Disclaimer: I don't own Roswell and if I did I'd be in bed right now hmm..

Authors notes: Hope you like this update! ~*~*~*~

~*~*~Maria~*~*~

God I have to stop thinking of him. Lately its like he's calling out to me.

Working is the only time I don't feel anything luckily for me its made me a feel successful person.

Sometimes I just don't know what to do but working keeps my mind off the outside world.

Its already 4:30 and I guess I should go home since I have to be up at 7 to get back to work for a meeting.

I pull into our driveway Kyle's lights on he must be working out still.

"Mar is that you?" He calls when I open the door.

"Yup." I say putting the code in.

"Why'd you stay at work so late?"

"Had work to do."

"You always have work to do."

"I know I'm a busy girl."

"Oh."

"How's Liz?" I ask remembering her condition when I left.

"She's ok she feel asleep and hasn't woke up since."

"Will she be able to go to school tomorrow?" I asked.

"I don't think so she'll have a killer headache."

"I don't even know why I bother paying for her tuition anymore."

"Maria." He says with a stern voice.

"I know I know she loves me for it and she'll pay me back but its not about the money I mean she's my best friend. You'd think I'd be the one that would be like her needing her to support me while she works in some lab but its just god she's not the girl I used to know."

"I know. None of us are."

"And I blame them each and every day for it." I say truthfully because its true if I'd never meet him or them our lives wouldn't be like this we wouldn't be the shells of people we once were.

But then I remember if we hadn't meet them I might not have a best friend anymore.

"We have to move on. You have to remember Mar that their not to blame we knew when we got involved their main goal was to leave to go home."

"But he said he loved me I mean me the loser side kick. You know its funny every guy who's told me they loved me has left me."

"Maria I love you you're my little sister." He said pulling me into hug.

"I know but I loved him and he left me here. And now I'm incomplete and it's his fault."

"Hush I'll put you to bed a good nights rest and you'll be ok."

"Thanks Kyle."

"Anytime" He tells me I'm glad our parents got married he's the best brother a girl could have. He's the only one I truly let see just how much I am hurting.