A/N: This chapter's narrator is me at the place of a God narrator like in the other chapter. Also I do not own the song. It belongs to Linkin Park.

Prologue

Spike

He was drunk. Terribly drunk. Of course he had reasons to drink that much and at this state he remembered them way to much. He couldn't believe how pathetic he was, but then again, wasn't he always like this?

/Why me? Why does it always have to be me? Didn't they hurt me enough yet? It's always the same thing. I should have known better that love and me never equals happiness. I love with all my heart and every single time it gets back at me. What did I do to deserve this? If only I knew. Oh that's right, I'm cursed. Every woman I'll ever love will or hate me or stay with me while waiting for someone else./

Cecily was a bitch to him and thought that she was better than him. Yeah like that's true. Yes his poetry did suck but he was a gentleman and he never did anything to her but love her. And look where that led him. To a psycho bitch. Speaking about the loony tunes that sired him, what the hell was wrong with her? Yeah I know Angelus badly tortured her, but man, all her dolls had the same name. I always wondered how he put up with her for a century. Oh, that's cause he loved her. But did she loved him. No. she stayed with him waiting for the Poofster to go back to his less annoying but still nuts old self. And when that happened, she barely talked to Spike because she was always with Peaches and yet Spike was still trying to win her over. And when Angelus is back to Angel, she tells Spike he's not bad enough for her. And on who does she bases her standards on? A really mad vampire that has nothing better to do than stalk his ex and draw pictures of her when she sleeps. Yeah, he's like a total big bad. I mean compare to him no one is a big bad. And even if someone has evil enough, she would always love Wonder Boy more and that's one of the reasons why she's mad, I mean he tortured her and her family, made her crazy then turned her. Plus he really knows the way to a woman's heart. We would all love to see our puppies get mailed and get a human heart as a V-Day gift. We all find that so romantic. And what the hell is it with those leather pants anyway? It's not because he's the big bad he has to wear them. And last but certainly not least on his love life, Buffy. The Slayer. The one he should never have fallen for. She always fell for the wrong guy. First, Angel. Angel, oh, Angel. I could go days complaining about his annoying, whiny, broody ass and about his wonderful musical talent and the grass on his head he calls hair but that would probably bore you to death so I'll just skip that part and go next. Parker, aka Neanderthal Man, was a jerk that was near Buffy because he only wanted to get in her pants. And lastly, Captain Cardboard(Riley) was Buffy's chance of a normal relationship all in a annoying know-it-all and as boring as a rock envelope. If only he could have died when he took that thing of his chest, I would have been so happy.

But poor little Spikey, Buffy hates him and that's truly beyond my understanding. How can she not see how perfect they are for each other.

Spike opened the radio to check if there was a song that could reflect his mood. When he got to a song, he couldn't help but start singing along.

It starts with

One thing/I don't know why

It doesn't even matter how hard you try

Keep that in mind/I designed this rhyme

To explain in due time

All I know

Time is a valuable thing

Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings

Watch it count down to the end of the day

The clock ticks life away

It's so unreal

Didn't look out below

Watch the time go right out the window

Trying to hold on/But didn't even know

Wasted it all just to

Watch you go

I kept everything inside and even though I tried/It all fell apart

What it meant to me/Will eventually/Be a memory/Of a time when I tried so hard

And got so far

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

I had to fall

And lose it all

But in the end

It doesn't even matter One thing/I don't know why

Doesn't even matter how hard you try

Keep that in mind/I designed this rhyme

To remind myself how

I tried so hard

In spite of the way you were mocking me

Acting like I was part of your property

Remembering all the times you fought with me/I'm surprised

It got so [far]

Things aren't the way they were before

You wouldn't even recognize me anymore

Not that you knew me back then

But it all comes back to me

In the end

You kept everything inside and even though I tried/It all fell apart

What it meant to me/Will eventually/Be a memory/Of a time when I I tried so hard

And got so far

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

I had to fall

And lose it all

But in the end

It doesn't even matter I put my trust in you

Pushed as far as I can go

And for all this

There's only one thing you should know... I tried so hard

And got so far

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

I had to fall

And lose it all

But in the end

It doesn't even matter -What the hell is going on? You sing now? Said Buffy as she entered the crypt

But she wasn't alone much to Spike's and my despair. She was with the Poofster. And that was weird since it was daylight and Peaches was not dust(unfortunately). But Buffy answered that question.

-He's human now. He got his reward. We just came to tell you that if you're not gone in a week or if you're not out of that imaginary world in which you love me or we'll stake you. Just one more thing, I will never love you. I love Angel and we're soul mates.

Spike screamed then suddenly found himself in his bed. He was dreaming.