Infinite Desolation
By: yukie-chan! you can email me at yukie_48@yahoo.com
Author's notes:
This is my first attempt to writing a death fic or maybe a angsty poem. I wrote this poem when I was really so lonely on one point of my life that I wanted to end everything but fortunately, it didn't turn out that way. I based this one on my experience with tsuzuki's thoughts.
* Tsuzuki's final sentiments before he killed himself.
~ * ~ * ~ * ~
The eternal blaze so blue,
The endless ocean so deep,
What more should I expect,
But desolation, persecution and anguish?
What have I done wrong?
Eyes of hate,
Hands of disgust,
Hearts so malevolent.
All I ever wanted,
Was to be loved.
But I guess I don't deserve it,
I couldn't save the ones I loved,
Nor did anything to stop their pain.
Whereas, I had suffered enough, have I?
Is my existence such a sin?
But still even if I live,
I'll still bear this cross of sin forever
And it's not my place to complain.
Thoughts of death and solemnity,
Pangs of hate,
Wounds of isolation,
Scars my whole life through.
If I hadn't lived,
Maybe they would have been glad.
My existence itself is a sin,
I am not human,
I do not deserve anything else
But death,
My only reverie of these chains.
The sky is clouded,
The burning rain is pouring down,
The winds blows me aback,
As it burns my life away.
The cold knife,
Seemed somewhat scary.
But it doesn't matter,
I'll die anyway.
A fraud,
A murderer,
A sinner,
Is all I can ever be.
The throbbing of my pulse,
The beat of my heart,
Makes me want to end it all at once.
My life is so miserable,
No one would cry for me,
Maybe they would have even be happy.
I gasp,
As blood gushes out of my wrist,
I know it is the end,
The end of this life,
Of this suffering,
Of this pain.
I smile,
I knew I would be released
From this somber prison,
Alas, I would be freed...
~ * ~ * ~ * ~
The end, or is it? Do you want me to continue?
Thanks for reading!
By: yukie-chan! you can email me at yukie_48@yahoo.com
Author's notes:
This is my first attempt to writing a death fic or maybe a angsty poem. I wrote this poem when I was really so lonely on one point of my life that I wanted to end everything but fortunately, it didn't turn out that way. I based this one on my experience with tsuzuki's thoughts.
* Tsuzuki's final sentiments before he killed himself.
~ * ~ * ~ * ~
The eternal blaze so blue,
The endless ocean so deep,
What more should I expect,
But desolation, persecution and anguish?
What have I done wrong?
Eyes of hate,
Hands of disgust,
Hearts so malevolent.
All I ever wanted,
Was to be loved.
But I guess I don't deserve it,
I couldn't save the ones I loved,
Nor did anything to stop their pain.
Whereas, I had suffered enough, have I?
Is my existence such a sin?
But still even if I live,
I'll still bear this cross of sin forever
And it's not my place to complain.
Thoughts of death and solemnity,
Pangs of hate,
Wounds of isolation,
Scars my whole life through.
If I hadn't lived,
Maybe they would have been glad.
My existence itself is a sin,
I am not human,
I do not deserve anything else
But death,
My only reverie of these chains.
The sky is clouded,
The burning rain is pouring down,
The winds blows me aback,
As it burns my life away.
The cold knife,
Seemed somewhat scary.
But it doesn't matter,
I'll die anyway.
A fraud,
A murderer,
A sinner,
Is all I can ever be.
The throbbing of my pulse,
The beat of my heart,
Makes me want to end it all at once.
My life is so miserable,
No one would cry for me,
Maybe they would have even be happy.
I gasp,
As blood gushes out of my wrist,
I know it is the end,
The end of this life,
Of this suffering,
Of this pain.
I smile,
I knew I would be released
From this somber prison,
Alas, I would be freed...
~ * ~ * ~ * ~
The end, or is it? Do you want me to continue?
Thanks for reading!
