~Tears of Loneliness~

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[Chapter 3]

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Seto

 Why did it have to be this place again? I always hated this building. Never have I ever wanted to go here again, but… Why? Why did it have to be him? I was worrying over Anzu that I didn't keep in mind that I also have to watch out for my brother my only little brother. I held on to the boy's hand. It was small, but he wasn't small anymore. I found that out a few minuets ago… He's strong, cause he is a Kaiba as well. I know he is a fighter, but I feel…

 I slapped a hand on to my forehead, ridding my mind from the painful thoughts. I can't think straight, as many thoughts entered my head. I couldn't sleep. How can I if I'm dying to see my brother fill up with life again. I promised I wouldn't leave him, so that is why I'm staying right here, on this seat, never leaving his side. I could tell the nurses are getting worried for the both of us, but Anzu, being so kind, was pushing the nurses away from the room. I couldn't help but smile a bit for the girl. She was recovering slowly, but I could tell that she still held the sorrow.

 The beeping sound from the monitor was getting on to me, but at least it told me that my brother was alive, in some sort of way. To me, he wouldn't be alive until I see those blue eyes of his open up and brighten once he sees me. Chills crawled all over me as I stared at all the tiny tubes entwine together connecting my brother to some machine. I remember this, but Anzu was on that bed. I could see some kind of fluids flow from the tiny tunnels of the tubes enter from Mokuba's body and from the machine. Even if these instruments creep my out, it was the only things that could save my brother. I think I know how he felt when I was laying unconscious on the hospital bed, but the incidents were different. I take the suicide case, while his was homicide. I grit my teeth in frustration. I have to clear my mind and just focus on Mokuba. I won't sleep, until I am the one who first sees him. I have to. I am his brother…

 Suddenly a hand touched my shoulder. It made me jump and look into the sapphire eyes of that girl, Anzu. She pulled up a chair and sat next to me and stared at Mokuba. She reached over him and brushed her small hand against Mokuba's pale face. "Don't worry too much of Mokuba, Seto. He wouldn't want you to kill your self over him." She whispered shakily. What is she saying? Why would he say such a thing? Then I felt her gaze upon me. I turned and stared into her eyes. I got lost and couldn't feel myself. Like I got numb all over. "You should rest Seto. I tried my best to keep those nurses away, but then they also told me that I should be check on." Her eyes were filled with sorrow. Her hand went up to her own forehead. She was still for a while and she sighed out. "I don't look sick, do I?" she whispered.

 I shook my head and went back to look over Mokuba. Anzu leaned over to the small boy and brushed strands of hair from Mokuba's face. She slightly smiled and laid her head down on the bed. She stared at Mokuba and her hand was placed over his small shoulder. I couldn't help but just stare at her. She started to chuckle and her lips moved into a whisper. "I know you like her…" She smiled widely and her eyelids lowered. I felt as if she fell asleep. Who wouldn't blame her? She was restless and has been awake, watching over… Mokuba and me… Gently I stood up and walked over to where blankets were folded. I took one and draped it over Anzu's shoulders. I sat back down and took Mokuba's hand again. I brushed my thumb over his soft skin. I looked over to my side and saw how beautiful Anzu really was.

 What? I shook my head. I closed my eye and let the feelings and thoughts sink in. I opened my eyes again and stared at Anzu. I guess she is very intriguing. But in some way, she was very attractive. I reach my hand over to her and tucked some hair behind her ear. I saw her calm face that was sleeping peacefully, like my brother. Was I really feeling some emotions towards her than just a friend? Slowly, ever so slowly, my head rested onto the soft cushion of the mattress. I can't believe I'm doing this, but by just staring at the two pale forms, it lured me into its spell for slumber. My lids were feeling heavy, and I couldn't resist. Darkness covered my eyes. I heard the soft breathings of the two and the continuous sound of the beeping machine. Soon my sounds were muffled and slumber took over.

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Anzu

 Lost. That is what I am. I am lost and scared. I feel lonely and pain. Put this all together and it can blow your mind. You just feel the need to release it, and the only way to resolve it is to create pain to yourself. I tried to close myself from the world. I tried to make myself disappear. But I couldn't fail them… They would be very mad at me and wouldn't want me to live my life like this. But they don't know how much pain I carry. Everyday it hurts to know that your friends will never come back, or to forget that you no longer have a family. I try to free that buried pain inside me, but it would never let go. It will never leave until I die…

 Morning rose and the beams of light peeked through the blinds. I opened my eyes to see the head of the great and famous Seto Kaiba resting his head on the mattress. Memories filled my head of the event that happened days ago. I lifted my head and looked at the head that I shared a pillow with. Still no sign of him ever waking up yet, but I won't give up hope for the little kid. He cares for me… I felt something fall from my shoulders. I looked behind me as I saw a blanket. Seto must have given it to me. Suddenly I felt a blush creep up my cheeks.

 The guy stirred in his sleep and fluttered his eyes open. I could feel myself blush even more and I couldn't move. I sat there stiff, staring at the older Kaiba, awakening. His deep blue eyes blinked a few and he sat up straight. He stretched his back and cracked a few bones, here and there. When he was settled he looked at my direction. Ah! It's those eyes. Those eyes are luring me to have an urge to have him. I blinked many times and looked over at his little brother. "Morning." I whispered, while hiding my redden face. I could feel him crack a smile a bit and said in that chilling low tone of his. "Morning." I swear, if I wasn't as tough as I am, I would melt all over and say some mushy stuff that will really make Seto go far away from me, very far. What makes my head spinning is that suddenly he smiles from time to time. I find it cute. I think he should smile often. It makes him look younger. The Kaiba that I'm sitting next to be different then the Kaiba who was in Duelist Kingdom or Battle City. That was a few years ago, and times change, people change.

 I smiled upon Mokuba and leaned over to brush strands of the little boy's head. Mokuba is such a sweet kid. He really cares for me, and he wants me to stay. Well, I like him and I'll do my best to help him in any way. I saw Seto looking down on the ruffled white sheets. He held the boy's hand and was gently rubbing his thumb over Mokuba's small hand. I looked at Mokuba's pale face and a smile lifted on my lips. I couldn't help but remember all the teasing I put him through. He as well, teases me liking Kaiba…

 I heard a groan that alerted Kaiba and me. At the same time, we saw his face stirring and his eyelids tightened. I back away into my seat and watched. Seto has to be the one that Mokuba sees first. The boy opened his blue eyes and stared at the ceiling, focusing his vision. He slowly turned his head and looked over at Seto. I could tell that Kaiba's spirit was lifting. I saw that smile that Mokuba was trying to hard to keep up. I knew that he could tell that his older brother is very worried over him. His smile reassured Kaiba that he was ok. "Mokuba…" Seto whispered. The boy moved his lips in little movements. Maybe he couldn't say anything right now, cause his throat was dry. I know how it is to wake up after so long a time. "Hi… Big brother…" His tone was low and small. If I were one of their siblings, I would cry all over him.

 Mokuba turned his head over to the side and looked at me. I smiled, so I won't let him feel that I was worrying. Hey, that's not fair. I can't worry over him, while he can to me? Humph, I'll worry for him all I want, for the both of them. But right now, he needs to be comforted. "Hey there, little guy. Do you feel better enough to get out of this place?" I shivered at this building. I really don't like it here, but there is a worldwide reason for such an edifice. He smiled at me and slowly nodded his head. I leaned over and used my thumb to graze across his forehead, gently. The boy has to sleep for a little while longer. He has to get one hundred percent OK. As my soft skill worked, his eyes started to droop back down. I smiled at him, while he stared into my eyes. Before he went to a slumber, he whispered to me. "I don't… like her." Then he fell back asleep. I chuckled a bit and sat up straight. I looked over at Kaiba who was a bit angered.

 "It's too early for him to wake up. If we want to get out of here fast, then he has to sleep, just a bit longer." I told Seto. I stood up to walk out of the room. I patted Seto's shoulder and left. I could feel Seto's eyes on me as I walked out. "I'll get coffee." I told him before shutting the door.

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 Mokuba

 It's been a week since I was last in that, how should I say this? Hellhole. I know I'm recovered and all, but the problem is… Whenever Seto is near me, he gets all cautious over me and he would feel even guiltier. Ok tell you what, I know it may not be right but… I'm stuck in a wheelchair. You heard it. The doctors said about the gunshot hitting a nerve? And something about I'll get better after a few weeks. I have been going to this doctor who has been helping me into walking again, like therapy. Seto doesn't come with me, but Anzu does. She acts as if I'm not even in a wheelchair, though she doesn't completely ignore the fact that I can't walk. She has been the only one who has been positive about me being in such a thing. And it makes me feel good inside. But whenever Seto is around, I feel… I don't know. But I know he feels guilty all over.

 I was staring out the window as the gray clouds gather. I guess another rainstorm is rolling in again. I sighed out of boredom. Then a hand touched my shoulder and I looked up to see Anzu. She smiled at me and bent down to my level. "Do you want to walk around for a while, before the rain kicks in?" She asked in her gentle tone. I smiled back and nodded. She stood up and pushed the chair towards a closet. She opened the door and took out two coats and an umbrella. She helped me in putting on my coat. She put hers on and placed the umbrella in the back pocket of this chair. She then took the keys for the mansion and we went out the door. Since the news came out of me being in a wheel chair for a while, Seto got this ramp for the front door. We strolled along, with Anzu pushing me. We looked around, watching the spring season bloom. All this rain is good for the in coming flora. I love spring, cause it's beautiful when you see the sun bathe over the flowering greenery. In some way, you could see glitter, sparkling all around it when the rays of light touch the precious flowers of nature.

 "Do you want some ice cream, Mokuba?" Anzu's gentle voice tickled my ear. She's a sweet girl, and I care for her, like she is my own sister. I wish she were. I looked over my shoulder and faced her sapphire eyes. I smiled at her and nodded. She pushed me until we stopped at an ice cream stand in the park. She got herself an ice cream bar, and got me a cone. Anzu was about to take out her wallet, but the man said it was for free. I sank in to my chair and felt a bit mad. Anzu pushed me deeper into the park and she sat down on a bench. We were far from all the commotion happening in the playground. I was next to Anzu, and we ate quietly our ice creams. I looked over and saw Anzu staring at me. "Are you ok?" She asked. I gave her a questioning look, and her smile turned up side down.

 "You felt bad, cause that man gave the ice cream for free." She said. It was like she read my mind. "I don't want anyone to feel sympathy for me, just because I'm in a wheel chair." I told her. She stood up from the bench and knelt down in front of me. "Mokuba, do you feel helpless in that chair? Do you feel that way when ever people look at you differently or treat you like you are like some person who can do a thing?" Anzu understood everything about me perfectly. I looked down and stared at my ice cream cone. I nodded to her question. "It's just, they are making me know that I'm in a stupid wheel chair. It gets me made that I can't do anything." I told her. Anzu took my free hand and I looked back at her. "Then, just ignore them. Prove to everyone that you can do things, and that you're not only lame." Her looks were of determination. What is it she wants me to prove? As if she read my mind, her voice was encouraging to me. "You have many abilities that hasn't been shot down by a gun shot. You can still cook, you can read, speak, listen and use you own two hands. Some people out there are unfortunate to loose other abilities. But on what I heard, you loose one ability; the others will get stronger." She squeezed my hand.

 Her words lit my spirits up, but then it came crashing down when a thought entered my mind. "But, what about Seto. He is like them. Every time I'm around him, I feel useless and like a doll. I don't want him to feel that way." I told her. Anzu became silent for a while. She finished up her bar and threw away the stick. When she came back, I was already finished as well. She smiled at me and she looked over where the trash bin was. I was hesitating on rolling the wheels my self, but then I moved my chair on my own. I threw the paper and Anzu was next to me. I saw her smiled brightly at me, and I felt like I can do things. She ruffled my hair and pushed the chair around giant the park again. "Seto is being a big brother, that's all." She spoke in a soft tone. "He cares for you, and blames him self for your accident. And he is just showing you that he cares for you a lot, by doing things for you. Just let him. He loves you very much, not to lose you. Seto fears that, on what ever you do around the house, might kill you." I knew that already, but I still feel… "But you can prove to him that you'll be fine." I felt Anzu stop my chair and I looked up at her. "How bout you cook tonight. I haven't tasted one of your delicious dishes for a while. I'll even help you out." She smiled at me. I couldn't help but smiled back at her, and I nodded. So we went on and walk back to the mansion.

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 He stood in the ruins of the old Mazuki residence. The area was wiped out and no sign of any thing that could stand the heat of flames. He walked on top of the black ashes and the wind blew gently over the ground. He looked around once more. 'We missed one, and she is still out there.' His thoughts were haunting. The houses near by were scorched from the flame, but didn't go down like this one. 'We have to kill each and everyone of them…'

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Mika: Uh-oh. Who is that man? Mokuba is in a wheel chair? I didn't want to kill off Mokuba so early in the story. It'll be really sad. He is kind of important through out this story. ^. ^ It sort of affects this whole plotline. Well, hope you enjoyed. R&R please! But no flames… I need reviews to get my motor running to type up the next chap.