Fire and Ice


A/N This is just something I thought up in my spair time while I was
sick and hyped up (or maybe down) on Benadryl. If this is utterly
vomitable or wrong or kinda insane, I blame the Benadryl. I'm just
going to type, so I don't know how this will turn out. I'm going to
try to do something romantic and perhaps sappy for all you out there
who like me love sappy romances!!! Please review!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Ice~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
They know nothing about me. Not even Usagi, me dearest friend,
knows the real Ami Mizuno.

They don't know how I yearn for what they have...love, happiness,
beauty, carefreeness. I will never have any of these.

I have put so much pressure on myself. Pressure to be perfect, to
be intelligent, to behave. All I really want is to be myself. To
show them the real Ami. To run wild and free.

But alas...I can't. I have created a wall around myself. An
inpenatrable wall. One that not even I can penetrate.

How I wish to be set free. To be loose of the binds that hold me
down. Then I could be myself. I could show them all the Ami that
I know they would love as much as I would.

But I, so cowardly, won't try, for fear of being unsuccessful.

Instead I will say goodbye to the world, which has harshly judged
me, and frozen me.

I stand in the cold of the grove of trees in which I spend my quiet
time, holding the knife to my wrist.

'With one swift stroke I can end all the pain' I told myself.

And one swift stroke was all it took. Ami felt the darkness creep
up and grip her. She fainted away from conciousness.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Fire~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Ami felt fingers tenderly stroking her hair. She looked up into
Rei's deep, knowing eyes.

"Ami-chan! You're okay!"

Ami sat up and looked around blearily wondering what had happened. Then it came flooding back to her. She glanced at her surroundings in
confusion.

"This doesn't look like my mother's hospital."

"That's because you aren't at a hospital. I found you in your
grove and brought you to the shrine. You didn't slit all the way down to the vein. As far as I can tell, it was the pain that made you slip away. Not blood-loss"

"I'm not that weak."

"I wasn't limiting it to physical. I was talking about the mental
pain, Ami-chan"

"How did you know?"

"Well...For weeks I've been sensing unrest in you. You may not
realize it, but I usually know when one of you are feeling pain inside
I've always sensed it even stronger in you Ami. Something told me
today to go and check on you. I'm glad that I didn't just brush off
the feeling."

"Thank you Rei-chan. Thank you for saving me."

"Please Ami-chan. I know something is bothering you! You can't
hide your emotions from me! Please just be yourself for once! I know
that you aren't just quiet little Ami. I've always been able to
feel the emotions raging inside of you. Just let it out!"

Ami looked up at Rei and started to shudder uncontrolably. The
tears started to fall down in waterfalls of emotion.

Rei embraced Ami close to her and tryed to soothe her.

"It's okay, Ami-chan. I'm here"

Ami started to calm down a little. The shuddering ceased and her
breathing became more controlled.

"Rei-chan...I don't know why I havn't seen it before...you've
always been there when I needed you."

"And I always will be Ami-chan"




A/NSo what did ya think? Totally horrible? Pretty good? Somewhere
in between? Please R&R! hehe...wasn't psychotic at all...