#17
I look down at you,
So small, so fragile,
So innocent.
I think about the first time we met,
I was such a jackass.
You were so kind to me,
To someone who doesn't deserve kindness.
You constantly came to me,
For no reason at all.
I enjoyed your company,
Most of the time.
But you always tried to please me,
And make me happy.
Someone like me doesn't deserve happiness,
Someone like me doesn't deserve you.
I lay here,
Looking at you,
Tears fill my eyes.
I run my fingers along your back,
Skin so smooth, frame so slight,
More tears,
Now streaming down my face.
You look…so happy,
So peaceful.
I can't believe how much has changed,
How much I've changed.
Even when I was cold to you,
You stayed warm,
And came back to make me warm.
I brush your hair from your face,
You stir,
And I retract my hand quickly.
I want to hold you,
Close to me,
I want to hold that moment forever.
"You can be cute",
I always said.
Cute, adorable, sweet, kind…perfect,
You are that and more.
That rush of pink,
The vibrancy, I guess…has grown on me.
When you chased after me,
Calling my name,
I kept walking,
But my heart didn't move.
Again, you stir,
I want to wake you,
To tell you…
But I still my hand.
This has happened so quickly,
So suddenly,
I don't know how to react.
I guess you know,
But you're waiting for me.
How long will it take?
To think about happy I could be,
Never would have thought this before,
Everything…you've changed everything.
Now I can smile,
Laugh,
At all the stupid things you do.
You turn, and I can see the outline of your fair body,
How did something so precious,
Fall into my hands?
You seem like sand,
Slowly slipping through my fingers.
I'm trying to hold you,
But it seems that these hands cannot hold something so fine,
So small,
So pure.
When your face lights up,
I cannot help but smile.
You just want to be with me,
But what can I give you,
What makes you stay?
I will never stop trying to understand you,
To understand myself.
I will try harder,
To make you happy,
As you have done for me.
I never want you to cry,
To hurt,
To feel alone.
I think I'm ready now,
It's about time.
I look upon your beautiful face,
I smile.
Finally I can say these words,
Shuichi…I…I love you.
I not you cannot hear those words,
But I'm glad I said them.
I sigh, and you roll sleepily onto you back,
I move myself to see your face,
So peaceful.
For the first time tonight,
I see your eyes open…"Yuki"…
And I kiss you.
