Once again, it sadden me to say….I don't {sniffle} own DBZ {sniffle} or Vegeta and Kakarott {bawling}.

Authors notes. Look Look!!! I have A/N {hums happily to hamster sitting on shoulder }

YAOI YAOI YAOI YAOI Get the point. Kind of limeish right now.

I don't think I mention it before. This will be AU. This work of fanfiction, is my interruption…..of how things might have been. Had the gentle, "Earth Raised Saiyan" and the cruel "Sayian Prince" been more than just *Rivals * Being the last two known Saiyans in the universe, they would have an uncanny attraction to one another.

You may find Goku thoughts and actions a little out of character…….That's the point. Vegeta has been driving him crazy for years!!!! LOL!!!!

Sorry! It's sort of long. There was a lot I wanted to write. I thought about making this chapter into two chapters{huh?} But as you can see I chosed not to. I wanted to get Goku's thoughts out in one chapter. Then I can work on Vegeta's{sigh's}. Seriously!!!!! Let me know if you think this chapter is too long. I'll make no promises concerning Vegeta's POV. But, I could shorten any other chapters that may follow.

A moment to thank the ones who were kind enough to read and review the prologue.
Madison thanks a lot. Aren't hamsters enough? Now you must threaten me with Chiaotzu. Tell Vegeta to just wait. He'll get his! Mwahahahahahaha!!!!! Venni: WOW! Thanks I didn't realize my reviews were so good. Thanks to the other as well. Virander, Leiko, Nathaly, Venna, vegeta's bitch{hmmm} Sea Storm, Lrya Z Chan, dynatron, Guitar Daughter of Piccolo. Now for LadyHiei-Trunks. You know, what is it with you people and doll-boy? Keep it up.{chioatzu eww, shudders} I will take away your Yu Yu Hakusho!!! And your precious Hiei. I'm the parent, hahaha I can do that.





Chapter one: Patience's

Goku/Kakarott's POV




Here I sit on the edge of my bed trying to catch my breath…..after another dream with Vegeta . I know there'll be no more sleep for me this night. There never is, on the nights I have this dream. I couldn't take much more. I knew it. What was I going to do. I look down at my side to see I was clutching the sheet so tightly I had white knuckles. Kami! Look how Vegeta frustrates me! I had to think. First I needed to relax. Glancing down I remembered…..I needed a shower. A warm showers just what I needed I adjusted the water temperature then stepped into the shower.

Ahhhh….. I was right feels good! I lend my forehead against the cool tile of the shower wall. The warm water cascading down my muscular back. I can feel the muscles relaxing. I close my eyes enjoying the feel of the water running down my body. Then suddenly I see Vegeta standing before my eyes. Oh, Kami!! It's his hands running over my body not the water. I can't think. I feel my legs so weak. I collapse to my knees. I raise my head. I was alone. Vegeta was never there. It was all in my mind. I finishes my shower, quickly. That's it! I can't take any more! My desire for Vegeta is driving me insane. As I'm getting dress I wonder, when had it started , just how long have I had this desire for Vegeta? My thoughts slip back to the past. Then my mind fixed on the one that was the cause of all my misery…Vegeta.

****Flashback***** well sort of…????

I want to say that it had started just a few years ago., right after my wife had died of natural causes. I knew that would be a lie. It had started many, many years before. The first time I had laid eyes on the other Saiyan, I had felt a pull, deep inside myself. I just hadn't realized at the time, what that pull had been.

He had came as a enemy, and the enemy had a name. Vegeta. Vegeta or his companion had killed or caused the death of several of my friends. Hell! He had even come very close to killing me. If it had not been for my best friend and my son not to mention a sneaky samurai, I, myself would have died that day. But, they were there and together we defeated Vegeta. Even though Vegeta , had came to steal the dragon balls and destroy the planet. I couldn't let my best friend kill him as he crawled to his space pod trying to escape. I couldn't say why at the time. I just knew I couldn't let this man die. I begged Krillen to show mercy and let Vegeta live. He didn't want to, he thought I was making a mistake. In the end however Krillen spared Vegeta's life'

Later however. On Planet Namek Vegeta die anyway. Killed by the very one who had tortured and enslaved him for most of his life. I, myself had gentle picked up the murdered warrior. Holding him for a moment in my arms. He was dead. I would never know him. Showing respect for the fallen warrior I buried him in a shallow grave. Not understanding the pain I felt in my heart. The rage inside of me grew. Vegeta's death as well as Krillens had pushed my grief and anger beyond my limits causing my transformation to Super Saiyan.

Fortunately all those killed by Freiza, were revived by Earth's dragon balls, included Vegeta. Yes I remember how pleased I was. How my heart fluttered when I saw he had been wished back as well. No time now to think about it. I'm in the middle of the fight of my life. With the Namek dragon balls everyone on Namek was wished back to Earth, except myself and Freiza. A battle ensured. Miraculously I was victorious. I had won the battle or so I thought.

Once I returned to Earth I was surprised but, pleased to see Vegeta. I felt my heart skip a beat. Even if Vegeta's only reason to stay was to get stronger and kill me. Still he looked good in that pink shirt. I wonder to myself where that thought had come from. I did after all have a wife and son. Still I couldn't help what I felt each time Vegeta was near. Also on my return to Earth I was greeted by a teenage boy claiming to be from the future. This teenager was also a Super Saiyan. This young man looked so familiar, yet I couldn't place where I had seen him before. As the two Super Saiyan spoke privately. The young man identified himself as Trunks, future son of Vegeta and Bulma. That explained why Trunks looked familiar. He looked just like his father except for his coloring. I was disappointed I felt betrayed, Wait a minute am I jealousy ? I have no right to be. Vegeta needed someone. I learned also that day, about the heart virus I would get and the arrival of the Androids.


For three years all of the Z fighters trained for the coming threat. I never got a chance to see Vegeta , though I often thought of him. The time had come, three years had pasted . We all meet at the previously designated spot to await the arrival of the Androids. Although Vegeta was not present. Bulma was there holding Vegeta's infant son Trunks in her arms. "Where is Vegeta someone asked? Bulma said she didn't know. That Vegeta had left the planet shortly after she had conceived Trunks. I remember the joy that filled my heart as she spoke those words. Maybe Vegeta doesn't love Bulma? What was it future Trunks had said? "It didn't last long it was more of a passion thing." I still had a chance….for what I wasn't sure. All I knew was that Vegeta may not be tied to Bulma. Totally forgetting the ties I had…binding me. There is an explosion! Not the time for this now. Battle mode takes over …..I wondered where Vegeta was. Then I buried all other thoughts of him in the back of my mind.

It was not going well! I was losing energy fast! I kept getting this excruciating pain in my chest. It felt like someone was stabbing me with a knife and then twisting the blade. I even went as fall as eating a sensu bean during a fight. Still, it wasn't enough, the pain was still unbearable. I knew I wouldn't last long. After Android 19 got his hands around my throat I knew it was over. I could feel my life slipping away ever so slowly. My energy being drain by 19. I was starting to pass out. Then I felt the hands leave my throat, I could breathe. Yet the darkness is over powering. I'm on the verge of losing consciousness . Must get up, protect the others. Someone is standing over me, I can feel their presence. I can't move. My eyes glance up…..I had never before felt such happiness at seeing another person. Vegeta stood over me in all his glory. He was different. In my state of mind it didn't matter. He was here. He was with me. I knew the others and myself were safe. I gave in to the darkness and surrendered to the pain.

When I woke, I found myself not on the battlefield but at Roshi's lying on a bed. The first thing I did is search for Ki. Good everyone's still alive. "Ah…there he is. Alone. In the middle of nowhere. I need to see him! First I have some pent up energy that needs released." I head down to the shore and let go with some Ki blasts. Testing my strength, not what it should be. Need to work on that. Vegeta could help me? I had the perfect plan. Now to see Vegeta. Although I wanted to see Vegeta alone, Miria Trunks also wished to see his father. Trunks had told me what had happened after I was taken home. WOW!! Vegeta's a Super Saiyan too. That was amazing. But as Trunks pointed out….not amazing enough. Android 18 had defeated Vegeta. Trunks was worry about his father. So was I. . I instant transmission us to Vegeta's location.

I wasn't sure he knew that we where there. He was so still. Yet he seemed to be trembling at the same time. I had never felt such anger and hatred radiate from anyone before. I paused....unsure, then I felt it. All this anger and hatred was not directed at me and Trunks but at the very man before us…Vegeta himself. Then he spoke. "What do you want Kakarott? Why is the brat here"?

I proceed to explain to him my idea of using the hyperbolic time chamber to enhance our training. Inside this room we could get one year of training in just one day. He seemed to relax slightly as he thought over my proposal. I was so focus on Vegeta I had forgotten about Trunks. "I think that's a great idea. I could train with my father and you could train with Gohan" Inwardly I groaned. I had wanted to spend the year alone with Vegeta. It's like I was obsessed with him. He's not the happiest person to be around. In fact the only time he could recall seeing Vegeta happy was when he was killing or destroying . Bur I knew there was more to Vegeta then death and destruction I remember how much I wanted to be with Vegeta. To console him, hold him. However, there were more important things to focus on….at this time. I reluctantly, once again sent thoughts of Vegeta to the back of my mind.

It would take all of us to defeat these Androids. Their power seemed limitless. In our current state, we were no match for the Androids. We had to get stronger. The Time Chamber would definitely help in that area. I knew Trunks had never known his father. In his time-line Vegeta had been killed by the Androids when he was still a baby. Looking at the young man I saw his desire. The longing of a son to know his father. What else could I do….. Trunks entered the room of time with his father. So I waited. I also thought it would do Vegeta a lot of good. Get to know the man , his son had become. Vegeta didn't seem to care one way or the other. All that concerned him was getting stronger. Beating the Androids. And, of course…..killing me! I really don't understand why he hates me so much. There have been times when I caught him staring at me….There was more than just the hate. I could feel it…I wondered if he did as well?

In the end it had not been enough! It could have been but, Damn it!!! Vegeta just had to let Cell absorb Android 18. Vegeta had been fighting with his "Pride" instead of his "common sense". He could have easily defeat Cell. Then it would have been over. But, noooooo….Damn! that"Pride" of his. He allowed…. no allowed is not accurate. He assisted Cell by distracting Trunks. Yes, that's more accurate. Giving Cell time to find and absorb 18. Then Vegeta got his ass kicked! He was carried unconscious, back to the Lookout by his son. Cell had told Trunks to spread the word. In seven days, there would be a Tournament. Cell would take on all fighters brave enough to show up. The "Prize" non-destruction of the planet! If Cell won….he would destroy the Earth. That couldn't be allowed. No matter what it took Cell had to be stopped! We had all gotten a lot stronger. My son, Gohan had even surpassed my power level. I knew if I couldn't stop Cell, Gohan could.

I had been right, but at a price. Gohan did defeat Cell, with help from Vegeta. But, not before I sacrificed my life to stop Cell from blowing up the Planet!

The fight was not going well at least for our side. Gohan was getting tired. He had played around with Cell to long and had lost a lot of energy. Cell was furious , he began to power up and expand. HE WAS GOING TO DESTROY THE PLANET NOW!!!!!!! What were we going to do? I looked around at all my friends. They stood there in shock! All except Vegeta. Ah!! Vegeta! He stood there, fist clenched and body trembling from the pent up anger inside of him. Then it came to me. I could use Instant Transmission and take Cell off Planet and let him explode. I looked at Vegeta again…..I couldn't let him die…not again. I had to save him….as well as the Planet. I saw it in his eyes. He knew what I was about to do. There was panic, fear and something else, perhaps regret. He opened his mouth to speak but I beat him to it. "I'm sorry Vegeta. There's no other way". Then I was gone…literally!

Despite the fact that I was now dead….again and had taken King Kai and His Planet with me, still Cell lived. I had to watch the rest of the battle from OtherWorld. I had failed to save them….him. I watched in horror as Cell sent a blast straight though Trunks chest. Trunks was dead before his body hit the ground. Like those watching below, I was stunned. Then it happened. Vegeta screamed and started to power up. In his eyes you could see the pain and anger he was feeling from the murder of his son. Vegeta, totally went ballistic and attacked Cell. Although his pain and anger weren't enough to defeat Cell, his attack gave Gohan time to gather his energy. The blast from Gohan finally puts a end to Cell. Cell would not return this time. The Earth was safe once again. Even though Gohan got the credit. Without the fury of Vegeta's attacks to distract Cell, Gohan would not have had the time to gather enough energy for the killing blow. Cell would have killed them all then blew up the Planet. I say it was a team effort.

They wished Trunks back with the dragon balls. They were going to wish me back as well…when I stopped them. I remember thinking * this is all my fault, everything that had happened…all the deaths and destruction ….my fault* If I had stopped Dr. Gero all those years ago when I was child…..none of this would have happened. My enemies were powerful. As long as I was alive the Earth and my friends would be in danger. As much as I would miss my loved ones, Vegeta immediately comes to mind. Why Vegeta? Why not my wife? Hn, even when I'm dead he plagues me. I decided to stay dead at least for a while. I knew he was angry. No...he's always angry. Now, he was furious!! Why? Mad that he didn't get to kill me. Or maybe he might miss me?

End Flashback

A loud rumbling noise breaks the silence. My mind returns to the present. Yes a lot of time has past since then. We've both changed. But I'm still not sure if what I want is possible. My stomach has my attention now. My one true weakness…..food! Besides…I smile….I think better on a full stomach. Everyone knows Breakfast is the most important meal of the day. {author sweat drops}.

I head down to the kitchen and start breakfast. I wonder what Vegeta's having for breakfast? A groan escapes my lips. " Can't I go more then five minutes without thinking about him? I guess not, when he's all I can think about.

I've finished cooking breakfast. I sit down to eat. I have the fork poised and ready. I STOP! Something didn't feel right. I sit the fork down. Using my Ki I searched for any new or unusual power levels. Perhaps a new threat! Wouldn't that be nice? What am I thinking? Well….it has been quite for the last several years. A little excitement would be welcome. Ah, nothing, let me check on the guys. Vegeta's at Capsule Corp. A little agitated….nothing unusual. Gohan's in his classroom I'm assuming getting ready to teach his class. Several miles away Piccolo was meditating. Goten was with Trunks. No surprise there. Those two were always together. I find it a little ironic that the sons are closer than the fathers, may ever be. Everything seems normal. I finish my breakfast. Maybe I'll ask Vegeta when we spar this afternoon, he had felt anything?

I always, look forward to our sparring. I can get close to him. I can touch his powerful body. I feel the heat rise in my checks as something else is on the rise. It feels like fire is flowing though my veins! Kami! I need to get a grip! It's never been this bad before. I can't stop thinking about him. It's like I need to hold on to him….physically. This doesn't make any sense? I can't just pop up every time I think of him.{oh, two meanings here}.

I went about doing mundane household chores. Today would be the day. I will tell Vegeta how I feel. I'll try to anyway. But how? There was the up front approach….Vegeta, I love you…. Ya right! And when I regain consciousness he'll still be laughing. No! That wouldn't work. I know, approach the subject hypothetically……see his response to males being mates. No wait…that won't work either. He will probably just rant about how disgusting two males being together would be. How it would sicken him. I don't think I could stand to hear that response. I could always beat him into submission! I am physically stronger then he is. It would be a glorious battle. He wouldn't submit easily. Vegeta would give it his all. But, what if Vegeta chose death over submission to a third class Baka. That feelings back! I wonder could this feeling be connect to Vegeta? I've been thinking of him both times I've had this feeling. I glance up at the clock. Time to go. I don't want to keep Vegeta waiting. I'll figure something out to say on the way. Or maybe it will just come to me?

I decided to fly, so I'll have more time to think. I flare my Ki and head to our usual sparring grounds. I land. Vegeta's not here yet. I decided to do some warn-up exercises while I wait. I wait. And I wait. I begin to wonder if he forgot about our sparring session? Not likely. Vegeta also looked forward to our spars. So, where was he? I extend my senses searching for Vegeta's ki…………I try again………. It's gone!! I immediately focus on Trunks ki. I appear right in front of the lavender haired demi-Saiyan. "Where's Vegeta" I ask him. As he stumbles backwards, he looks at me like I have two heads or something. Hell! It's a simple question. I grab his shoulders and start to shake him. I should have listened to my instincts. I knew something was wrong. I ignored it. "WHERE IS YOU FATHER" I shout at Trunks. "Goku stop" Trunks growls. I realize what I was doing and released him. "Gomen Trunks. I can't find Vegeta's Ki signature anywhere. This apologetic look crosses Trunk's face. "Have you checked in space" he asked. I feel my mouth drop open. Why would I check in space? Then it hits me. I extended my search to space……"Nooooooooooooooooooooooooo !!!!!"


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