The light

I see it

In you

It's like a tunnel; the brightness is at the end

But you have to watch out'

It could only be a train after all

I lean against the side of an anonymous car

School has been over for 20 minutes but I can't leave just yet

You stand oh so close

So close I think if I whispered your name

You'd hear

Please, hear me

I see you for the first time in months

Laugh

How joyous it sounds

                                                         

Maybe I had been wrong

About what I had thought would happen to you

Sooner or later

The darkness is such an addicting place

And once you're there, you think everyone on the track to it will end up here eventually

Not you

Oh, no

You were one of the lucky ones

I always knew you were strong

Enough

But will this happiness of yours last?

Is it just a front? To keep those around you oblivious

Of your real pain

I wonder

Too much actually

If I were in your life

Would anything in you change?

Would you talk to me with such kindness like you do with your brothers?

With your friends?

Would I even be under that category?

You're recovering; I can't lie about that, not to myself at least

So, why do I feel so left behind now?

You left me

Here in this damn place

Where everything is so screwed up, I can't make sense of anything

Not even this passion I feel for you

Yearn for you

Maybe this is all in my head

Although

This time

I need you

I don't need just "somebody"

It's you

Who can save me now?

I had said I was "gone" before but I'm not so sure anymore

Could I had only been drowning this whole time

And what I need is for someone to breath life into me

Please, let it be you

Only you

Save me, Ponyboy Curtis

Because now more than ever, I'm dying once again

Wanting to crawl away and never show my face

No one would notice if I were gone anyway!

I had said every person doesn't give a shit about you

Since they are to busy dealing with themselves.

Well, how about someone deal with me!!

Did anyone ever think of saving me!

Huh?

Of course not

Not the first time I had tried to leave this place

And not the second time

Especially, not now, when it's going to be the third

I stand up on my feet, not having the car supporting me any longer.

I wasn't going to have anyone support me this time

I take a deep breath

And I begin walking

Away from you

Away from the teenagers who are too busy socializing to notice the whole world changing around them

I close my eyes

Unnecessary tears forming on my pale cheeks

A wavy, dark lock of my hair falling over my forehead

I step onto the black gravel road

Cars pass me from left to right

Can't they even see me!?

I outstretch my arms and I throw my head back

The warm sun shining over me, I feel it against my face

Against my body

Such a beautiful day

For such a pathetic death

Suicide you might call it

I've done it before, tried too

But people whole me back

Or is it just myself?

I can hear commotion riling all around me

The voices come off more like the buzzing of bees

My eyes open when I hear the beeping of a car

And as I put my head forward, I see it coming

Oh, it's coming all right

And as the driver hits the breaks, it keeps going

Life is such a wonderful thing

For some people that is

I truly believe that

I wasn't one of them

I thought you weren't either, Pony

But under it all, you deserve to be here

Most of all

You deserve to live a happy one

Enjoy what you got left of this world

Of this time

Because one day, it could all change

Like today

Life is just….

I'm whisked away by a sharp blow suddenly

Another body colliding with mines, almost trampling me

I fall onto the side of the road

My shoulder hitting it's self-hard against it

Strong yet overbearing arms are wrapped around me

My face contorted in shock ness yet anger exploding

And I begin hitting the person

I was stopped yet again

Didn't anyone realize that I hated being here!

Couldn't I just be another stupid teen who had been to weak and beyond help?

So many of them

I'd be loss in the count

My cheeks are flushed furiously

I'm crying

Almost violently

Even as I hit harder and harder at the chest that is so close to mines

The arms never let go of me

I roll my head from side to side

"Leave me, leave me!" I'm screaming so loudly that it's deafening to me

His soothing whispers wash over my cries as the strength in me slips away

I bury my face in this stranger's chest

"…..Somebody save me" I murmur

"I have" He replies

I gaze wondrously

My vision trailing it's way higher to meet those

Indolent eyes

Those eyes that I have noticed constantly

That spark is in them again

I touch his face so softly

My fingers trace his features and his eyes follow them

I never known completeness

Like being here

I'm wrapped in the warmth of you

Here my heart knows calm for the first time

I wish this moment could last forever

I wish I could stay here with you for an eternity

It hit me

All I've known

All I've done

All I've felt

Was leading up to this

"…..Ponyboy"

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