May 17, 2001

John and Jing-Mei drove home in silence. The day had been too much for them. The shooting victims had started to pile up and scared them. Luckily they found the shooter but that didn't set their nerves at ease at all. They had almost lost a few of their own. Adele Newman would be okay eventually. Elizabeth could have died. Mark could have died. Thinking about that shot reality for to john. They silently walked into their apartment.

"So..." Jing-Mei sighed, "What did you put on my recommendation?"

"I can't tell you. It's confidential." John said.

"Oh come on. You said you wrote five things down." Jing-Mei looked at him, "Please?" John smiled slightly.

"Well, I told them that you were sexy, you were great in bed, You are a great kisser, You have amazing breast, and that you have a kind heart." He said. Jing-Mei chuckled.

"You're such a liar." She said

"Maybe I am. Maybe I'm not." Jing-Mei smiled slightly and then sighed.

"Why do people do that?" She asked quietly. He looked at her.

"Do what?"

"Kill people like that." John sighed wrapping his arms around her waist. He kissed the top of her head.

"I don't know, Baby." He said softly, "It's a horrible world that we live in."

"But it's not all horrible. There are something's that I love, but...nights like these I just think. What the hell am I doing? Why am I a doctor? It's a nothing job." John looked at his girlfriend.

"Its not a nothing job. It's a very important job." He said stroking her hair; "plenty of people would have died today without you." Jing-Mei started to sob into his chest. John's heart ached with every shuddery breath she took in.

"I c-can't get the images out of m-my head, john. Th-hey just kept on coming. I-I thought there would be no end and A-Adele got-"

"Adele will be fine, Deb." John said trying to soothe her.

"W-What if she can't walk ever again?" She asked still crying.

"Then she'll cope and deal with that. You have to think of the positive things of this." John said trying to think of some himself, "My cancer patient. We wouldn't have found the cancer in time if he hadn't been shot." Jing-Mei sighed.

"And he's lucky, but the people who died aren't." She said. John sighed realizing he was going to win this one.

"Come on, deb. Let's go to bed. You're tired and upsetting yourself more." He said.

"Don't treat me like a child, john." She said right before she yawned. John smiled at her softly and led her into the bedroom.

* * *

A gentle breeze washed over Jing-Mei as she walked into the ER. It was empty completely empty. No nurses. No doctors. No Patients. No one. Jing-Mei could see her breath in front of her. She shivered. The scenery seemed to move in slow motion.

"Hello?" Her voice echoed off the walls around her. Suddenly, a gunshot ran out. Jing-Mei jumped and looked around her. Still no one was there. Her blood stopped in her. Se saw Elizabeth running down the hall in tears.

"God, Chen. Run. Just run and save yourself." She cried as she ran out. Jing-Mei stood there. What was she talking about? Jing-Mei walked down the hallway. Her heart pounded in her chest. She heard a soft gargle.

"Hello?" Jing-Mei turned into exam room seven. She stopped. John laid on the floor in a pool of blood. "Jesus John!" She cried and ran to his side.

"I.....been....shot." He mumbled.

"I see! I see!" Jing-Mei ripped his shirt off to see he had been shot several times in his chest. "Oh god." She put pressure on the injury.

"Deb." John mumbled as he started to cough.

"God john. Stay with me please." Jing-Mei cried. It seemed that more blood started to pour from the wound. Soon the whole floor was covered in John's blood. Jing-Mei shook with fear. All her medical training seemed to go out the door. "Oh god. SOMEBODY HELP ME!!" She screamed.

"I....l-love....you." John said as his eyes closed.

"No, john! Wake up! Don't leave me John." Tears streamed down her face as john's body went limp in her arms. "Oh god please no!! John please!! John!!!! JOHN!!!"

* * *

"God, John." Jing-Mei mumbled in her sleep. John opened his eyes and looked at her. She was sweating and crying in her sleep. He gently shook her.

"Deb? Deb, wake up Sweety. You're having a bad dream." He said soothingly. Jing-Mei slowly opened her eyes. "Are you okay?"

"Oh god, John." Jing-Mei threw her arms around him pulling him close. He patted her hair.

"It's okay, Deb. It was only just a dream." He said softly.

"Please John. Don't leave me. Don't ever leave me. I couldn't bare the pain." Jing-Mei sobbed into his chest.

"I won't, Deb." John said, "I will never ever leave you... I want to spend the rest of my life with you I hope you know." Jing-Mei nodded wiping her eyes.

"I know." She said, "The dream felt so real."

"It was only a dream." He said. Jing-Mei shivered laying back down. That nightmare had felt so authentic. The feel of the room. The feel of John. She hoped it would be one dream that would never come true. Jing-Mei snuggled into John and listened the beating of his heart. John sighed and kissed the top of her raven hair. "Deb, I love you more than anything else in this world. You're my heart and soul and that'll never change." Jing-Mei blushed burying her face into John's chest.

"You always know how to make me feel better.... You always say the right things."

"I hope I keep on saying the right things. I want to make you the happiest woman alive."

"I already am."

"Promise me the next dream you have of me will be a beautiful dream. Maybe me naked riding a horse or playing in a pool of whip creame." Jing-Mei burst out into a fit of laughter.

"Oh John." She giggled and leaned up and planted a kiss upon his lips. "Goodnight, Darling." John smiled.

"Goodnight." He wrapped his arms around her and pulled her tightly to him.