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Chap.5:Goodbye

Courtney tapped impatiently on her chair's plastic armrest, her eyes sweeping over the calm hospital. The nurses chatted idly or made the rounds, slowly running through their daily routine, all the while the Corinthos family sat in tense silence. Carly sipped the almost cold coffee in her hands, resisting the urge to gag as the muddy liquid slipped down her throat. Courtney let out a huff of breath, glancing at the overhead clock for the fifth time in two minutes. A doctor stepped out from the double doors, making a direct path towards the occupants of the waiting room. Courtney glanced up at him, tears clouding her vision when she recognized his expression, a mix of grief and sympathy. The blonde sunk further into her plastic chair, letting the tears slowly slip down her cheeks. She was narrowly aware of Sonny and Carly both standing to hear the doctor's news. Courtney barely heard the mans apology, seeing Carly's blurry form sink to her knees, the sound of sobs piercing the air while Sonny held her tightly. Sonny glanced over at his sister her calm response telling him she was not even there; she was somewhere, where Jason would be alive. Courtney shut her eyes, tears still escaping from beneath her eyelids as she tried to shut down, attempting to stop the painful ache that invaded her heart.

I am alone, she thought, her hand gripping the heart around her neck tightly her other hand still heavy with the ring he had given her. Rising from her chair, the blonde walked towards the room the doctor had come from. Sparing a glance towards her brother, she realized, it was the first time she had ever seen him cry. Hesitating briefly, Courtney stepped into the cluttered surgery room, her eyes taking in the ripped open packages and bloody cloths that lay discarded. The faint sound of sobs drew her gaze upwards, she was met by Monica's shaking form, sitting on a metal stool that lay beside Jason's body. The doctor glanced up as she heard Courtney enter the room, seeing the pale girl before her she let more tears slip down her cheeks. Monica walked to her daughter in laws side , pulling her into a hug, receiving no response. Courtney stood limply, her eyes focused on the body lying on the stretcher. Pulling back Monica looked at the girls face, her eyes appearing distant her body cold to the touch. The doctor soundlessly left the room, leaving Courtney alone with her fiancée. She stood still for what seemed like forever, afraid to move further into the room. Her mind whirling as it tried to process the truth Jason was gone. Finally taking a seat beside him, she took his hand into hers raising it to her cheek, its coolness barely affecting her. His eyes were closed, his face appearing almost peaceful. Courtney could almost imagine they were at the loft and that she was just watching him sleep. Letting a hand sweep over his cheek a chill ran up her spine, Jason was never usually this cold, was all she could think. Her hand falling back to her side, tears burning at her eyes as she attempted to hold them back.

"You promised everything would be alright, you said you would never lie to me" Courtney choked out, her tears slipping over Jason's palm that she still held to her cheek. Courtney stopped talking, as if awaiting a response, one she knew would never come.

The blonde placed Jason's hand on the spot directly above her heart, her free hand once again caressing his cheek.

"It still beats for you, it will only ever beat for you" Courtney whispered, sobbing as she felt her heart beat speed up, as she gasped for breath between sobs.

"Why did you leave me? I just found you" Courtney stroked Jason's hair as she spoke trying to find some warmth, any that would show a piece of him was still with her. Pulling away the blonde placed Jason's hand at his side, resting her head on the mattress beside it.

"I love you, Jason Morgan" She whispered her heart sinking as she remembered he would never say, I love you too, again.

"Courtney, Courtney honey" Carly shook the sobbing girl in fear. Courtney opened her eyes, squinting to see the figure in front of her better. Carly smiled letting out a relieved sigh as she observed her sister in law look around the room, suddenly coming back to reality.

"What happened?" Courtney inquired wiping the still warm tears from her cheeks, looking towards Carly questioningly.

"You fell asleep waiting for Monica, are you okay?" Carly sat by her sister in laws side, taking her hand.

"I guess, I had a nightmare that he died, Carly he has to be alright" The blonde stated, her gaze connecting with the dark blondes.

"He will be, he's strong" Carly responded, smiling reassuringly.

Both women looked up when Sonny re-entered the waiting room, three steaming cups of coffee in his hands. Whispering her thanks Courtney took the coffee staring at the steam as it rose from the Styrofoam cup.  A cough drew her attention upwards, towards the dark haired doctor that stood before her. A moment of panic attacked Courtney as she recognized him as the man from her dream.

"Ms. Matthews"…

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