Here's the fifth chappie! x.x; Okay, it gets really disturbing in this chapter...I doubt you'd want to even review after this...;;;

sb1--o.o I thought the flashback was enough to give you sort of an idea...Well, sorry if I didn't exactly tell you last chapter...This one will answer you question. -pause- A little...too much. ;;;

Blu Sprite--Thanks...Ahh, I'm so ashamed I wrote such a gross fic! _

K-chan--I know...! Eww, I can't believe I wrote such a thing!! Yes, Ryou will be the one to help her out.

Kari--^_^ You got it! I'll keep writing till the end! Hehe...Yeah, writing an R for my first fic wasn't my intention, but...it kinda just...I got inspired, so I just wrote it. ^^;;

karigan--Thank you! That's okay, I don't mind! OMG...No...I know this is R, but this is to the point that it's not funny anymore...! So no...Anzu won't get raped.

L.W. (lone wolf)--^^ Thank you so much! Hey, that's a good idea...I might actually make him have a heart attack...Lol

C. M. Dracoon--Sorry it was too short...I kinda just wanted to like, introduce the new life Anzu's going to have.

DigimonPrincess Shinaka--^^;; Yeah...I'm going to become afraid of my own fic! x.x;

lili--^^;;; Sorry! I had to add to Anzu's problems...Yeah, I'll try to describe Anzu's stepfather in this chapter.

Lisa--Yep, sorry. ^^; It's not my favorite part of the story, either, but I promise this is the last chapter with stuff like that in it.

Disclaimer: I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh!.

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Searching for the Light

Chapter Five: Shattered Spirit

"Okay, we're here! Why don't you go and unpack in your room?" Anzu's stepfather said cheerfully. He lightly hit her rump, pushing her towards her new bedroom. Anzu made a disgusted face, but happily complied. Anything to be away from that lecher...

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"Anzu!" Anzu's stepfather called from the kitchen. Anzu finished stowing away the last bit of her clothes into her drawers.

"What?!" she shouted back, a hint of annoyance in her voice. Hey, if this guy was going to be a pervert, she didn't have to be nice to him.

"Come help me cook lunch!"

Anzu growled lightly. "Coming!" she yelled irritably. The other bad thing about the old man was that he couldn't seem to be able to say 'Please', or 'Thank you'.

Anzu stalked into the kitchen and asked stiffly, "What should I do?"

Anzu's stepfather seemed unperturbed by her rudeness. "Would you cut these carrots?" He handed her a cutting knife.

Anzu took it, and for a moment, the knife seemed to have a strange allure. Anzu stared at the blade for what seemed like forever, contemplating whether she should drive it through her arm right then and there...

Anzu shook her head, and begin slicing the carrots into neat pieces. A few minutes into her cutting, Anzu's stepfather reached over her to get some spices from the cabinet above her. She felt a large, hard object being pressed against her ass. It left though, as soon as her stepfather had collected the spices he needed. Anzu shuddered inwardly and swiftly cut up the remaining carrots.

"Okay, now what?" she asked quickly, before she threw up.

"Come here and stir this clam chowder," her stepfather instructed.

Anzu obeyed and begin stirring. She lost herself in the swirling motions the spoon was making in the soup. This was going to be a long spring break...

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After lunch, Anzu had been left to her own devices for about an hour. Now, her stepfather was calling her into his room...

Anzu walked in slowly, getting a nauseating sense of déjà vu. When she had stopped right in front of him, he pulled her onto his lap, grinning lecherously. Anzu gulped, the feeling of déjà vu becoming stronger.

"How much do you love me?" he whispered.

"Lots," Anzu muttered dejectedly. This was all a bad nightmare...She'd wake up soon enough...

"Show me." A hairy hand snaked up her blouse and under her bra, fondling her breasts. Anzu grit her teeth and narrowed her eyes at her stepfather's large, round stomach, fighting back tears. She let him continue his tormenting for a while longer before she finally couldn't stand it anymore.

"U-Um...I have to go. Bye." Anzu's voice cracked, and she sped out of the room. She decided to take a shower. She gathered some clean clothes and entered the bathroom, locking the door behind her. She quietly stripped, shivering slightly when the cold A/C air brushed against her skin. Anzu slid open the glass doors of the shower and turned the water on to medium temperature. She stepped inside, allowing the warm water to wash away her fears and pain.

A tear dropped onto her hand. Anzu realized she was crying, but made no move to stop the flowing tears. They splashed down from her azure eyes, mixing in with the shower water. Anzu felt so, so dirty. She couldn't tell anyone, not now. And she was too afraid to tell her stepfather to stop. Anzu shuddered as dark thoughts clouded her mind. 'Mom...I wish you were here to help me...'

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Blood poured from the gash on her arm. Anzu held her cutting knife in one hand, smiling insanely. Somehow, she felt comforted by the familiar pain. She reveled in it...To her, it was the only way to escape the harsh reality of her life...

And so the pattern began...Every day, at some point, Anzu would get called to her stepfather's room. There, he would lecherously torment her until Anzu finally gathered the courage to excuse herself. She would then head to her room, take a shower, and cut herself. Anzu was slowly being drawn further and further into the darkness and unhealthy depression, and she hardly noticed it...

She had stopped eating much. She hardly slept at all, because she wept every night for her utter misfortune. She became pale, thin, and weary. Her bright blue eyes became dim, the light in them gone. Of course, her stepfather didn't notice any of this, or didn't make a comment; he was probably too busy being a pervert.

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Finally, after a long, long time, spring break ended. Anzu hoisted her backpack up, and began walking into the school. Behind her, her stepfather drove off in his fancy car.

Inside Domino High, Anzu emptied her backpack, grabbed her science books, and headed feebly into the science room. She was greeted by a cheerful Yu- Gi, along with the rest of the gang.

"Hi, Anzu! How was your spring break?" Yu-Gi asked happily. He immediately regretted his question as Anzu looked at him with sorrowful, puffy red eyes.

"My mother died." Anzu took a seat, staring down at her hands, which were folded in her lap.

"Anzu...I'm so sorry..." Yu-Gi reached over and patted her hand sympathetically.

Anzu sniffed. "It's okay, Yu-Gi."

Just then, the first bell of the day rang, signaling the start of first period.

"Settle down, class, settle down," Mrs. Takeshi said. Once everyone had quieted down, she announced, "Now, let's review for our astronomy test this Thursday. Everybody, please take out your study guides. You should have completed them over spring break."

The sound of shuffling papers was heard as the students took out their study guides.

"Yu-Gi, the first question, please. Describe Mercury."

Yu-Gi nodded and said, "Mercury is the closest planet to the Sun. It is the second smallest planet, and the fastest in orbiting the Sun. Its name is derived from its speed..."

Anzu listened intently, but felt herself growing weak and unable to maintain consciousness. Her eyes slid in and out of focus, and she had to fight to keep them open. Anzu couldn't stay awake anymore...She faded to unconsciousness, falling out of her seat.

"Anzu!!" Ryou shot out of his seat, catching her before she hit the ground. "Anzu? Are you all right? Anzu!!!" He then noticed her pulse beating very faintly, and her labored breathing.

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Okay, that was really bad, don't kill me!! ;.; Anyways, please review, if you feel up to it. ._.