Ko-chan to Ya-chan
Disclaimer: Think about it for a sec- if we owned them, why would we be broke most of the time? roll eyes at lawyers' stupidity
Warnings:
K/Y: Angst. MAJOR angst. It's a side piece to "Mou Hitori no Boku", so it's to be expected, ne?
Yuugi: Are you gonna make Yami-koi hurt me again? teary-eyed
K/Y: swoon AWWWWW! Of course not! This is just what you're feeling in the fic during the ceramics classroom scene. Yami won't be hurting you at all, 'cept what he's already done emotionally….
Yuugi: sarcastic Oh, that's a relief…. runs off to go find Yami
K/Y: --;;; Since when can he be sarcastic?
Directions: Insert the lyrics to "Slipping Away" by Trust Company.
Slipping Away
-insert 1st stanza-
"Tsuyoi ni de aru desu…" Those were your exact words, right?
Tell me, how do you expect me to be strong when I feel so powerless? The guilt is overwhelming; the pain mind-numbing…… The weight on my shoulders dragging me down further with every breath. Do I have the right to live, even like this, when others, INNOCENTS aren't allowed that luxury?
Do I have the right to simply slip away….?
-insert 2nd stanza-
You told me it would be okei, Jou-kun. That everything would be 10-times easier for me now that you were here to help. Then why didn't you help me? Come to my aid when he started taking control?
Why didn't you stop him? Why did you simply run away without at least trying first? You said you'd be there! YOU SAID YOU'D HELP ME!
-insert 3rd stanza-
You let him get away with it, Jou-kun. You let him take the lives of innocents. How can you live with yourself, having done what you did, when I can't even live with myself for being too weak to do anything, no matter how I tried…..?
If it had been a different person to help, would they have stood against him? I know I told you to run if things went out of hand, but you didn't even try. You promised, PROMISED to stay by me, and yet, I had to go through it alone. Tell me, it that how you treat all your other promises?
-insert 4th stanza-
I feel empty. That's the only way I can describe it…..
Empty of all feeling; devoid of any emotion at all. It's like my mind, my heart….. my body and soul are just…. numb. All that's left is the dull ache of guilt and pain. I don't even know if I'm dreaming or not; it's just….. an endless void.
A lethal cycle that never seems to end; that's what it is. I feel the fear, fear of what he'd done. Then hatred, hatred of him. Next is the disappointment, disappointment of your actions. And last is the guilt.
Guilt because he did what he did due to me; because I couldn't keep my opinions to myself. Guilt eating away at my soul because I couldn't stop him myself. Guilt tearing me apart for ever completing the puzzle in the first place.
-insert 5th and 6th stanzas-
I counted on you, Jounochi. I counted on you to do the right thing and warn everyone about what he planned to do. You were the last resort, in case I couldn't stop him. You were their last hope.
But you failed them, Jounochi. Failed me. You broke your promise, and left me on my own to face him. It's your fault I feel this way. Your fault I can't stop crying.
-insert 7th stanza-
You're trying to make up for it by comforting me now, but that won't cut it. You caused me so much pain- deeper than any he's ever inflicted. It's one thing to be stabbed through the heart by your known enemy, but it's an entirely different thing when your best friend, your ONLY friend stabs you instead.
Just because you're my friend, I rework the logic until I'm the one at fault. I can't hate you; won't hate you, because if I did, there'd be nothing left for me. 'Kaa-chan and 'Ji-chan are too busy to care, and 'Tou-san….. Well, he never cared in the first place, did he? You're all I have left, Jou-kun… I'd just give in without you.
I resist him because I want to protect you; protect the ones I love from getting hurt. Even those I don't know, or those I'm not that fond of….. I do it for your sake; for everyone else's sake. If everyone acts in their own favor, is it really worth the pain to try to save them?
-insert 8th and 9th stanzas-
You tell me to be strong, even if you yourself aren't. I try, because I feel it is the right thing to do, but I can't hold on forever. I'm slipping, ever slowly, and the only one who can stop it from happening is my other. If he stops, I'll stop; simple as that. It's in his hands, Jounochi, and I can't do anything about it…
I still hold on, though, and will until the end. Until I slip away into the cold, unforgiving shadows…..
K: 00; Damn… That was pretty serious angst!
Yuugi: sniffs I'm sad now….. L
Yami: hugs Yuugi Now now, aibou….. It's only a fanfic….. It can't happen….
Yuugi: Arigato, Yami-koi! kisses Yami's cheek
K/Y: swoon Aww!
Y: Anyhoo, please review, since we're working so hard to please you by updating as many days in a row as we can. After this, we'll probably only be able to update on weekends, though in writing-sprees like this or slowly crawling I don't know.
K: Please read "A Hunting We Will Go" too! We're sad 'cuz it's a funny adventure about the muses and ourselves, but no one's reviewed it yet! ;o;
K/Y: Anyhoo, until next time! Ja!
