Disclaimer: I don't own Abby, Carter or any of the ER 'gang'

I Want You

It was so surreal - almost clichéd. She was surrounded by twisted sheets, and, more importantly Carter.

The sun was up but she didn't know what time it was; she wasn't prepared to move to find out. She was trying to take in what she felt and how she felt it.

She felt the urge to play with his hair but she didn't want to wake him, she played with the sheets instead, her eyes transfixed on his sleeping form. She wanted to stay like this forever but she'd never admit it.

She saw his eyelids begin to twitch, he slowly opened his eyes. A puzzled look spread across his face as he tried to take in the significance of the surroundings. The smile that soon appeared on his face told her that he remembered.

'Morning'

He sighed

'Sleep well'

Abby tried to think of a suitable answer for first thing in the morning

'Better than most. You'

'When I was sleeping not so much'

All her previous efforts had been pointless

'Well, you seemed quite happy, you look so cute when you're asleep, almost as cute as that puppy off the TV'

She patted his head.

Without warning he rolled on top of her

'I may be cute but I'm not a puppy'

She lifted up the arms he was using to prop himself up and rolled on top of him.

I never said you were a puppy - I said you look like one, which you do'

He rolled back on top of her

'I do not'

She was in an awkward position She had two options - she decided against surrender.

Without warning she pushed him, only this time instead of rolling towards the middle of the bed she rolled him off it. However, she regretted it as she saw the contorted look on his face as he hit the floor.

He quickly regained his composure, his grimace turned to a devilish grin. She tried to bury herself under the covers. For a moment she thought she was safe but a hand grabbed her foot and began to tickle it mercilessly. She squealed. The tickling stopped. She couldn't see where he was - the sheets were covering her head.

His head appeared in front of her, just like the night before their foreheads connected - there was something about this display of affection, it was intimate without being too heavy, honest without showing too much.

'Boo' he whispered

She rolled onto her back

'I can see right up your nose'

He bent down and kissed her nose lightly

She sighed

'Breakfast?'

'Hmmm'

He pottered out of the bedroom while she clambered out from under the covers. She pulled on her bathrobe.

As she passes the phone she noticed the flashing light on the answering machine. She looked up at Carter; his back was towards her as waited for the coffee. She pressed the play button.

'Abby? Are you there? It's me...'

She pressed the delete button - she knew exactly who it was.

She didn't want to deal to deal with it at the moment, right now he wasn't important. She didn't want to think about him, what she would do if he found out, what he would do, what Carter would do. That's if he didn't know already.

She glanced back over to him, he looked content - he didn't know.

He rubbed his back as he carried a plate of eggs over to her.

'Eggs a la moi'

She smiled

He continued to rub his back as he returned to the kitchen to get his own breakfast.

She knew he wouldn't say anything about his back - he rarely did.

'Do they know?' She asked as he came back into view.

He sat in front of her

'Know what?'

'About your back'

'Lots of people have bad backs'

'That's not what I meant, I meant, do they know you were.'

'Stabbed? No they don't - why would they need to'

They don't I suppose. I was just.'

'Yeah, I know, I'm sorry. I just don't openly talk about it'

'Its Ok, you don't have to explain'

He smiled.

She could see that he didn't want the conversation to go any further.

'Do you have any plans for today?'

'Um, well I'm having lunch with my parents and I'm meeting Susan for coffee at four. Do you have a shift today?'

'Starts at 5. There's a meeting at three though'

He looked up

'Going?'

'As long as you don't mind'

'Why would I mind? Anyway, knowing Susan, coffee will turn into a three course meal'

'What time are you meeting your parents?'

'Half twelve, which, I believe, gives us two and a half hours'

'I believe it does'

'What would you say to scrapping breakfast and going for a walk?'

'I'd say Ok but I need a shower first'

'Really?'

'Yeah'

'Because so do I'

She turned and walked towards the bathroom

'Where are you going?'

'There's no way I'm letting you use all the hot water'

'Is that so? Well, I think there's only one way to solve this'

'Letting me go first'

'No, well, kind of. You can go now.'

'Thank you'

She walked into the bathroom

'But so will I' he said as he followed her in there.

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They were walking along by the river each cupping their own mug of coffee.

'Long time since we've done this'

She was too deep in thought to respond

She couldn't pinpoint what she was thinking about. The whole situation created so many questions. She knew that eventually she'd have to choose, she also knew that she didn't want to be put in that situation but it was inevitable. Carter or Luka? She wasn't ready to make that decision yet. She hadn't prepared for the situation at all. Before that morning she'd never thought about it. Things had taken an unexpected turn.

'What are you thinking about'?

'This and that, nothing important'

It scared her how easy it was to lie to him.

A strange silence gave her the impression that he knew she was lying.

She wasn't sure how he did it, he could see right through her, well, maybe not right through her but further than anyone else, he had to be pretty good at it though because she had mastered the art of lying - she could almost convince herself that she was unprepared to choose. Almost.

'Ok, I've got to go, don't want to keep my mother waiting'

'I don't want you to go'

'I have to, I haven't seen them in two months'

He kissed her forehead.

'You know that's not what I meant'

'Well, I can't stay here'

'Why not?'

'I've just left'

'You could come back'

'You could come with me'



There we go another chapter - hope you like it. Thanks to Carrie for making me post this!! Next chapter soon! Please review, your input is greatly appreciated - Hna xXx