Monologue
By Cassandra Sisenta
A/N: And after how many years?? I finally end this fic!! It's not the best ending, I know. GWAH!! Anyway, before I go, if you're reading this and you also happen to be a supporter of Kag/Sess pairing or have read my two fics featuring them "Love Antique" and "Fly Me to the Moon" then I'd really like you're support. See, these fics were nominated at the "Annual Single Spark Fanfiction Awards" for four categories (Best One Shot, Best Over All Fic and Best Sesshoumaru Portrayal for "Fly Me to the Moon" and Best Kagome Portrayal for "Love Antique") and I'd really be grateful for your support! Just click this link: then vote! Only vote once though. ^_^ I wouldn't want to be disqualified.
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And without further ado, here's the last chapter of "Monologue"!
Chapter III
Them
The hanyou did not want to think about it.
If he thought about it, he would begin justifying things and the last thing he wanted was to act upon those feelings, which was the only way to appease his conscience and his sanity.
No, he couldn't.
Not Kagome.
How could he forget what happened to Kikyo. She was the prime example and another reason why he shouldn't go on and tell Kagome that he couldn't live without her now.
And so, hardening himself up once more, he drew himself up to his full height and stared unyieldingly into the violent eyes that waited for his answer.
But before he could even make a sound, the human said, "You're not doing it are you?"
The hanyou sniffed arrogantly as he got up from the boulder to leave.
"So you humans do know something after all."
"And you youkai are even bigger cowards than I thought."
The hanyou didn't rise to the barb for once, he merely continued on walking away.
"Shut up. You know nothing."
"And you are being an imbecile. Look at me."
The human's tone spoke of something that made him want to do exactly as he said, and the hanyou turned. For the hanyou, he thought he was just humoring him.
The human had stood as he had when he avoided the blow of the Tetsusaiga. The moon's light fell across his features and the expression on his face was serious. When he spoke, his voice was strong and clear.
"You'll regret doing this, hanyou. Mark my words. She isn't a toy and I know that she's just waiting for you to say something.
"If you really decide to be an idiot then go ahead and tell her that you wouldn't have her. It would be easier to see her hurt once than see her pining away for something she couldn't have all her life.
"She loves us you know."
Their gazes clashed once more.
Violet and gold.
"Are you finished now?"
Violet eyes narrowed and a mouth settled into a firm line.
"You'll never see me again."
And he just disappeared. Just like that. No smoke, no lights, no fading, no sound. It's just like blinking one second then everything is changed forever.
Inuyasha sighed and he once more asked himself if everything that happened was just a dream.
Yeah, that must be it. I knew that. Just another stupid dream.
I need to get some sleep.
His sensitive dog-ears picked up a rustling in the nearby bushes and he immediately tensed.
He relaxed when he heard her voice calling his name.
"Inuyasha? Are you here?"
He watched her emerge like a spirit from the dark bushes as she smiled when her gaze fell on him.
"What do you want?" He asked, turning away to go back to the now unoccupied boulder. He could hear her following him.
"I just wanted to say sorry."
He sat down on the boulder to look at her apologetically smiling face. When he didn't say anything, she took it upon herself to sit down beside him.
She noticed his silence and she couldn't help but wonder what could be bothering him. She had known Inuyasha for some time now and she knew that there would have to be some really big problem if he was brooding like this. Then her blue gray eyes fell on his bleeding hand.
The hanyou almost jumped when he heard her gasp.
"Inuyasha!" Her hand felt soft when she took his…he tried his best to let that thought just slip his mind just like all those other thoughts of her hair, her eyes, everything.
"What did you do to yourself?"
He could hear the panic in her voice and see the tension in her frail body.
He looked at her again and once more marveled at the strength and power that resided in her. She was a human, yes a powerful one at that, but still. With just a single blow she could fall. With a good amount of poison she could die.
How could she have the strength to care for others rather than herself?
"Leave it Kagome."
"But Inu—"
"I said leave it."
She shrunk back when she heard the lethal edge in his voice. It was something she had never heard before. Sure, she always was the receiving end of his hot rage and his sarcasm but she never heard him use that tone on her.
He saw her start and the disbelief clearly visible in her eyes. He hadn't meant to be so gruff but her concern wasn't needed. She didn't need to waste it on him.
He was unworthy of her.
He was something she mustn't even touch with her purity.
"No."
He should have known she would argue. She had always been stubborn.
He looked up when he felt her begin to bind his hand with a piece of bandage. Her dark eyes were fixed sternly on him, daring him to pull his hand away. He sighed.
"If you think for one minute that I am leaving this unattended even if you do heal faster you are badly mistaken Mister!"
Once more he didn't answer. He allowed her to tend to his hand wound.
"I can't understand why you keep on doing this to yourself. Don't you care about anything at all?"
Her gestures were swift and enraged but for some reason they were still caring and meticulous in the same light.
And as if inhabited by something totally foreign, Inuyasha, the hanyou, murmured in a soft voice,
"I care about you."
The words immediately put a stop to whatever she was doing. It was as if she shut down completely.
Her misty blue gray eyes were wide with question and shock and he wouldn't blame her.
Something in him had shifted and had taken control without him knowing and for that single moment, he was as human as she was.
"We should get some sleep. We have a long way ahead of us."
His bandaged hand was held out to her and she hesitated for a moment before taking it.
Together they walked back to the camp they shared with their friends, totally unaware of the amused violet eyes watching them from the shadows to only then disappear in a blink of an eye as if nothing was there.
