I had the chance for a new beginning. But I threw it away. People say I am a monster and yet I don't care. He gave me a chance to think maybe there was hope but the truth is no one is there to catch when I fall. So I have given up on trying to stand. People think I'm happy that my shoulder will always be there for them to cry on. But they don't see the real me the one who is dead inside but I guess that is meant to be. But he saw through past my façade of not caring, he saw that I was hurting and tried to help me but in the end he betrayed like all the others. I was once a girl that would smile at most things. But now I am the girl who contemplates suicide. And yet I pray for someone anyone to save me from this life. Even if it is the traitor.
I betrayed her and I knew that I was her last hope but I left her. Now I see her every day at school and watch as she slowly but surly with every word spoken dies more inside. I want to help her but she won't let me try. I have failed and I know that nobody else cares that she is going to take her life. I have seen it in the way she fights. She leaves her self-open to so much risk like she doesn't care. It hurts me so damn much. Why can't she see I'm sorry?
Why can't he see that I want his help so much? But I'm scared to let him in, why can't he see that I don't want to be alone?
I know I may fail but I have to try. Its not right to see this beautiful creature wither and die. I see how her friend's treat her but I know they don't care all they want is to use her.
He is looking at me again it is not right he is above me he had every right to leave me in this black abyss. A lot think I am hurting because I trusted him but they don't understand. He is not the one to blame I am.
No I thought I had more time. I saw today the signs of the major decline. She used to not care about her powers but ever since I betrayed her she has covered up. Now I know why it's to hide to hide from the world that dose not care that she has taken a step further to destruction. Why oh god why is this happening to her?
I can't take it anymore this has to end. I will no longer be a burden.
Something is wrong I can tell. I haven't seen her all day now I am worried no one knows where she is and they don't seem to care. I felt a chill run down my spine and I knew that she had taken the ultimate step and I had to find her NOW!!!! I sped through the entire town and there was no sign of her anywhere. But then I came to the bridge where I betrayed her and I found her but it was already to late. The only thing left I had was a note that said:
I will no longer be a burden.

Rogue