Disclaimer: The characters in this story belongs to Meg Cabot, except Devin Shepard, Ms. Smiddy and Courtney Davis are mine. The song ADDICTED belongs to the band Simple Plan.

Summary: The first day of school, Hell is still lose and running around! I can't really say too much without give the whole chapter away.

A/N: To anyone who reviewed your great! Thanks!
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ADDICTED

I heard you were doing okay
but I want you to know
I'm a dick
I'm addicted to you
I can't pretend I don't care
when you don't think about me
do you think I deserve this?
I tried to make you happy but you left anyway
I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
but I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you
now it's over
I can't forget what you said
and I wanna do this again
Heartbreaker......heartbreaker
Since the day I met you
and after all we've been though
I'm still a dick
I addicted to you
do you think I deserve this?
I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
just to keep you
but you left anyway
how long will I be waiting
until the end of time
I don't know why
I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine
Heartbreaker....Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you

~Chapter 5: Addicted~

Mia's pov:

Well, it's the first day of school, sounds like the most fun doesn't it! I'm so not looking forward to it. Michael and I aren't speaking to each other. Which it's mostly my fault why we aren't speaking. I don't care if I never talk to him again! he suck a liar, he told me that he would always be true to me. The first chance he get's he's off doing God knows what to 'The Villege Whore'! He swears nothing happend. I know what I saw, and what I saw was him making out with Courtney. He can have her! It's not like I care anymore, well, maybe I do alittle. I have Devin and he's better than Michael anyday of the week because he doesn't lie to me. Who am I kidding? Maybe I'll convence myself of all that the next time I remind myself of all those factors.

I haven't told Devin where I went when I left the concert. I know that makes me dishonest and stuff. I know that if I tell him that he would probley break up with me, after all he is now my offical boyfriend. I'm really trying hard to make this relationship work. I guess Michael and I were just foolish to think that a relationship between us would work. I think that we are to diffrent.

The limo just pulled up outside of Michael and Lilly's appartment building. They were waiting outside along with Devin. Nobody said anything the entire way to school. I shot Michael a few icy glares. He kept giving me 'what' looks. Like he really doesn't know what!

Michael's pov:

I wish I could figure out what Mia's problem is. She won't talk to me, she won't return my phone calls or my emails, she blocked me from her instant messenger. I'll never understand women as long as I live. It's not like we were dating or anything when Courtney kissed me. Of course after reading her note I do know that she was wanting to get back with me. Still the point is I wasn't her boyfriend when Courtney kissed me! Might I bring up the fact that I was the "kissee" and not the "Kisser". I didn't want to kiss Courtney, that's like kissing everyone at A.E.H.S. This is just so frustrating.

When we got out of the limo at school, Devin went straight to the office, Lilly went to met Boris. Mia tried to walk quickly away from me. I pretty much had to run to catch up with her. She went straight to her locker (we have the same ones every year). "Would you quit following me?" she asked opening her locker and putting her things in it.

"Mia, let me explain." I said.

"What's there to explain? I can't tell you who you can and can't fuck! I'm not your girlfriend anymore, remember." She said bitterly.

That was so harsh, it was almost like she punched through my chest and ripped out my heart through in on the ground and stopped on it. "I didn't fuck her." Then in a lower voice so Lars couldn't hear, I said, "I have been with anyone but you. You know that." I said trying to fight back tears.

"You don't have to convence me of anything. Once more I remind you that I'm not your girlfriend. Like I said, it's not my buisness." She said.

"Look, I read your note. If the offer still stands...wait I take that back....hell....even if the offer doesn't stand, I want you to know that I feel the same."

"Here, this stuff's yours." she handed me a tape (it was of me singing Tall Glass of Water), a note book with my personal thoughts to her and about her, it also had all of our letters, movie stubbs, that kind stuff. It was almost like our whole relationship sumed up into a little book. Then slowly she took off the necklace and handed it to me. "I'll bring the rest of it to you this afternoon."

"Don't worry about it." I walked away from her. As I walked past a trash can I tossed the note book and tape in. I shoved the necklace in my pocket.

First period I had computer lab, we had gotten to school kinda early so I was the first one in the class. I made my way to the back of the class and set down. I barried my head in my hands and began to cry.

Mia's pov:

That didn't go well. That was completly not planned, I don't know what it is. I plan to tell Michael on thing and the complet opposite comes out. Luckly I managed to fish the notebook and tape from the trash. There are somethings written in that notebook that I wouldn't want to fall into the wrong hands. I definatly wouldn't want Lana Wienburger to find out Michael and my darkest, unknown moments. I feel like someone has crushed my heart into a million pieces. I don't like fighting with Michael, it hurts to bad. I feel like I'm sufficating. Why does love have to hurt so bad? "Mia, what's wrong?" Devin asked.

"Nothing, I'm fine." I lied.

"You don't look fine, you look like your about to cry. Are you sure everythings okay?" he asked sincerly.

"I'm fine! If it concerned you than I would tell you. Just leave me the fuck alone!" I snapped, then walked off in the direction of my 1st period class. It was English II, with Ms. Smiddy. I was happy, I had it with Lilly. "Mia are you okay?" she asked as she came in and set down beside me.

"I'm fine." Tears started to pour down my cheeks. "Why does everyone keep asking me that?"

"Well, because your crying." she said.

"I'm not crying. I'mhaving an allergic reaction to something in this room." I said crying harder. I hope that Lana doesn't walk in. That's all I need.

"Mia, I'm your best friend. You can tell me."

"Things are over between me and Michael. When I went to see him, that slutting Courtney Davis was there, they were kissing. We had a fight then, he said that nothing was going on with him and Courtney and I didn't belive him. I called him a liar to his face. Then today he tried to apologies again and I didn't listen. I told him he could fuck who he wanted to to. He said that he hadn't been with anyone but me, I knew that. Instead of listening to him, I was mean to him." I sniffled.

"Okay, I have to establish something, you had sex with my brother?" Lilly whispered so Lars, who was setting in the back of couldn't hear.

"I thought you knew." I wiped the tears from my eyes. I knew she was trying to ge my mind off of Michael and my fight.

"I assumbed, I never knew for sure. Okay, I don't want supsific details. I just wanna know when and where." Lilly said.

"The night of the Valentines Formal. We came back from the dance early. Your parents were at that convention thingy. We were the only ones there so it just happend, in his room." I explained.

"Another question, did it hurt?" Lilly blushed a little.

"The first two or three times. I thought you and Boris had along time ago." I whispered.

"We were going to, but I chickened out."

"I was afraid too. Its' a really big thing and it's so personal. If it's not with the right person, or at the right time, it's could ruin it."

"Do you regret it?"

"No, I don't."

At that Ms. Smiddy came in and started class.

Michael's pov:

This is weird, it's 5th period amazingly I have G & T again, with Lilly, Mia, and Boris. How the hell did that happen? It's almost like re-runs...like summer never did happen. I cme in and set down in my usual spot, by the window. I got out my lap top and began to play Free-Cell (CrackHead is already done for this month). To my suprise Mia came in and set down beside me. "Michael can we talk?" her voice sounded so sweet.

"I think that we said enough this morning." I continued the game.

"I didn't mean it. You told me that I could talk to you about anything, anytime." she said. "I wanted to say that I was sorry. I want us to be friends."

"You think it's that easy?" I stopped playing the game. "Mia what you said hurt me. It's going to take more than I'm sorry to fix this. Besides, I can't just be your friend, I need more than that from you. I'm so fucking in love with you."

"Michael, I don't understand why we can't be friends."

"Because it's simple. You happen to be dating one of my friends. I know that if we are friends, then I'm going to get tempted to try something with you. I can't do that to Devin. You got yourself into this mess with him, you have to get yourself out of it. I'll be waiting here until you do." Mia didn't say anything, she just walked over to where Lilly and Boris was setting.

Why do I have to be such and idiot? I've been asking myself that question a lot lately. I still dont' have the answer. I don't know why but I can't tell her how I feel, everything I say comes out wrong. Everytime one of us tries the other snaps. My attitued problem isn't helping the situation much. I can really be a dick sometimes. I'm usually a dick to other people. This is the first time I have ever been a dick to Mia.

Mia's pov:

Michael is being such an asshole. I don't even know why I fell in love with him anymore. He's being such a mean-head! He frustrates me so bad...and yet....it makes me what him more! Isn't that just disturbing! Okay back on subject, I thought he wanted to know if the offer was still good, well it is. I tried to tell him but it doesn't matter anymore. I give up! Michel and I....we just weren't ment to be. I still don't understand why. When I think about Michael and I being together everything just clicks, it's so right. It's not the same when it comes to me and Devin. "Are you okay?" Lilly asked.

"I'm cool." I answered.

"Boris go talk to Michael." Lilly said. At the snap of Lilly's fingers Boris was up and across the room. "Now we can talk."

"There's nothing to talk about. I quit! I'm tired of being vonerable and leaving myself open for rejection. I'm tired of having my heart stomped on by the one person that I truly love. If he wants to talk to me, he knows where to find me." I said.

"Mia he's hurting too. He's been happy since they day he broke up with you. Don't you see the pain when you look at him?" Lilly asked.

"Yeah, I do see it, everytime I look at him, I see that pain. I feel like my heart is being ripped out. Do you now what it's like being around the person that you love and having to hold those feelings back?"

"No, I don't." Lilly looked away. "I just don't want you to give up on something that you want."

"I can't make this relationship on my own." I fought back tears again. "He has to put in alittle effort too."

"Give him time."

"I feel bad about this morning."

"Don't worry about it."

"I yelled at Devin for no reason. Now he won't even talk to me."

"I think you like him alittle."

"I like him as a friend, that's about it. He's nice I wish we could find him a nice girl who could devote her whole heart to him." I said.

"You know, I might have the perfect canadiate for that. I know someone who likes him."

"Who?"

"Judith Gushner (A/N: I think that's spelled wrong.)

"Really, sweet, quite, smart, Judith" I became amused. I may not have like her when Michael and I first got together but she and I are kinda friends now.

"Yeah, she met him at the beganing of the summer. He kinda liked her too, then you came around and ruined everything for everyone."

"Funny."

Michael's pov:

Can't they understand that I want to be alone? Lilly sent Boris over here to talk to me. Can't they let me sulk in my addiction? My addiction of course being Mia. Infact, I'm going through with-drawls right now. You would think that I was coming off of a drug. I have all the classic symptoms: cronic pain, depression, insomnia, moodiness. I think that I may need to go to one of those De-Tox hospital things, just so I can get off of her. "What's goin' on?" Boris asked.

"Nothing, just thinking," I replied.

"About what? If you dont' mind me asking."

"Women! They are impossible!" I said.

"Yeah, i know how they can be. Hell, I'm dating Lilly. Do you know how difficult she can be?"

"Yeah, I've lived with her for nearly 16 years. Infact, I'm probley the reason she's so difficult. i mean our whole brother-sister relationship is staked on who can annoy the other the worst. I'm sorry for making your life horrible too."

"It's okay, it can be so frustrating sometimes. I mean Lilly on the outside has put up this wall. She doesn't let very many people in. I've been in only a few times and I have to say that it's a pleasent place."

"Yeah, I know, Mia was really pleasent too. Except, she was pleasent all the time. You know this is the first time we have ever fought."

"I'm used to fighting. Ofcourse, I'm dating Lilly.