Author's Note: Written late one night while I was working on a cosplay outfit, this monologue is based on the "what was Aya thinking as he watched the tower come down in WKG episode 12" premise.

Probably written in a journal after the moment...or perhaps it was what he was thinking of at the end of the series...

In any case...

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Do you know what you do to me? How you make me feel? Do you, in any way, understand why I love you?

I'm not sure you can, but truth be told, I don't care. You were the one that always prodded me to open up, always wanted me to be what I felt I couldn't be. You were the one who always smiled at me...who I could feel always loved me even if I couldn't show you how I felt.

But now it's too late, isn't it? You're gone and Weiß--my only family since my sister--may as well think me dead.

My sister...I try to see her without her seeing me, you know, try to go back to the shop that we left, but I can't. At least she's still there...she's always there...

But you...Now I can't even see you any more.

I should have told you sooner, but I never knew how. Now I suppose I never will. You're gone...in the end, like my sister, I couldn't protect you.

And I keep on washing my hands in blood from the pain.

I'll never be something else. Without you around, I realize I'm only an empty shell.

Sayonara...Yohji...