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LANA:
We walk out into the moonlight farmlands, chatting aimlessly about trivial matters. Sometimes the conversation lapses into silence as we admire our surroundings. It feels so comfortable, so natural, but it's exhilarating as well. Just being this close to Clark makes my heart beat faster, my vision blur. I can't concentrate on my surroundings because all I want to do is study him, capture his face, his scent, and his touch forever in my mind.
I watch the way he walks with ease, his strong limbs making fluid movements. His mouth curves up into a heart-melting smile as he admires the beauty surrounding us. And all I can do is admire him. His warm blue eyes twinkle in the half light, moonlight playing across the strong, smooth planes of his face.
"Lana?" he asks, his voice full of concern.
"Yes Clark?" I answer.
"Are you alright, you seem. dazed. Is everything okay with you and Whitney?"
I can hear a sharp note of resentment in his voice as he mentions Whitney, but his face gives away nothing. Only his eyes deceive him, they a bright with passion and jealousy.
"Yes.no. I don't know. Maybe." I answer uncertainly.
"Ok, I'll take option E, all of the above." He says, lightening the mood.
"I just. I don't. I never have."
"What is it Lana? You can tell me, I can keep a secret."
Don't I know it. For as long as I've known Clark he's always been hiding something. Something that manages to keep us apart, no matter how close we get. But maybe it's not entirely Clark's fault, there are things I hide from him too. Like how I really feel about him, like how I really feel about Whitney.
"I don't love him. I never had. I just don't we to be alone again."
His eyes fill with concern as he grabs my shoulders and gives me a gentle shake, staring deep into my own eyes.
"Lana. You'll never be alone, I'll always be there for you. I promise I'll never leave you alone."
I feel a warmth flood over me as his voice soothes me. He always says the right thing.
"Oh Clark. you can always make me feel better." I smile up at him and wrap my arms around his tall frame.
Being held in his arms is the greatest feeling I can ever have. I feel so strong, so brave. It's like he lends me his strength so I can make it through the day. Shivers run down my spin as I feel his body next to mine. I could stay like this forever, but I can't. Dawn is breaking.
The orange and pink tinted light floods down on us as we make our way back to my house. Before I leave to crash back into bed Clark takes my hand and says seriously
"Lana, just follow your heart. Do what you have to. Think about yourself for a change, and make yourself happy. If you don't want to be with Whitney, then don't be with him. You can't please everyone."
And once again, Clark has said just what I was thinking. Maybe today I'll have the courage to truly follow my heart.
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LANA:
We walk out into the moonlight farmlands, chatting aimlessly about trivial matters. Sometimes the conversation lapses into silence as we admire our surroundings. It feels so comfortable, so natural, but it's exhilarating as well. Just being this close to Clark makes my heart beat faster, my vision blur. I can't concentrate on my surroundings because all I want to do is study him, capture his face, his scent, and his touch forever in my mind.
I watch the way he walks with ease, his strong limbs making fluid movements. His mouth curves up into a heart-melting smile as he admires the beauty surrounding us. And all I can do is admire him. His warm blue eyes twinkle in the half light, moonlight playing across the strong, smooth planes of his face.
"Lana?" he asks, his voice full of concern.
"Yes Clark?" I answer.
"Are you alright, you seem. dazed. Is everything okay with you and Whitney?"
I can hear a sharp note of resentment in his voice as he mentions Whitney, but his face gives away nothing. Only his eyes deceive him, they a bright with passion and jealousy.
"Yes.no. I don't know. Maybe." I answer uncertainly.
"Ok, I'll take option E, all of the above." He says, lightening the mood.
"I just. I don't. I never have."
"What is it Lana? You can tell me, I can keep a secret."
Don't I know it. For as long as I've known Clark he's always been hiding something. Something that manages to keep us apart, no matter how close we get. But maybe it's not entirely Clark's fault, there are things I hide from him too. Like how I really feel about him, like how I really feel about Whitney.
"I don't love him. I never had. I just don't we to be alone again."
His eyes fill with concern as he grabs my shoulders and gives me a gentle shake, staring deep into my own eyes.
"Lana. You'll never be alone, I'll always be there for you. I promise I'll never leave you alone."
I feel a warmth flood over me as his voice soothes me. He always says the right thing.
"Oh Clark. you can always make me feel better." I smile up at him and wrap my arms around his tall frame.
Being held in his arms is the greatest feeling I can ever have. I feel so strong, so brave. It's like he lends me his strength so I can make it through the day. Shivers run down my spin as I feel his body next to mine. I could stay like this forever, but I can't. Dawn is breaking.
The orange and pink tinted light floods down on us as we make our way back to my house. Before I leave to crash back into bed Clark takes my hand and says seriously
"Lana, just follow your heart. Do what you have to. Think about yourself for a change, and make yourself happy. If you don't want to be with Whitney, then don't be with him. You can't please everyone."
And once again, Clark has said just what I was thinking. Maybe today I'll have the courage to truly follow my heart.
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