The next morning, Lizzie woke up to the sun shining through her windows and the scent of freshly made chocolate chip pancakes, her favorite.

She rolled over to her left side and saw that the clock read 11:02. Being satisfied with the amount of sleep she got, she rose from her bed and adjusted her ponytail.

At that very moment, Lizzie heard a knock at her door, and in walked her mom.

"Oh Lizzie! You're finally awake. I made your favorite pancakes." Jo said, as she sat next to Lizzie on her bed

"Lizzie, are you ok? It looks as if you were crying." She added, taking a closer look at her daughters face

"I'm fine, mom." Lizzie replied "Really, don't worry about me." She told her, as she plastered on a fake smile

"Well, if you're sure... come downstairs and eat some breakfast, ok?" Jo said, getting up from her bed



*i try to smile so the hurt won't show*



When her mom exited her room, Lizzie just sat in her bed, re-living everything that happened one year ago. It was horrible because by the next day, everyone knew.

They asked all the same questions and made the same comments... 'you're better of without him', 'are you ok?', 'what happened?', and of course, 'are you guys still together?'

"Of course not!" Lizzie remembered saying to all who asked "It's his loss, anyways!" She said in all confidence

Confidence. That is one thing she lacked that day. Sure she had a smile on her face and acted like nothing happened the previous night. But the truth was, that something DID happen that night. And that smile... it was a mask. Deep down inside, she wanted to yell and scream at anyone who was in her way.



*tell everybody- i was glad to see you go*



That night... the night when her whole world shattered to pieces, was a night she never wanted to remember. But she couldn't help but think of where their relationship went wrong. They rarely fought, they gave one another space, and they were always there for eachother. What happened?

"Lizzie, this party is way outta control!" Miranda yelled over the blaring music

"I know! Lemme just look for Gordo and then we can head out, ok?" Lizzie replied "Just wait out front." Miranda nodded

Lizzie looked everywhere. The backyard, the kitchen, and the billiard room. Not knowing where else to look, she sauntered upstairs and looked in each room. The first 3 rooms, she found nothing. But the fourth room...

"What the hell!?" She yelled at the scene in front of her

"Lizzie?!" Gordo asked in dis-belief, as he began to re-button his shirt "I'm so sorry! I thought-"

"No! Save it, Gordo! How could you? Do you even know who this slut is?!" She yelled back, looking at the girl

No reply.

"Screw you, David Gordon! WE ARE SO THROUGH!" She yelled again. before slamming the door

Once the door was closed, the water works began. Seeing him in bed with his shirt off with another girl, that neither of them knew, just blew a fuse in her head. How could he? The only thing she could think of doing right now, was cry... and she was.



*but the tears just won't go away*



"Lizzie, what's wrong? Why are your crying?" Miranda asked, as she saw her friend run out of the house

"Gordo- bed- someone else..." She replied through sobs

"Oh my God... Lizzie. Are you ok?" She asked, trying to comfort her best friend

"No! Can we just find a ride home? I can't stand to be here."

"Yah, sure. I'll call my mom or something." She replied, taking out her cell phone and walking to a tree no more than 5 feet away

"Lizzie!" A familiar voice said from behind her

"Stay away from me, ok?! I don't wanna talk to you!" She stood up

"Please." He begged

"No, Gordo! You just stay away. Do you think I will actually forgive you?! Even if you had the most believable excuse, I wouldn't forgive you! And even if I did, do you think I could live being with you when I saw what I saw upstairs?!" She yelled



*no meaner smile on me*



Lizzie couldn't live with herself. Ever since that horrific night, her life has went downhill, or so she thought. She thought nothing could ever lift her spirits. She prayed to God every night that He could take away the hurt she felt.

Without much thought, Lizzie got out of bed and retreated downstairs for some breakfast. She sat down at the table and ate her breakfast silently. Even when Matt made a sarcastic remark, she didn't fight back. She couldn't. She was hurting and she knew that she would be hurting for a while.



*looks like it's here to stay*



When Lizzie consumed her breakfast, she went back upstairs and took a long hot shower. Something about hot showers soothed her. After she finished, she put on her robed, walked into her room, and just sat on the bed, thinking.

She sighed, "I need someone in my life."

It was true. She did need someone in her life. She needed someone she could depend on. Someone who was going to be there for her. Sure, she had Miranda. But she needed someone other than her. What Lizzie needed and wanted was a boyfriend.



*i know that i oughta find someone new*



Lizzie did want a boyfriend. But what she wanted more was to have Gordo back. No one understood her. Everyone thought she was crazy for wanting to forgive Gordo. I mean, it was Gordo! Everyone knew that he was the good one of the three of them. But when they found out what happened, they all turned against him and befriended Lizzie... even Kate!

I guess one event can change the lives of some people.

"Why did I have to catch you in bed with that girl? Life would have been so much better if I was with you right now... I miss you" She said as she picked up the picture of them at the river



*but all i find is myself always thinking of you*








::from laney
ok, this wasn't my best chapter. i'm sorry for giving you this horrible chapter, but the second verse of this song is hard to write about.

oh! and there is ONE more chapter left.