history book for those to come to read and learn. In this year of 1634 AF
Herald Chronicler
Yheusb
